Chapter 138
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I don't know this place, but this is not the weird thing. The weirdest thing is that I can see myself sitting at a table with a few books in front of I'm at a pizzeriae. I'm looking at them with tears in my eyes for a reason I don't know. I look around me and realize that Am I waiting for my order?
I stare at my face and it's easy to tell that I look sad. Something must have happened, but I don't know what it is. I walk closer to the sitting version of me and my eyes scan the names of the books on the table. The covers seem to be something I would enjoy. Suddenly, the place I'm at turned into a cloud of fire and smoke. For a few seconds, my ears stop working. Everybody around me is harmed one way or another, but I'm not. In fact, it feels like I'm invisible to everyone. I look at the other version of me that was once sitting at the table beside the window, and I find her unde? This is very confusing, and I don't know the appropriate way to refer to myself. under the table. I
I walk towards myself, and I find myself crouched under the table. The shock written all over my face is valid. The place has just exploded. Something seems to pull me out of the state of trance I'm in and I push myself to get up. I stare more at that other version of me and see a wound on my temple and blood on my hands.
This wounded version ends up getting out of the destroyed place and I watch a paramedic as she guides me to an ambulance.
When she asks me if I want to call someone, I tell her I want to call Silas. I place my phone to my ear and all I manage to say when he picks up is his name.
"Silas!" I gasp as I jump up from my sleep. My heart is beating so fast it hurts. I place my hand on my heart and look around my bedroom, trying to understand what has just happened.
I decided to tak
take a nap a while ago and I have just been awakened with that dream.
I
Is this a dream?
Have I just remembered something? Is this a memory? I remember Silas telling me once that I was in an explosion. Is that the explosion he told me about? Oh my God.
!
I have just remembered something else!
I quickly get out of bed and put on my slippers before dashing to my front door. I snatch the key to my apartment and rush to the elevator after closing the door.
I press
on number 7 once I get in and impatiently wait to reach Silas's floor. Once I reach his front door, I ring the doorbell, hoping he's inside. I need to tell him that I have remembered something. He spent months trying to get me to remember anything and it finally happened again. My first restored memory was about attending his game with Sabrina and this is my second one.
I bet he is going to be as excited as I am.
I
However, my excitement slightly fades when the curly-haired girl I have seen before opens the door for me. I remember her name, Maisie. "Rosie, hi," she says with a wide smile on her face. She stares at me for a moment before frowning. I look at myself and realize that I have practically jumped out of bed and run to Silass place. "Are you okay?" T 887%
"Rosie, is everything okay? Lhear Silas's voice. Maisie moves away from the door and Silas comes into my view. "Did something happen?" he worriedly asks. "Maybe you should come inside."
"No, s-sorry." I step away. What was I exactly thinking coming up here without checking with him first? I feel stupid. "It doesn't matter. I need to go. I'm sorry." I turn to move away, but Silas is quick to close his door as he follows me down the hall. "What's going on?" he asks, placing both of his hands on my arms as he stands in front of me.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come like that," I apologize.
"There's nothing to apologize for, Rosie," he says. "Is it because of Maisie? Do you not want to talk in front of her?"
"I remembered something," I blurt, and his eyes go wide. "I'm sorry for coming up here without giving you prior notice, but I was just excited and wanted to share the news with you."
He shakes his head and pulls me into his embrace. "This is amazing, Rosie! I'm glad you're getting your memory back," he says and kisses the top of my head. The way he's hugging me makes me feel safe. I don't want him to let go. "What did you remember, cupcake?" cups my cheeks, and I smile at the nickname that I used to hate. When did I start liking him calling me that?
He
"You have your girlfriend over. It doesn't feel right to talk right now. We can do that later," I say and gently pull myself away from him.
"Maisie isn't my girlfriend and if you want to come inside, we can do that. You're more than welcome to come over any ne you want, Rosie," he tells me. Why am I relieved to know that she's not his girlfriend? This shouldn't concern me. He needs to move on with his life. I shouldn't hold shou t hold him back for whatever reason in my head. If I'm a true friend, I must be happy for him.
"We can talk later, Silas. You go enjoy your time with Maisie." I smile at him and give him one last hug before walking towards the elevator.
After making it to my apartment, I look at myself in the mirror of my bathroom and curse. I look like a mess. What was I thinking? I made Silas's friend see me like that. The girl must be thinking I'm crazy. My t-shirt is a bit disheveled and my hair isn't neat like it usually is. I turn on the water and splash my face, trying to get myself to calm down.
I take deep breaths and make my way to the kitchen to make myself some coffee. After turning on the coffee machine, I head to my bedroom to get my phone. I need to call my parents to tell them the news.
When I told them about remembering something before, they were ecstatic. Mum actually cried tears of joy.
I don't know how she may react when I tell her about the new restored memory, but I know that she will be so happy.
"Hey, Mum," I say once she picks up. "I've got good news for you"
"Really? What is it?" I love how curious she is.
"I remembered something new," I announce. She squeals in response, making me laugh.
"Really? What did you remember? Listen, are you overwhelmed? Is everything okay with you? Do you need me to come over?" she rambles, making me laugh more.
"I'm all good, Mum. Don't worry. I would for you to come over if you want, but I'm already coming tomorrow," I assure her. Tomorrow is Friday and I feel like spending this weekend with my family. "Okay, I can't wait to see you, sweetheart. I miss you so much." She tugs at my heart with her sweet words.
"I miss you more, Mum." I really miss her. I feel like I want to throw myself in her arms and tell her about everything that has been happening lately.
"What did
I you remember?" she asks me again.
We both end up talking for over an hour. I tell her about the new restored memory and how I've been feeling lately. There are a lot of things I want to tell her, but I don't know how to interpret my thoughts into words.
After I finish my call with her, I decide to go out for a walk. I put on a comfy outfit and just when I'm about to head out, 1 stop myself. I walk to the bookcase I have in my living room, and I find myself searching for the books I remember from the memory I have just had. I know that I lost the books in the explosion, but I feel like I have seen the names of these books in my bookcase. As I check the bookcase, I realize that I am right. They are here. How do I have them if I have already lost them in the explosion? It doesn't make sense. Something is missing. Well, a lot of things are missing and honestly, I can't wait to piece it all together.
I shake my head and make my way out of my apartment. First, I head to the bookstore and like usual, I don't leave empty-handed. Funnily, I find myself looking for books with FMCs who suffer from memory loss like me. I want to know if such stories end up with happy endings or not. I'm petrified of not getting my happy ending, because I have a feeling that I already had my happy ending, but I let it slip away from me.