Chapter 35
Gracie
I glanced from my table of assignments to the window, it was quite dark outside already, every little sound made me jumpy, the stalker was still out there, who knows might even be watching me right this instant.
I try not to think about it but just couldn’t.
Brittany’s death still disturbed me, I couldn’t be sure Hayden actually murdered her
But he also didn’t deny it when I had asked him about it back then in school.
I straightened to my feet and made my way out of the room.
Voices that belongs to Hayden and his brother were conversing in low tones as I headed downstairs .
I walked into view to see them, they sat near the fireplace so engaged in their discussion, they haven’t noticed me yet .
“After he was shot, he was apparently saved… stayed hidden. ”
Who was shot and stayed hidden?
I shouldn’t be eavesdropping but I also couldn’t move away from my spot.
“Hence the doctors report, he was in coma for some months ”
“He had secretly communicated with his brother all these years and hopes with his daughter everything would end… ”
What daughter were they talking about?
“Such a selfish bastard ” Hayden cursed sounding irritated
“Do you plan on telling her that he’s alive ? ”
“She doesn’t need to know … it’s best for her to remain clueless considering he doesn’t have long before I finally get him, and we’ll end his miserable life for real this time ” Hayden replied
Who were they talking about ending his life?
How could they talk about ending a man’s life so easily?
Was this what he had planned for my family if I hadn’t come along with him?
A tight pit formed in my lower stomach, even though they abandoned me, they were the people who still raised me up, I wouldn’t be able to see them get hurt.
My thirst for water was gone, I made my way back inside the room and buried myself under the bed covers.
Hayden was indeed dangerous, I get the feeling that I haven’t seen his worse side yet…. What he’d showed me wasn’t even close to what he is capable of.
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I chewed slowly on my beacon and eggs
I really don’t have an appetite since yesterday….
But he’d ordered me to finish the entire plate and currently his gaze was focused on me..
Sebastian also sat down with us on the breakfast table, it couldn’t be any more awkward or tensed for me.
A knock sounded on the door and Sebastian left to answer it.
He returned seconds later looking downright enraged.
“what happened ? ”
“it’s the cops, they are here”
My gaze snapped up at that.
Hayden straightened to his feet, casting me a gaze that told me not to move from my spot.
He followed Sebastian out of the room.
I couldn’t just sit here without knowing anything , it was suffocating.
I straightened to my feet and headed to the living room, from my spot I could see and hear everything .
“We just have some questions for you and need your full cooperation concerning the death of your classmate Brittany Walters ”
Hayden was relaxed against the door frame looking totally unfazed.
“what does that have to do with me? ”
“We received information that you visited her house with a gun, you have some questions to answer Mr Mcandrew ”
The blood drained out of my face, who had informed the police, aside from me and Hayden no one else….
Clarissa….
Oh god! she must have overhead our conversation and…
What if Hayden thinks I was the one who tipped them off?
He spoke something to Sebastian who nodded , I was too far away to hear what he told him .
I watched as he followed them into their car, they drove off while Sebastian returned back to the house..
His gaze found mine momentarily , but he totally ignored my presence, walking past me he went straight upstairs.
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I paced about restlessly, I kept glancing at the ticking clock, my nerves were at its ends and I couldn’t point out a valid reason why I was this nervous.
No more than ten minutes later the front door pushed open and Hayden appeared.
I stopped pacing as his gaze settled on me.
He approached me in three quick strides, his gaze was blank revealing nothing.
“Y.. you are back? ” I stuttered in surprise , considering the fact that it was a murder case shouldn’t they have detained him for more than ten minutes?
“Shouldn’t I be back? ” he threw back at me pinning me with a stare.
“It wasn’t me! swear… I didn’t tell them anything”
” Of course I know it wasn’t you… or we wouldn’t be having any discussions right now, you would have been getting your ass punished right now ”
An involuntary shudder accompanied with relief ran through my body, his gaze looked glazed as if he was enjoying a secret thought.
