Chapter 23-Somebody help, I’m Losing my mind.
“If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor.”
Eleanor Roosevelt
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Melody POV
Tears of pain,
Heartbreak,
Sorrow.
That’s how I felt ever since I met Lorenzo. It’s been a day but have not gotten hold of myself yet. I couldn’t bring myself to believe that Giovanni and Franklin were the same people. It was also hard to believe that Lorenzo was back in my life.
” are you sulking again?” The door to the room opened as Lorena and hope stepped into the room.
“Mummy, ” hope rushed to me and hugged me.
I was laying on the bed but my mind was somewhere else and when my daughter hugged me, it bought some peace to me.
“How are you doing baby? Do you enjoy the city with your aunt Lorena ?”
“Yes I did mummy but I wished you were there, ” Hope said sadly and I pulled her for another hug.
“I’m so sorry mummy wasn’t there for you baby. I promise I’ll come with you next time.” I told her and she smiled sweetly and lay beside me on the bed. “How was the city?” I asked Lorena who was undressing.
“It was fun but we miss a certain somebody who refuses to come with us because she is sad,” Lorena said pouting and I smiled at her childish attitude.
“I’m sorry for not coming along with you guys.” I apologized and sat on the bed.
“So how are you?” Lorena asked and I knew what she was asking about.
“It’s a lot to take in babe, ” I said sadly. “I can’t bring myself to believe that he is alive, ” I said sadly while staring at my daughter who was a replica of franklin.
“I know babe, ” Lorena tried to console me but it only makes me break into more tears. ” I didn’t come here so you’ll cry, babe. I’m here for you.” Lorena walked towards the bed and hugged me.
“He was fine all along while I suffer alone, ” I cried. “He…” I hiccups. “He was fine all along, ” I hiccups again and sobbed in Lorena’s arm.
“That’s enough Mel. Your daughter would be sad once she sees you crying.”
I looked at my daughter who was sleeping peacefully and couldn’t stop crying. Somebody should please help me because I’m losing my fucking mind.
“I’m so sorry Hope. I’m sorry for bringing you into this cruel world. ” I cried as I watched her sleep. “I’m sorry, ” I hugged Lorena tightly and sobbed.
“It’s okay, ” she pats my back gently and consoles me. “It all going to be fine.” She assured but was she saying the truth when she said it was all going to be fine. Was it until I lose my fucking mind.
At night, when everyone was asleep. I sat on the ground while Lorena and my daughter laid on the bed asleep. I stared at the ceilings and thought about what to do with my life.
Should I tell Franklin what I meant to him? Should I tell him that I was his wife? Should I tell him that he has a child with me? What if I tell him and he doesn’t believe me? What if Lorenzo tells him lies about me? Should I run away from mecianda? Those were the thoughts running through my mind until an idea about the project plan came to my head.
Memories.
As soon as those words came to my head, I stood up from the ground and picked up my computer that was laying on the table inside the room. I turned my computer on and began to type my presentation with the energy I felt for two seconds again. It was as if I was refreshed and I had no pains. When I finished typing, I stood up and paced around the room. I thought of something else and I quickly went back to my seat.
I searched online for cheap rent that could accommodate two people. I couldn’t stay in a motel forever and I needed a house that’s could be safe for myself, Lorena and hope. The first house I saw was a small studio apartment that could accommodate just one person so I didn’t go for it. When I scroll down the search, I saw a two-bedroom apartment that looks homey and comfortable for two people. It was a red and white painted house that’s has a rooftop. I looked up the price and when I saw it, I quickly call the seller and we negotiated.
I had no idea why I was doing what I was doing but I just wanted a fresh new start for my family. That night, I had a smile on my face as I close my eyes.
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Giovanni POV
It was happening again. The nightmares were back again. I thought it has ended ever since melody came into my life but tonight, it was the worst. The nightmare I had tonight was the worst of all.
In the dream, I saw myself getting killed and my body was thrown into flames. It was a tragic sight. I woke up with a scream and quickly turn on the lights in my room. I sat on my bed and looked around to see if I was fine. The dream felt real and I thought it was true. I stood up from the bed and walked downstairs into my kitchen for a cup of water.
After getting the water, I walked back to my room but towards the stairs, a memory flashed through my head and it caused me to groan painfully and dropped the glass of water in my hand down. I held my head tightly and screamed aloud.
Help franklin. I love you, Franklin.
Those words kept resounding in my head and for a while my vision was hazy. I couldn’t see anything so I had to seat on the staircase. After some minute, the pounding in my head went away but I didn’t stand up from where I sat and I didn’t know when I fell unconscious.
When I woke up, it was morning and I was on my bed.
How did I get here?
I asked as I looked around my room.
Did I sleepwalk?
I rubbed my head softly with my left hand and flinched as I felt a pain in my palm. I looked at my palm and saw it bandaged.
When did I get injured?
I heard some footsteps entering my room and switching into a defense mode, I grabbed the nearest object and stood up from the bed.
“Yes mum, the doctor just left.” I heard a voice said. I quickly dropped the lamp in my hand when I saw Lorenzo walking into the room. “He is awake, ” he looked at me and informed whomever he was speaking with on the phone. “I’ll call you back.” He said and end the call.
“What are you doing here?” I asked as soon as he ended his call.
“Really? That’s the first thing to ask me after I saw you unconscious and bleeding on your staircase. ” Lorenzo said angrily.
“How do you mean?”
“How do I mean? Did you get dumb overnight Giovanni?”
I cleared my throat and pointed a finger at him. “You are in my house Lorenzo so I will appreciate it if you could tell me why you are here in the first place.”
“I came to tell you about your uncle Ben’s birthday party when I saw you passed out in your staircase. What were you thinking Giovanni? How could live in a big house like this and have no maid or security?” Lorenzo scolded angrily.
“I dismissed Dennis because he needed to be with his family.”
“Whatever Giovanni. The doctor said you have to be careful and he informed me that you need bed rest for two days. He said you fainted due to exhaustion.”
“Exhaustion? I fainted because my life isn’t perfect.” I wanted to scream out loud instead I said, “are you done? I need to prepare for the company.”
“Are you even listening to all I have been saying?” Lorenzo questioned angrily.
“No, ” I shook my head and walked Into my bathroom.
“Hope you know you are a shit face? Fuck you, Giovanni, ” Lorenzo cursed angrily but I turned on the shower to keep his voice out.
Inside the shower, I stared at the scar that runs from my neck down to my left shoulder. I sighed and continue staring at the scar and couldn’t help but imagine the dream I had last night.
Somebody help, I’m losing my mind.