Chapter 43
This step was important. Rosie had to spend some time with Julian and his family on her own without me.
"You're going to behave nicely, okay? Do not cause them any trouble," I told my little angel before kissing her cheek. I knew that she wasn't going to cause them any trouble. Rosie was well behaved and over the past two weeks, she had gotten used to them. She had even met her cousins and they became instant friends.
It was Saturday, and she was going to sleep over at the Kensington household. Julian and Harper along with her husband and kids were also going to
I was invited to stay over too, but I politely declined as I wanted her to be alone with them. I wanted her to be comfortable around them when I wasn't around.
OVER
I also needed to spend some time with Matt as I had barely seen him over the past two weeks.
"Here are her things. If anything happens call me. She doesn't really
get fussy easily, but if she does, just ask her what's bothering her. I have been teaching her how to express her emotions, so I believe everything will be good. She's allergic to peanuts, so don't give her peanut butter." I was rambling "Hey, hey," Julian stopped me, and I did to catch my breath. "Everything will be fine. I know that she's allergic to peanuts. I know that this is your first time leaving her alone. If you're worried, you're more than welcome to stay here." "No, I want her to be with you without me," I insisted.
"As you like. If you get worried about her at any time, call me no matter what the time is, Julian told me, and I nodded.
I got in my car and drove to Matt's place. I was going to spend the night with him. He planned on taking me on a date and I was going to stay over at his place. He was excited that we were going to spend the day together. I was excited too, but my excitement didn't matc It took me an hour to arrive at his place. I parked my car in front of his apartment complex and made my way to the elevator
"Hello, darling," he said when he opened the door for me. He wrapped his arms around my body and kissed me.
I had been dating him for almost a year. He made me happy, and it took me so long to be able
to get into another relationship after Julian. I hated how I was never able to love somebody else the way I loved Julian. I was never comfortable around a man the way I used to be comfortable around Julian. He was my first true love, and nobody was able to make me fall i "You don't know how excited I am to spend the day with you," he said, guiding me inside with his hand on the small of my back.
"I'm sorry. I know I have been a terrible girlfriend, but I promise I will make it up to you," I said, pecking his lips.
Sometimes, I felt guilty because I knew Matt loved me more than I loved him, but the thing was, I had no love in me like I used to. I wasn't capable of loving anybody the way I once loved Julian.
"Where do you plan on taking me tonight?" I asked, placing my head on his shoulder as we sat on the couch.
"It's a dinner date at a very fancy place, That's why I told you to put on something nice," he told me
"I can't wait," I whispered, kissing his cheek.
"How's Rosie? Is she having fun with her dad's family?" he wondered. Rosie and Matt got along well. It was important for me to make him understand that Rosie was very important in my life and if she wasn't comfortable around him, it would be hard for us to date. Luckily, "She's having so much fun with them. Her cousins are also there at her grandparents' place, so she isn't going to be alone." I told him
"I'm glad that she finally has a father figure in her life," he said, and I nodded in agreement.
Before I knew it, Matt and I arrived at the restaurant. I was surprised when I realized that he had reserved the whole place for us. There were candles everywhere and a violinist was playing a soft melody in the background. "You did this all for me?" I was in pure awe. He went out of his way to make the night special for me.
"Anything for you, darling," he said as he placed his hands on my waist and kissed my lips. I put my hands on his chest and kissed him back. He was amazing and I was lucky to have him. Sometimes, 1 felt like fate was giving me a second chance at love with Matt and if I didn't appreciate him. I was going to regret it for the rest of my life.
The two of us sat down and soon, the waiter brought us our food. He had even ordered my favourite. Everything he had done tonight was according to my liking and although I should have been happy, fear was gradually taking over my heart
After finishing our dessert, he got up from his place and extended his hand to me. "Would you like to dance?" he wondered.
"I would love dat." I smiled widely at him. I placed my hand in his and I didn't know why his touch felt foreign. That was adding more to my guilt. Any girl would be over the moon will a man like Matthew, so why wasn't I?
"Are you happy here in California?" he asked me..
"I actually am. I thought that I would be happier in a place far away from here since a lot of unpleasant things happened in this place, but I'm actually happier here." California felt like home, and I was glad that nothing was able to ruin it for me. "Do you like it here?" I kne "I like it here," he told me with a smile on his face. "And I'm here with you, Amelia. You make any place good." His hand cupped my cheek as he kissed me. I was lucky to have him. "There's something I want to give you. We stopped dancing and I didn't know why, but my increase.
He put his hand in his pocket and got a small box out, making my eyes go wide. No, I wasn't surprised. I was scared. I wasn't ready to get engaged to him. How was I going to say no to him without breaking his heart? He didn't deserve that from me,
"Don't worry, I'm not proposing Was worry written on my face! I hated the sense of relief that took over me when he said that. This is just a promise ring. I promise to always be here for you whenever you need me, and I promise to love you with all my heart. I promise to m I was a terrible person
He placed the ring on my finger and suddenly, my hand felt heavy. I felt like I was being shackled and the key to my freedom was thrown into the depths of the ocean.
"Tm the luckiest woman on earth to have an amazing man like you," I whispered as he gently brushed away my tears with his thumb
As I kissed him, I wondered what it would take me to love him the way he deserved.