“Do you suspect anyone that could have done it? ”
” I don’t know that ” I spoke out the lie, squirming under his direct gaze. I couldn’t bear to implicate Clarissa, he was going to hurt her and I can’t allow that to happen
“I think you do . Your little friend from school took it on herself to run her fucking mouth off, wasting ten minutes of my precious time .”
A lump formed in my throat, he already knew about it?
“H… how did you find out? ”
“Does it matter how I found out, what matters is what I’m fucking going to do”
“You are not going to harm her are you? …. please don’t ” I didn’t realize when I clutched one of his arms in desperation
Something flickered in his gaze as he stared at my grip on his arm, I let go immediately as if burned by his skin..
A frown spread across his face before he yanked me to his rock hard chest.
“why do you think you can help every body? It’s your weakness… at the same time your strongest point…. It makes you so fucking different from everyone else… ”
“Please just leave her alone ” I croaked out
“Since you are so eager … why don’t I see how far you are willing to go in order to save her… ”
“what do you want H.. Hayden, I don’t have anything I can g.. give to you” I said wetting my lips nervously
A slow smirk spread across his face
“Do you really think so? ” his voice had a dangerous edge to it as his fingers made way under my shirt, his palms grazing the bare skin of my stomach.
My heart threatened to rip out from my chest open under his stare, I knew whatever crazy idea he was building up in his mind can’t be in any way near good.
At least for me……
“Don’t look so scared…. don’t worry I won’t hurt you , not anymore.. .. Do you know what I want right now? ”
My breath hitched in my throat when he leaned his face closer to mine .
“You know the first time I saw you I thought you were the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen… you looked like a cute little rabbit….. that’s why I decided to call you bunny… you were my little bunny, you still are…. you were not to be touched by anyone except from me, so I made sure of that. ”
I was taken by surprise , so long as I remembered he’d always called me fat… ugly… bitch and the rest of them.
“It wasn’t hard to scare all the boys away from you… the stubborn ones hadto learn the hard way , but then I hated you….. i also liked you and that fact made me hate you even more, ironic right ?. So I wanted to hurt you… and I did, do you still remember all those years? ”
How could I ever forget, but where was he going with this?
“I could have just hurt your family instead, it would have been more easier… But I only wanted you… weather it be hate or anything… It was always you, making you pay should have satisfied my thirst for revenge…… but it didn’t….”
I pushed away from him with all my strength and surprisingly he lets go.
“You’ve already done a lot to me and your thirst is still not satisfied? what else do you want from me, will you only stop when I’m dead? will you be satisfied then? ” I yelled out blinking back angry tears from my eyes but they just kept coming.. I hated it.
“You hate me , all you ever wanted was to ruin my life, you shouldn’t be doing this with me, you shouldn’t be keeping me with you! ”
A look of hurt flashed across his face.
Hayden hurt?
I’ve never seen that before.
“Not anymore… i no longer hate you bunny ” he breathes out staring at me intently
His words would have been a relief some months ago….. not anymore…. Especially not now.
“But what I feel for you isn’t love…. No… never love… it’s way much strong… more intense than that ……. I want.. I want….. why do I crave you so much? It’s so wrong… but I can’t help it” he muttered the last part out… I realized he was speaking to himself and not to me.
My breath hitched when his gaze redirected back at me, determined , stormy… and accusing?
“I warned you not to make me feel anything for you”
He really thought it was my fault for…
” I don’t want you to feel anything for me! all I’ve ever wanted was for you to just leave me alone, I wouldn’t do anything to make you feel anything for me! ”
“But you did do something in these past few days….. Even though you didn’t mean it, you still did… ”
” I only wanted you to stop hurting me, I didn’t wa…”
“Is that the only reason? Or so you could make a fool out of me until you find an opportunity to leave me? do you fucking think I’m stupid!” He seethed, his eyes blazed with fury, a bolt of fear zipped through me when he charged towards me . He looked so furious , I expected him to hit me, but he never did.
His expression changed, no longer looking angry , turned gentle even, slowly he reached out a knuckle to caress my cheekbones.
“You won’t leave me, you can’t even die, because you’ll belong to only me”
He engulfed my trembling form in a tight embrace , burying my face to his shoulders .
Was there a limit to his obsession? I would have him hate me, but not this.
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