I’m Just His Wife

“I’m not named Andrea Steinfields for nothing, Ivan …” I said smiling.

He turned to me and parked the car on the side of the road. “You will still go? Hah! were you giving me a heart attack, Rigella Andrea?” he asked incredulously.

“Oh, I’m not, honey. Just calm down there because I can really handle myself. And, if ever I will die-”

Her eyes widened and cut off what I was going to say. “Rigella!” he scolded me.

I laughed and bit my lower lip. ‘there’s a little chance that I will die and I wholeheartedly consider that little chance, Ivan. So, if ever that happens, always remember that you’re the only man that I love from the very beginning. And, please, don ‘t ever forget about me because it’ll break my heart. Understand? ” I still grinned as I said that. I want to have a light talk with him but no matter how much I try, I can’t. I think, I even made this worse.

He closed his eyes sharply and sighed. “If ever you will die, I will immediately kill myself just to be with you again …” he said and opened his eyes. His gray eyes were already looking at me seriously.

“What the hell! You won’t do that!” wrinkled when I said. All I could think was that I was just his car and he would say he loves me and he won’t forget me!

He grinned. “I will surely do that. Whether you like it or not or whether you approve it or not. So if you don’t want me to do that don’t let that happen. Promise me not to let yourself get killed.” after he said that he folded his arms.

I sighed and bowed slightly. I couldn’t believe that”s what he was going to say.

“I can’t promise you that. No one can tell or know whether I’ll survive it or not. That’s why I’m leading everything.” I smiled sadly and looked up at him.

I don’t want to have faith on something that was not yet doubtless and safe. I would only be hurt when I hoped that nothing really bad would happen to me. Uno was known as the Satan of the Earth so no matter how much I make myself believe that he can’t harm me, my system was still opposing and I can’t even stop it.

He started this game but he’s not the one who will end this. I will be the one to end this and I will do my best just to win this game. I will get the justice that my family deserves. By hook, or by crook.

“If you will die, I’ll die too …” his eyes were sad staring at me.

I smiled and held her both hands. We looked at each other’s hands at the same time. My smile widened even more when I saw her wedding ring that I had always dreamed of wearing.

“I love you so much …” I said passionately and a tear dripped from my left eye. I turned to him and saw the slight frown on his forehead as if he was having a hard time.

It was as if my heart was slowly being crushed by the pain. Too much pain because there was no certainty if we can get through this problem. Sometimes I just want to run away from everything but I can’t. More people might be affected when I do that.

“Why does it have to be like this? Why can’t we be together for too long? Why do we only need a moment? Am I just really stupid and I wasted a few more years wishing we were happy?” a bitter smile curved on his lips after saying those painful questions.

I pressed my lips tightly together and touched his cheek. His eyes widened at me again and I could see the extreme pain and sadness there.

I tried to smile and steady my expression even though I was getting very weak.

“Everything will be alright. And even if not, don’t lose hope. Whatever happens everything will be alright. It will all end too. Just trust me, yourself and God. Trust when you do. you can get through it all. We can get through it … “I nodded and tried to smile to encourage her.

He closed his eyes sharply and nodded. I smiled because of that. I know he’ll try to understand this. He’ll try to understand me.

He woke up and smiled softly at me. “You’re really strong. I can’t believe until now you’re still strong despite what you’ve been through. I really, really admire you for that …” he took my hand that was holding his cheek and lowered it. His other hand caressed my cheek while the other held my hand tightly.

“I’m only this brave and strong as long as I have you. I’m only this brave and strong because you’re here by my side and not leaving me despite of all the pain and trouble that we experienced. I’m only this brave and strong because … I know that you love me and I’m loving you so much too … “sabi ko naman.

She sighed and I automatically closed my eyes when I felt her lips touch mine. His kisses were slow yet full of love. It was as if he was expressing in his kiss to me his longing for me for many years.

I responded to his kiss and wrapped my arms around his neck. He slightly bit my lower lip so I grinned.

When he finished kissing me our foreheads remained touching as we both smiled at each other. I know there was no certainty but I will force myself not to give up. I will force myself to fight for survival.

“I will always love you, Rigella. Till death do us apart …” I saw the radiance of her eyes with great pleasure.

