Unforgiven Sins

Cinyla’s POV

I and BenChua deal with our plan for a vacation in Tagaytay. Actually, this is for the whole vacation of his company. I don’t know why he thought having this kind of rest, however, this is a good idea to relax and to build good communication with his employees and staff. Also, unforgettable bonding for each of us.

Meanwhile, I decided to be absent today because of the pain that I have experienced right now. I don’t really understand myself when I have my period, apart from being irritable all day, it’s hard to act or do something,

It’s a good thing that Ben agreed to my suggestion but to be absent for a whole week is a big NO! Hence, I realized it is my advantage to relax and think about myself. I got up even though I felt bad, I went straight to the kitchen to get some of my cravings which is chocolate and cheezy snacks.

After I got what I needed from the fridge, someone suddenly rang the doorbell outside.

It’s too early for anyone to visit me.

I fixed myself because I don’t who is that person and I am not wearing proper clothes. I am just wearing a thin white shirt and red shorts. Suddenly, someone continues clicking the bell.

“Just wait, it’s on its way!” I yelled outside and I am now mad because someone was continuing pressing my doorbell.

When I opened the door, I was surprised by what I saw. “Please open the door, I bring something for you,” he said.

“What are you doing here? You’re in the office, right?” I asked as I opened the gate.

When the gate was opened, he dropped the two paper bags he was carrying and hugged me tightly. “I miss you, how are you? Do you want me to take you to the hospital?” I let go of his embrace. “I’m fine, your hug is tight. Why? I’m fine.” I looked at what he brought. “What are you carrying, Sir Ben?” I added.

“Foods and napkins, you might need them. I’m sorry if I got all the brands since I don’t have any idea what you used,” he explained and handed me the two paper bags.

I don’t know how to react if I will laugh or be annoying to him. I noticed the two paper bags that he was given, I just wondered if he just did this just for me. To all girls, they will be amazed and proud if their boyfriend or husband do this thing.

“Wait sir, aren’t you going to work today? I mean Ben. Also, I am really fine. Besides, thanks for the things you brought, you’re still bothering.” It seems that I’m still kidding but he made me smile with what he did. This is too much. What are we? Sometimes, I’m gonna think for once that I’m your girlfriend and it’s vague. Unlikely to happen.

“Nothing. I set my day to relax and be with you. I mean, I can’t be bothered because of your condition. Based on my research, what you are going through is difficult.” I don’t know why he says this, but I just feel one thing right now. Romantic excitement. I didn’t think he was concerned about this matter.

I put his things aside first. We are currently sitting on the long sofa and since I am not rich, I just opened my two stand fans for him. It’s embarrassing because the CEO of the company is putting up with this in my little house.

“Are you okay? Sit here. Don’t worry about me. I’m used to it. Even though I’m rich, I know how to get along. Besides, I didn’t train myself to be artistic in other things.” It’s a defense that you think I’m judging him.

“You know you, you’re too defensive! It’s not like that. Maybe it’s because you’re hot, so I just opened it. Besides, I can do it. I just need to rest now and not move too much because my stomach hurts.”

“I know. I just explain myself here. You don’t have to think about that. Sure! Don’t come in even for a week. You’re still paid.” I almost stood up at what he said. “S-seriously?” I stuttered.

He smiled and answered. “Yes! I am telling the truth. I understand your situation. I don’t even have a brother but I said a while ago that I really researched about your monthly period. Besides, you don’t have much to do because I’m not there. Besides, after this week we will have a vacation.” He explained and I sat down next to him, I grabbed my stomach because it suddenly throbbed.

“Hey Cinyla, are you okay?” He supported me because I was already holding my stomach and my face could hardly be painted.

“N-no. Do I look okay?” I’m rude. He smiled foolishly as if he was even happy that I was challenging him. “You’re so cute!” It’s flattering.

I hit his arm in annoyance. “Stop! Just go home because my mood is changing now.”

