Want to Play A Game

My body fills up with excitement once I see Matt. I am so happy that he is at my door right now. I’m just glad it’s not my mother or Jake this time. The situation with them is just unbearable right now. I don’t want to talk about it anymore. They know that I am right, we are heading down different paths but they don’t want to listen.

“Hey Jessica, I just wanted to come over and make sure that everything was alright. Not trying to be the nosy neighbor but I didn’t know if you need a friend at the moment.”

I can’t believe how sweet. I smile and say, “Thank you Matt, I really appreciate it. It’s just the way that my mother acts, she is all team Jake. She has been planning my wedding with him, since we first got together.”

“Well you would think that she would be supporting you more than what she is doing.”

“Matt would you like to come in?”

“Sure why not!”

As he walks into my apartment, I can smell his cologne and all I can think about is how fucking good he smells. I need to be cool and not act like an idiot. He can’t know how he makes me feel. It’s just too soon right now to try to be with someone else. Wanting him so much is honestly pretty exhausting.

Just craving everything about him and never getting satisfied. I barely know him but I want to get to know everything there is about him. I want to be smart about it but I don’t know how long I can deal with trying to be smart and not just indulging.

“You have a beautiful apartment Jessica. You really know how to decorate.”

“Thank you that is so sweet.”

“So would you like to watch a movie or something.”

“Are you sure it’s not too late for you to be up? Do you have to be at work tomorrow? I don’t want to be the reason your falling asleep at work.”

“Yes I have work but I think I will be okay. Besides I will have off for a couple days so I will be just fine.”

“So what do you actually like to watch?”

“Anything syfy, I enjoy”

I giggle out to him, “So what are you a syfy nerd.”

“That’s not very nice now is it? What about The Predator?”

“Sounds good that will be fine, I’ll make some popcorn.”

I can’t believe everything that has happened today but it’s going to end up being a good night. As I am making the popcorn, I’m feeling sort of nervous. It’s been awhile since I have been with somebody besides Jake. Even though nothing is going to happen, just a simple movie, it still has been awhile. I think he can tell that I am nervous, which makes me feel pathetic in so many ways.

I take the popcorn into the living room and sit it in between us. Trying to have a barrier in the middle, I think is a good idea for right now. As I start the movie it’s nothing but silence. I watch him as he watches it. I can tell that he’s actually enjoying the movie. I on the other hand, have no clue what is actually going on. I just enjoy watching him. Just to see his reaction to the scenes of the movie.

I am surprised that he didn’t pick like a horror film where he would think I would hug on to him be scared out of my wits. Oh my God how much I want to hug on to him. I need his protection from the unknown.

As the movie is finally coming to an end, I’m getting disappointed that he has to leave. It is so late I know that I need to get to bed for work in the morning. I shut everything off and I walk him to the door.

“Thank you so much for coming over to make sure I was okay. I really enjoyed your company tonight.”

“No problem anytime! I will talk to you tomorrow.”

He walks out the door, I close and lock it behind him. I begin getting ready for bed then hear a knock at the door. I figure that maybe he forgot something so I answer it. He’s not looking at me or even speaking. I’m not sure what is going on.

Suddenly he connects our lips together and kisses me forcefully, I am in aww. I don’t know how to react. I just kiss him back my whole body shivers. This feels like its magic not understanding what is actually happening but enjoying every second of it.

As his hands go on my sides his touch is remarkable, more than I could have ever imagined. I want more. I crave more as I’m trying to resist him. I can feel my body caving in. I’m wanting all of him, as he pulls away I whimper in disappointment.

He then looks into my eyes and puts his hands on my cheeks and says, I just want to give you a good night kiss good night Jessica.”

As I stood there in shock, I don’t even know what to say back to him. I watch as he walks back into his apartment. As my door hangs open and I’m left standing there speechless.

As I come to my senses and shut my door. I’m not sure what the hell that was at all, but it was so delicious. I went from being super tired to not being tired at all. I know its already late, I need to get ready for bed. I go get dressed and make my way to my comfy bed. As I lay there, I know I won’t be able to sleep now. I’ll be dreaming about that kiss.