I gave him a real and beautiful smile. “I will always love you too, Ivan. Till death do us apart …” I said.

And with that, he sealed my lips again with a kiss that almost melted my heart …

I grinned before I could even open my eyes. My whole body hurts like hell. My body was already in pain and after now it has increased even more. Well, it’s kinda my fault too. I gave up earlier. But this time, I’m not drunk anymore. I’m on my right mind when we did it.

I finally opened my eyes and was a little dazed by the reflective light that I thought was coming from the light attached to the ceiling of this room. I turned to my side and raised one eyebrow slightly. Not even Ivan’s shadow did I see there. Where was he?

I slowly sat up in bed and arranged the blanket wrap around my naked body. I grabbed my hair and looked up to look at the wall clock. I saw Ala six already there so I realized an hour since I fell asleep. I sighed and stood up.

I slowly walked towards the door while grinning slightly. It was as if I suddenly regretted giving myself back to him because it really hurt my body. But I wanted it so I just had to put up with it.

I left the room and quietly walked down the stairs. I’m quite disappointed. I thought when I woke up he was next to me and he was the first I would see but he wasn’t there. But the question was where on the continent was he now?

When I got down I headed in the direction where I seemed to hear someone talking. In the super quiet of this house it was easy to hear any noise. Maybe it was Ivan so I immediately walked over there.

In the kitchen I went so I was a little surprised. What was he doing in the kitchen? Maybe, he’s cooking? I don’t know.

The door was slightly open when I reached for it. I peeked inside and touched the door knob. I was about to enter but something stopped me inwardly. Weird.

My forehead furrowed and I peeked even deeper. Ivan turned away from me and held a cellphone to his ear. I also noticed the object behind him and I sighed without a voice. Why do he have a gun?

My face lost expression and I watched him. Why does he have a gun? He himself told me it was safe in this place but why does he have a gun?

‘thanks God, you finally answered it, Uno …” Ivan said in a reluctant voice.

My grip tightened on the doorknob. Why was he calling Uno?

“Rigella was here with me … Oh, yes. We can finally do our plans. I pretended to force her not to leave so that she wouldn’t be seen pretending to be everything and this was just one of our shows … Of course, she believed me . You know that woman, I can easily learn from her so she immediately took a bite of our bait … “I heard Ivan laugh. “… Yeah, she needs to pay everything that she did to our org. She sabotaged some of our group’s businesses … Lara? What happened? .. Kill her then. She doesn’t matter anymore because she used na natin siya … Good, do anything that you can to prepare. And please, don’t let them harm me. Kakampi niyo pa rin ako. I’m just going to pretend that I’m Rigella’s ally … Sure “Alright, I’ll hang up. Maybe the powerless queen will wake up.” Ivan laughed again before he put down his cellphone.

He took a frying pan and science and began to fry the fish on the plate. His face was expressionless and a cold grin painted on his lips.

My gaze went with hers and my fist clenched. For the ninth time, I was fooled by him again …

Andrea’s POV

I fired a shot before I fired and the bullet hit my target. The red dot on the center was broken and it formed a perfectly molded hole. The muzzle of the gun was smoking before I laid it down on the white table. I guess, the force I made to pull the trigger was so exaggerate.

I really admire guns, because in a flash, when you pull the trigger, you can damage something or someone. And mostly, it can also cause the death of anything. So many people use it to do things that will satisfy them.

It’s either they will use their guns for self protection or they will use it for their insignificant and senseless slaughter lust. They want to use the gun to hurt anyone who interferes with their planned or planned evil deeds. Perhaps, it must be also the reason why guns were used for warfare between two rivalries.

In bloodshed guns and other deadly weapons were the solution. People really need it to please their useless obsessions with revenge or any other useless thing that they were willing to waste time on. As long as they shoot or kill their enemies with any gun or knife they will be satisfied. That’s how platonic those people who love to seek revenge.

And I won’t deny I”m one of those people, people who love to retaliate against people who were in arrears with them. But my reason was not as superficial as theirs. I have a deep and recondite reason, that some people won’t understand because they didn’t experienced to lose all of their family members. My reason was more superficial compared to others who were just too thirsty to kill someone. I won’t kill a person unless it blocks my way to acquire and achieve the justice that my family deserves.