Holding on to you

“You guys don’t have to come in with me, I don’t need any help telling my best friend that I’ve been lying to her for four months.”

I sat in the Limo that was parked in front of Jessy’s house with Killian and Kinsley. I avoided looking at Killian but looked at his sister instead. I was still upset at what he did to me earlier, but he didn’t seem to care and that pissed me off even more. The fact that my mood didn’t even faze him made me want to scream.

“Yeah, sure take your time and call me if you need me.”

I smiled at Kinsley for understanding, but it dropped from my face when I saw Killian giving her an irritated look. However, Kinsley just rolled her eyes at him and stared him down just the same.

“Don’t give me that look, she wants to talk to her best friend in private and that doesn’t include you. Not everything she does will include you, get used to it.”

I was grateful for her saying the words that I was afraid to say. I know I should stand up to him but I was too much of a coward to do so. I might be a confident badass when I’m with my brothers, but none of them scares me the ways Killian does.

I looked between brother and sister who were still having a stare off and decided that I wasn’t going to sit there and wait until the two stubbornest people I know decides which one of them was right because it would be a very long wait.

Rolling my eyes, I grabbed the door of the limo about to get out but stopped in my tracks when Killian called my name.

“RED!”

The whimper that escaped me was weak and pathetic making me feel thoroughly ashamed of myself. I slowly moved my hand away from the door and looked up at him. My complete and utter fear evident in my face and I didn’t dare look at Kinsley for fear of seeing pity and disappointment in her eyes.

“Did I say you can leave?”

His voice was cold and held a hard edge to it. I don’t know why is it he’s always pissed off with me?

“I-I, um, I’m s-sorry.”

I was going to look away from him but then I remembered how much he hated that. I watched as he clenched and unclenched his jaw, working hard to control his anger. I swallowed the lump in my throat and like always his intense stare made me start shaking. I just couldn’t help it, that’s just the effect he had on me.

He pressed the button to whine down the window that separated the driver from us and started talking,

“Jeff, take us to the airport.”

I gasped, and Kinsley said, “What?”

I started panicking, I needed to talk to my best friend, I couldn’t just leave without telling her what I promised I would. She’d never forgive me. So in an attempt to stop him from making my best friend hate me, I leapt across the seat and straddle him. Taking his face in my hands, I brought my lips down to his and kissed him with everything in me.

He growled deep in his throat, pulling me closer. His hands found their way into my hair and he pulled slightly causing me to hissed in pain. For him it was all about making me feel pain, I don’t know why he does it, but he seems to need it, craved it.

Breaking the kiss and pulling away, I looked him in his eyes and saw passion and lust burning so strong that I felt it to my core.

“Please, Killian,” I pleaded, “Please let me see my best friend.”

For a long time, he just looked at me, staring into my eyes like he was searching for something. I started to feel unsure and uncomfortable under his scrutiny, I was about to accept defeat and move when I felt his hands tightened on my waist.

“Turn the car back around, Jeff.”

A smile spread across my face and my heart started beating happily. I bounced up and down on his lap, clapping my hands excitedly like a little kid.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you!”

“Well, that wasn’t weird and strangely hot at all.”

I totally forgot that Kinsley was still in the car, a heated blush crept its way up my cheeks and I looking away embarrassed to be seen like that.

Warm hands took my face and turned it, I looked down at Killian confused, but all he did was slowly caress my face with his thumb.

“Never hide how beautiful you are.”

What does he mean by that?

I nodded my head although I clearly didn’t understand what he meant by that. He pulled my face down to his and placed a feather kiss on the tip of my nose then my lips before releasing me.

“Go now before I change my mind.”

He didn’t have to tell me twice, I quickly got off of him and reached for the door handle. When I got out of the limo I say Jessy standing by her door looking curiously at the car. her eyes widen in shock and the apple she was eating dropped from her hands when she saw me.

I waved at her and was about to walk off when my hands were grabbed. I reluctantly looked away from my best friend and leaned my head back into the car.

“Don’t make me regret this, Red.”

I promised him I was only going in to talk to my best friend and nothing more. I saw the uncertainty still swimming around that pale green depth of his, so moved in closer and kissed him on his lips for good measure.

“Go.”

He said for the second time. And before he could change his mind again I took off running.

“What the hell, you lucky bitch, when I saw the limo pulled up I thought Justin Bieber has finally answered my fan mail and decided that his life is worthless without me.”

I laughed at her and rolled my eyes. She had this crazy obsession with Justin Bieber, she tries to go to all of his shows and his face was literally plastered all over her bedroom wall like wallpaper.

“I told you, it’s his loss if he can’t see what’s thousands of miles away from him. it wouldn’t hurt him to answer just one of your phone calls or reply to one of your numerous letters and emails.”

She was giving me a ‘you know, right?’ expression making me laugh harder. I looped my hands with hers and we walked back into the house, the TV was on as we walked in and Pretty Little Liars was showing.

I looked on the sofa and saw Jessy’s older brother Andrew sitting Indian style with a bowl of popcorn and a cushion on his lap. He was so focused on the screen that he didn’t see us behind him.

Moving quietly, I took out my phone and snapped a picture. The loud click of the phone made him turn around. A horrified expression crossed his face when he realised that I caught him sitting with only his boxers watching Pretty Little Liars.

“This is one for the books, Drew.”

Jessy and I both started laughing, then we broke into a run when he leaped from the chair and started chasing us to get the phone. We barely made it to her bedroom and shut the door before he could reach us.

Throwing ourselves on the bed, we couldn’t stop laughing hysterically. My breath was cutting and I was finding it hard to breathe. I started to get a cramp in my side which told me that I needed to calm down.

“That was… that way amazing, did you see the look on his face?”

We were on the bed facing each other, Jessy wipes the tears from her eyes and hiccupped.

“I know, right? you’ve got to send me that for blackmail purposes.”

I nodded my head and we stayed like that until we were both calm down enough to actually about what I was there to tell her. Jessy was the first one to sit up, she folded her feet under her then grabbed her fluffy pink pillow to hug it.

One of the reasons that I loved her is because, we both like pink and purple, we’re both afraid of getting into a pool so that means we can’t swim. Both our favourite movies of all time is Carrie and anything with Zac Efron (don’t judge).

We’ve been best friend forever, and I didn’t want anything to get in the way of that.

“I lost my virginity and it wasn’t to Jason.”

I rushed the words out of my mouth because I knew that if I waited any longer, I would never be able to say it. When I looked at Jessy she was looking at me with her mouth gape open like I just told her I’m an alien from Mars who was planning to eat all of her Oreos.