Chapter 369
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I shouldn’t have been the one losing it. Now Ayla was comforting me and no matter how good it felt, it wasn’t supposed to be like that. I was supposed to be the one that is going to be strong for her. All this time I figured things would be okay once I would have her back here with me. And of course, things are so much better not that she is here with me and awake. But sometimes all we still have to do is overwhelming.
Not just my usual work as the Crown Prince, but everything to do with the trials coming up for Hannah. Needing to find out where David is and contact the royals ruling that country to get them to extradite him and the rest of his pack to us so we can punish them. Ayla’s training which has been put on hold for too long meaning she has so much extra workload. Seeing how weak she still is today, how two hours at a food. festival was more than she could deal with scared me.
She wasn’t ready to get back to work yet, everyone knew. Nobody was pushing her into doing things she was not ready for. Not yet, but I know my stubborn mate, she would be the one pushing herself soon enough. After all she had pushed herself tonight. Just to go out with my parents and me. Only because I suggested it to her. I should have suggested to just stay on the pack ground. Have a picnic out in the open. She was so happy to see my parents again, making them happy that she didn’t take care of herself.
For so long she didn’t trust me to be the mate she deserves, and I fought
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so hard to make her see that I am. I would have done everything to convince her to give me a chance. And when she had finally let me in so freely, I kept on failing her. I should have kept her safe so she wouldn’t have been kidnapped. I have stood on the dungeon she was held captive. in. Where she has seen a silhouette of a wolf, knowing we were so close but not finding her.
Then she escaped on her own without me being ready for her. Finding her so late that she had slipped into a coma. And now that she was pack I failed at protecting her making sure she was safe, cared for and well rested. It was just too much, I couldn’t hold it back anymore.
“Griff, you got to let me make my own mistakes. We’re equals I felt how sick you were when I was kidnapped. I did not keep you safe either but it’s not our fault. I refuse to taking the blame for what David had done to us. It is not our fault, it’s no ones fault that we underestimated how wicked that man is. Because you need to be evil yourself to imagine the lenghts he has gone through to get what he thinks he wants” Hèr body might have still been trembling from her exhaustion, her voice was clear and powerful.
And even if it was hard to do, I had to believe her. I wanted to and we needed to moved past all of this. She might not be willing to accept blame for what he has done. I refuse to let him ruin the future, I refuse to let him break us so much that we cannot fulfill all of our dreams. I just needed a little reminder.
“You’re right, Darling, lets get ready for bed I am exhausted too maybe
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we can just watch a show in bed” I suggest, relieved to see Ayla nodding
at me.
I missed her and while she has been close to me today, we hardly spent time together. I mean I couldn’t blame her for sleeping so much. I wanted her body to heal and the doctor has been very clear about needing rest to do so. And her loving my parents as much as they love. her is one of the reason I am so in love with her. More proof that she is my perfect mate in all aspects life.
For now though I wanted us to just be together, spend some quality time. And as much as I love the nights where I am gaming and she spends her night reading next to me. We would still be in our own little worlds, being apart next to each other. What I needed now was just to be in the moment.
Tonight at the food festival she told us that she missed healthy food options. Which explained her craving for fresh smoothies, salades and pokebowls. It baffled me more to know that David wants her as his mate. but proceed to treat her like she was less than nothing. A hindrance, an annoyance when he was the one to take her away from her life to force her to fall in love with him. Accept him as her mate when he gave her nothing to love. Ayla was right just know when she said we would never be able to understand her.
When we just met I felt this need to prove to her that I was better suited for her than David. Now that I make my way to our personal kitchen I do not feel that need anymore. I know I am going to give her something now that he hasn’t but this time there isn’t a little voice in the back of my
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head telling me “See this will prove to her that we are better than her first mate”
All I want to do now by giving her this fresh fruit salad is to cheer her up. All while giving her body the nutrients it needs to get healthy again. There is one more thing I want to do for her, but I cannot tell her about that yet. It’s a bit of a risk I am taking but I think she will love it. If going out even if it was wearing her down helped her so much mentally this might be perfect. It should be less draining than going out amongst so many people. This should be a lot less draining and hopefully it would heal her a lot more mentally. When I saw her breaking down over not having a specific cardigan here I knew I had to do something about it.
I was stupid enough to think it was just about the cardigan, it was even more than what she told me. Every time now she would need something that was still at the White Oak pack it would remind her of all that‘ happened to her. And to the horrid reason why her stuff still wasn’t here. Why it still felt like she was just spending the night at mine, instead of feeling like she was home. I was well aware of the fact that my plan could backfire but it was a risk I was willing to take because if for once. everything would go as played it would be all worth it.
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