“No! I will stay here. I’ll take care of you first. I will take care of you. You want to take me to your room.” I raised an eyebrow and it seemed that the pain I was feeling doubled.

“W-why?” I asked as if something had entered my mind.

“Did you think I can do that?” it whispered in my left ear causing my heart to speed up. Throbbing as if it wanted to leave my body.

I didn’t answer right away. I’m already feeling a mixture of emotions, adding more pain to my heart.

“Stop thinking, Cinyla. I wouldn’t do anything else. Make up your mind. I am here to take care of you. Relax!” I also breathed a sigh of relief because of his sincerity and I also thought that I did have one.

I just nodded and tried to smile. I don’t even know what else to say. I was also embarrassed because I was the one who thought of such a thing.

“Anyways, have you eaten yet? Do you want me to cook for you?” he asked.

“Not yet sir, I mean Ben.” He laughed when I made a mistake because he really doesn’t want me to call him sir when we’re together or just the two of us.

“You know what, I understand why you always call me sir. But I hope you get used to just being Ben or love if you want.” It was a joke that made me cry.

“Just never think about it. I am just joking. What do you want? Do you want rice or pasta? Just in case you don’t have stock in your fridge.”

I raised an eyebrow because he thought maybe my fridge was empty. Even if I’m here alone, I can’t lose my stock.

“Just go to the kitchen to find out. Heavy meal is not good for me especially when it’s the first day of my period. You can cook spaghetti or carbonara, everything you need is right there.” I explained and forced myself to stand up because I felt like my napkin was full.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“Are you still coming? I’ll just change, do you want to see?” I’m teasing.

“No, thank you! I hate blood. I was traumatized by that. I’ll just cook.” He just stood up and went straight to the kitchen.

I was left alone and thought about the last thing he said.

He has a trauma about blood. Why?

******

Three days passed and Ben came back and forth to my house. It’s not really necessary because I’m already moving, but he’s naughty, he wants to take care of me and watch over me. He was about to get me a nanny just to monitor me, but I refused.

I’m currently drinking lemon tea, it’s breezy and cozy around here. There are also many new fruits of different types of flowers.

Until I heard a horn. I stood up and peered at it from below. What is he doing here? Why is he here again? I looked at my cellphone and today is Saturday, there is no school and he should be resting with them.

I didn’t receive any text or call from him either. He rang the doorbell so I got down too.

It only took a few moments for me to get down because my house is not very high. When I opened the gate, I couldn’t imagine what I saw.

“Good morning, Cinyla. Flowers for you.” He smiled and handed me the red tulips.

I couldn’t speak immediately because I was shocked by his coming and of course what he brought.

“G-good m-morning t-too. T-thank you for this,” I stammered and let him continue inside my house. I don’t know why he still has flowers, whatever his reason is. I feel giddy!

“I am sorry to bother you this morning, Cinyla. I just want to check with you now. Because by Monday, the company’s vacation continues. I want you to be there so you can be closer to Mommy. Don’t worry, she is really nice,” he explained as if a thorn pierced my heart. Besides his news is surprising, I don’t know what could happen there.

“I see, Ben. But you don’t need to bring me flowers. What is it for? What is there?” I couldn’t take it anymore so I asked him.

“Nothing, I just want to give you flowers. Also, I miss you.” I almost swallowed what he said because maybe he was impulsive.

He held my hand causing me to be even more nervous.

“I want to court you again, I want you to know that you are still in my heart. Will you give me another chance?” He put my right hand on his heart. I felt its speed that seemed to keep up with the pounding of my chest.

“S-sir Ben…”

He put aside the flower I was holding and placed it on the sofa next to us. He hugged me and didn’t say anything more.

“If I was fast, sorry. If you are not ready, I am really sorry. But remember this, I will wait for you. I will be here for you. When you’re ready when you can. When it’s okay, I’ll date you.”

After he said that, he just give me a warm hug. I am just looking from afar. I just hope I’m ready, I just hope we can be.