Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

**Lisa’s POV**

It was a long and tiring day for me because I need to keep up on updating my lessons. I don’t want to lose my scholarship, not a chance. I need it to keep up my good grades for my future, like having a good job after graduation. Regardless if my father could totally support my schooling, I need to show him that he can be proud of me and I am not a brat daughter that would take advantage of the comfortable life he gave me.

My plan was to extend my stay in the school library to make some notes of the fast days I was absent. But I was too tired to proceed and planned it for another day.

My class ended at exactly 11:30 am and I was about to exit the room, I already saw him beside the corridor waiting for me. I don’t know why I feel this tingling sensation whenever I see him. As if my stomach began to cramp. I guess I was hungry or feeling something different.

“Can we have our lunch together since this is your break time?” He asked me while walking towards me smiling.

“Ok”. That’s all I could say since he already knew my schedules. How could I say no to the most popular player of the campus when all girls are craving for his attention. Can I consider myself lucky?

We proceeded to the cafeteria and all his teammates were already occupying a long table. They cleared a chair for me beside him and introduced all the people seated on the table. They were all friendly but snatching glances at me and Leon. They don’t tease us. It was a good and nice conversation with his team mates. He gave me his full attention while we ate and it makes me feel special. After lunch, I still had two more classes before I went home. He escorted me again to my next class. And before I entered my classroom, he gripped my arm and stared into my eyes. I just looked at him and watched what he would do next.

“I can’t take you home today. We have a practice later, if that is ok with you. Can you go home by yourself?” I was surprised that he was asking my permission that he can’t take me home? As if I am not used to going home alone. I’m not even asking him to take me home and he is not even obligated to do so. He is not even my boyfriend, yet. I Looked at him with a sad face.

“It’s ok. There’s no need to worry. I can get home by myself.”

“But I wanted to take you home so I know where you live.” He said with regret.

“Maybe some other time when you are free, ok?” I told him. Then he came closer. I felt a shiver to my spine because I thought he was going to kiss me then he whispered something to my ear.

“Just be careful, ok? Yeah, maybe next time.”

“Yeah, I will.” But his hand was still on my arm and he stroked my arm up and down. I felt cold and trembling. I got a strange feeling about what he was doing to me. I just can’t imagine what it was like to be kissed. Then he released me but was still staring at me. I felt his sadness but he has a duty to this school and team mates. Suddenly, he held up my chin and stared at my lips while he stoked my lips with his thumb. The more I blush and tremble and cold while he was stroking my lips. This is my first touch from someone special… Is he special to me?

I never thought this simple touch could bring my body to tremble and cold. My goodness it was so intense. I was staring at him too, while he was rubbing my lips with his thumb. I was imagining how it was like to be kissed by him. I was back to my senses then, he let go of my chin and smiled sweetly at me. I just looked at him. I just couldn’t react, then he slowly walked back and left.

I can’t understand what had just transpired. But it keeps on playing in my mind what had just happened. What was he doing to me? I keep asking that repeatedly in my mind and thinking of passing by where they practice, but I don’t want him to think otherwise. I decided to go straight home after my classes were over. I was getting a ride home and still imagining that romantic encounter with him.

Now, there are a lot of things that are playing on my mind. Does he have a feeling for me or was he just playing on my feelings? I am more confused now than ever, he was a famous man in the school. Not only did he have good looks, but also popular. I knew a lot of women in our school have been craving his attention to be his girlfriend. How can I pair with them? Why am I becoming important to his life? I need to be careful with my feelings or I will get hurt. I don’t want that to happen to all my first experiences. I felt what it was to be touched. If he would be my first kiss, I don’t want to get hurt at all. That would be devastating to me. I have promised to myself that I would not get into this relationship until I graduated from college. I also promised that to my father and I don’t want him to have doubts about me and lose his trust. I just need to focus on my studies first. I just hope I can keep up with what I say. I just hope I can control what I feel for him.