A Doll for the Boss

We were here in the middle of a crowd, Omer challenging Serkan and Serkan challenging Omer, both wanting to kill each other in front of everyone, obviously I wanted to die of embarrassment. -Please don't make a scene, everyone is watching us- I commented as I stood between them.

-We're leaving.

-Serkan please, I didn't come with you, I'm going to have dinner with Omer, when I arrive we will both celebrate, if we have anything to celebrate.

Venom was the only thing that came out of my mouth, I wanted revenge, but I wouldn't make a fool of myself in front of everyone.

-You heard Serkan, he's leaving with me, he prefers my company, my hugs.

-Omer please! Don't make me leave with him, don't challenge me.

-What's going on here- my father intervened, who was accompanied by my mother.

-What are you doing here?- I asked, looking at them finely, I didn't want them near me.

-Can't we come to my daughter's graduation? You may not carry my blood but you carry my last name, I don't want gossip.

-It wasn't necessary for you to come, your presence bothers me.

-I don't care what you want, in the end we have an agreement Samantha, you have to go with your husband, if you leave with this man- my father said, looking Omer up and down- you will unleash shame on both families, use your brain. My father was a ruthless pig, he knew perfectly well what he was capable of to keep the peace. I decided to go with Serkan, there was no point in fighting against the current, they were all damned.

We were both in the car, the driver was silent while I just looked out the window, Serkan was talking on the phone as always, eclipsing my existence.

-I hope you're happy, you've created a wave of gossip.

-You're the one to blame, I told you I was going with Omer, to let me go, I didn't go to my graduation with you, I didn't even invite you, I care very little what people might say about me, nobody knows the hell I'm living.

-I didn't force you to get married, much less to get pregnant, you're not going to come and deceive me with your innocent face pretending you're a saint, you're the damn culprit of my family's misfortunes.

His words were ice daggers piercing my chest, hurting me to death, a slow and painful death, he was accusing me of something I didn't even know what.

-What are you accusing me of? What did I do to ruin your life?- I asked hysterically.

-Forget it, you're not worth it, you're nothing but a good manipulative actress, you like to get in bed with strangers and then get pregnant. Wait! What?

I didn't realize the exact moment when my hand flew to his cheek, slamming with all the force possible.

-Stop the car- I yelled losing control.

-No, you won't go, you have to pay.

-What do I have to pay for?

-Your lack of respect, your lies, your manipulation. You're a disgraceful Samantha! On top of everything you had to wear that dress, I can't explain how I felt when I saw you, why did you take it without my consent? -Stop the car or I swear I'll jump, I prefer death than being by your side.

I waited a few seconds and the car stopped abruptly and before I could do anything else, Serkan opened the car door, taking me roughly by the arm.

-Go, disappear from my life- Serkan shouted.

-You don't have to tell me twice, never again.

I watched him get into his car and then drive away, I was left alone, in the middle of the road, directionless, not knowing what to do. Tears began to fall down my cheeks as I tried to process what had just happened. How had I gotten to this point? How had I allowed my life to become a total chaos? I felt lost, confused, and hurt.

I decided to walk, to get away from everything that tormented me. I needed time to think, to reflect, to decide what my next step would be. But the rain didn't give me a break, there were as many drops as tears, my dress was ruined, although I knew it didn't belong to me, I deduced from Serkan's reaction that it belonged to one of his former lovers, I don't know what I was thinking.

I felt overwhelmed by a mix of feelings: shame, anger, confusion, sadness. I felt exposed to everyone, humiliated by the public argument with Omer and Serkan. My parents had appeared at the worst possible moment and their presence only increased my discomfort. I felt like my life had spiraled out of control, that I had lost my way and didn't know what to do anymore.

Serkan's words hurt me deeply, accusing me of things I didn't understand. His anger made me react and lose control, and ultimately, I found myself abandoned on the road, in the rain and directionless. Tears were flowing ceaselessly as I tried to understand what had happened and how everything had come to that point.

I felt lost and alone, not knowing which path to take. I needed time to clear my thoughts, to decide what to do next. The rain and the ruined dress were metaphors of my life at that moment: disorder and chaos. I needed to find a direction, a way out, to be able to move forward. But at that moment, all I could do was walk in the rain and try to find answers. I had been walking for about twenty minutes when a car came at full speed, I couldn't move, fear paralyzed me.

I felt my legs trembling in fear when I saw the car approaching at high speed, the lights blinded me and my body stood still, unable to react. I heard the screeching of the tires getting closer and closer, the sharp sound piercing my ears. Sudden and sharp pain invaded me when the car finally hit me, my limbs twisted in an anguishing spasm.

My head hit the asphalt hard, the dull sound of my skull against the road echoed in my ears like a macabre echo. Intense heat spread throughout my body, an unbearable pain that made me groan in agony. Everything turned dark, emptiness and nothingness took over my mind in an instant, leaving me in a state of confusion and indescribable terror.

The sepulchral silence enveloped my being, while my consciousness slowly faded into darkness.