Yearning For The Badboy Mafia’s Love

CALISTA RAYMONDS

Tyrell parked the car in the garage and got down first , I’m shivering in cold and I felt weak. Actually, I have been silently crying and Tyrell didn’t even notice it.

I just don’t understand why it have to hurt this much and even if I try as much as I can to convince myself that Chase and I will never have anything going on between us, I just couldn’t bring myself to accept the fact.

Maybe I have been in love with him for a really long time but I failed to realize that.

I have also try to not believe any word Charlotte said but I see no reason why she would lie to me.

Ofcourse she’s right , how can I believe or even thought that Chase will love someone like me?

I have only been deceiving myself all this months that Chase feels the same way I do.

Tyrell got down and walk over to my side then opened the door for me, I muttered a thank you and got down from the car. I removed his jacket and handed it over to him.

I attempted to walk into the house but when Tyrell called my name, I had to stop and look back at him.

“Don’t think about any word Charlotte said to you. She can go as far as anything just to get what she wants” he said to me.

I just nodded and forced my self to smile at him and the smile disappeared from the face the moment I looked away from him.

Even if all Charlotte said to me are lies, it had already made me realize the truth.

That I’m in love with the Bad Boy Mafia.

But the hard bitter truth is that there’s no way he can be mine, just like Charlotte said, I’m just his slave.

I don’t even see any reason why Chase should like me back not with Charlotte there.

But Chase have every single reason to go for Charlotte, she’s his dead girlfriend’s twin sister, even if it might be weird and suspicious for them to date but I believe that if Chase truly love Madison, he’d like to date someone that is like her again.

And that’s Charlotte. They’re twins after all and there’s no difference between them.

I entered my room and shut the door behind then locked it, I stared at the small beautiful bag the doctor had handed me earlier, glad it’s well sealed so the rain didn’t affect my drugs.

Dropping it on the table, I removed my clothes and walk into the bathroom to take my bath. I’m supposed to start my online class today since it’s Monday, but funny enough, my day is already ruined.

For the next couple of minutes, I stayed in the bathroom with the water running down my skin, but I’m too lost in thought to wash myself.

I turned the shower off and stepped out of the bathroom, drying my body, I put on my clothes and went to lay down on the bed.

I closed my eyes but I’m not feeling sleepy. I just needed time to think for myself.

When was it the last time I fall in love? Or maybe, i’ve never been in love before. That’s why it hurts this much.

I tired to stop thinking about Charlotte’s words, I need to stop thinking about it if I don’t want to get hurt the more, but it’s very hard to do so.

I picked up my phone and opened my phone notebook, it’s been six months with Chase and I still have more months ahead.

My head hurts alot and I don’t blame it, I’m thinking so much than my head could carry.

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I woke up when I heard a knock on my door, I opened my eyes and yawned before sitting up. It’s afternoon and I don’t know how long I’ve been sleeping but my body hurts.

And that’s what happens when you cry yourself to sleep.

I walked to the door and opened it and it was “Maria” the maid. She flashed me a smile.

One thing I like about the maids is the fact that they’re all nice, some of the maids are not nice though but the ones that have been in my room all nice.

“Boss wants you in his room” She said to me and I widened my eyes.

“Chase is back?” I questioned her and she nodded.

I sighed. “Okay. You can leave now”.

I shut the door behind the moment she walked away and I led my back on the door, how am I supposed to go see him?

I’m so mad and the least person I want to see now is him. But he’s my boss and no matter what I have to right to say no to him.

For the fact that he’s nice to me shouldn’t make me think otherwise. I put on my flip flop and walk out of my room, I stopped at his door and stood there.

My hand was shaking that I have forgotten how to knock.

I breathed down again and again in an attempt to pull myself together, when I finally feel better, I knocked at the door and his deep strict voice to me to come in.

Breathing down again, I finally opened the door and walked it but I almost scared when Chase stood right in front of me like a ghost as he shut the door behind.

My back was on the door and he have his right hand above my head and at the door.

We were just so close that we can breath the same air, I looked up at him in the eyes and I almost cried.

Why is he making me feel this way? Why is he hurting my heart while he’s getting married soon?.

I couldn’t bring myself to hate him but I’ll make sure I don’t let him hurt me again.

I deserve to be happy, I deserve to me loved and not to be played with.

“I won’t let you hurt me again Chase” I thought to myself as I take a step away from the door and away from him.