Taming Mr. CEO

I suddenly have difficulty breathing as I stared at him. My throat went dry, no words came out of my mouth. Right at this moment, as there was no space between us, my heart goes crazy wild. Like it was a wild animal who had just been freed away from a cage. It hurts me bad… the strong and erratic beat of my heart hurts me but it was a kind of pain that I somehow, enjoyed.

My eyes went down on his lips and even though I want to refrain from gulping, I just did. That made his lips stretch for a naughty grin which on the other for me, just fueled the intense feeling I have right now. And even though it was a shame for me to admit, I could tell that my body-for heaven’s sake! My body is reacting to our sudden closed space just like how it was reacted that night, our first night. I could feel how my body shouts for needs, how it was shouting my hidden cravings on that sexual matter. And this is ridiculous! I don’t understand why he is giving me this kind of feeling even after so many years.

“Sorry,” I heard him repeat what he just said earlier but my mouth is still close. I can’t even comprehend the meaning behind his sorry. I don’t know why is he sorry.

My f*cking brain can not focus on what he is talking about. Instead, my whole sense is in our bodies. My body which tightly pressed against his perfectly sculptured body. And damn, dude! I like the feels how his body gives me another level of warmth. But I know, I should stop my nonsense. We. Should. Stop. This. Nonsense!

We should part already because if we weren’t, I might be lost my sanity. But how can I make the first move when I am currently enjoying this? When I am enjoying his warmth, his body against mine–

“Logan, baby– Woah!”

Logan and I both dragged back to our almost lost senses when a mischievous voice of someone suddenly came in. Making the two of us automatically parted and I, forcefully pushed Logan away from me causing him to fell back on the couch. My eyes went on the door and to my surprise, I harshly cursed inside my inner self.

Standing in the door is Logan’s brother, Mr. Lyndon Ivanov. And dang it! He is just giving us an equal stare with visible malice on it. I bit the bottom of my lip before putting down my eyes on my palms settled on my lap now which is currently on Logan’s thick chest.

“Oh, come on, Alice! You were just caught by his brother and yet you still have the guts on fantasizing about Logan’s chest?” I scolded myself silently.

Logan faked a cough and leave his seat to approach his brother who was still silent after what he had witnessed. My God! It was a total shame for me!

“What do you need, dumbass?” Logan asked.

I heard Lyndon chortled and when I lifted my eyes back on him, he is still eyeing me.

“Stop staring at her like that, will you?” it was Logan who growled to his brother.

Logan just discarded what his brother says instead, he just doubled the malice on his eyes as they were locked on mine. “As far as I know, Dad gave you the CEO position only, right? And you actually told me before that you hate the position given to your shoulder. But now, it says another thing, dude,” Lyndon maliciously commented which made my eyes roll secretly.

But before I could hear their conversation about what Lyndon just saw, I decided to make my exit without asking for Logan’s permission. I just hurriedly go back to my table and there, I scolded myself for what I did. From the very earlier, I know that I should have pushed Logan away. That is what I should do but instead, I discarded that idea. Threw it aside and let myself enjoy that sinful feeling given by Logan to me. So now, boom! I need to suffer from the consequence of my impulsive decision. I have to carry the shame, endured it until Lyndon himself will completely forget what he saw.

But seems like Lyndon will not easily forget about it especially since he came out from Logan’s office after they finished their private discussion. What kind of discussion? I really don’t know… probably, I am included on that topic.

***

“Seems like he’s smitten, huh?”

What Lyndon says before he totally left me earlier keeps on bugging me during office hours. Thankfully when the lunch came, I eluded the stress of mine but just for only a short time. Because when I came back to my table, a few minutes after I took my seat, Logan speak from the intercom. Telling me to come inside his office for a business matter. And guess what, it is indeed a business matter.

“Attend to the meeting as our company’s representative, Alice,” he ordered which I hesitate to do. “Tell Mr. Sanchez that I can’t make it today. Just record all the meetings so I can deal with them at home,” he added before putting his suit on.

My mouth is still shut close when he left his office. I don’t even get a chance to protest so I was left with no choice. Huh, as if I have?

“Tell Mr. Ivanov that I am expecting him in my company next week. His presence in this project is necessary.”

I smiled as I nod at Mr. Sanchez whose face is clearly disappointed about not seeing Logan in the meeting earlier. “Your message will be directed to him, Mr. Sanchez. Thank you,” I replied before leaving his company.

I headed directly to the shuttle van at the parking lot when suddenly my phone buzzed inside my bag. Walking slowly, I took out my phone and answered Helena on the call.

“Yes, Helena? Something happened?” I asked as I opened the car’s door. The driver smiled at me so I smiled back as my focus is still on the phone.

“Nothing really happened, Alice but I can’t fetch Baby Aisle today. There’s something I have to attend and it was important for me to miss,” she explained.

I simply glanced at my wristwatch and found that it was near four in the afternoon. “It’s alright, Helena. I’ll fetch Aisle today. Bye.” I ended up the call and put it back in my bag.

I decided to go back to the office first before I fetch Aisle and ask for my early out but when I came back to the office, no Logan was sitting on the CEO’s chair. I pouted because of his absence. But four o’clock is coming so I decided to write a letter asking for his permission. Whether he will agree or not, I will deal with it tomorrow.

But the heck! Knowing him, I’m sure there’s another condition he will going to ask for me to pay him.

“Where are you going?” I was stunned when I found Lyndon standing at my back, leaning sideways on the door frame.

I gulped but managed to hide my reaction. “I… Uhm… I need an early out, Sir Lyndon…” I trailed.

He nods as his lips stretch for a thin smile. His index finger and thumb are caressing his chin smoothly as if he was thinking about what I have said.

“Why go out early? As far as I am concerned, working hours last until six.”

“Uhm… I have to do something, Sir that is why–”

“And that something is?” he asked as he strode towards me. I step back until my butt hits the couch. It made me gulp while Lyndon on the other hand, grin playfully before taking his seat.

“My brother’s secretary wants an early out but unfortunately, he was not here. You are supposed to ask permission from him but it’s okay, I am still here. Tell me the important matter you are talking about so I can tell my brother when he came–”

“I’m going to fetch my child, Sir…” I announced which shocked me as well as Lyndon. To his shock, he even stood up as he stared at me with disbelief in his eyes.

“You have a child?” he asked. I didn’t say anything instead, I just nod for confirmation before I left the company.

Exactly four when I arrive at Aisle’s school and just as expected, my child hurriedly run towards me when she saw me entering the school’s gate. We took a taxi and eat at a fast-food restaurant first before we headed straight to the apartment.

Eight in the evening when Aisle fell to sleep and I just finished taking a shower when my phone rang. Thinking that it was Helena bugging me at this time, I answered the call without paying attention to it. So when I heard someone’s male voice on the other line, my brows knotted as I read the caller’s ID. The number isn’t registered on my phone but the voice is enough for me to recognize the caller.

“Sir Logan?” I asked, making sure that it was him.

He answered but I barely understand the words. “Sir, I can’t understa–”

“Who do you think you are, Alice? Huh… you are just my dad’s secretary… you are nothing compared to her,” he said in his drunk voice.

Even though his words are barely understandable, still, it struck me instantly. Who he is to tell me these words? He is the one here who called in the f*cking night to what reason? F*ck him! I thought there is something important he wants to tell me that is why he called me this night.

“You are no way compared to Ynez. You didn’t even reach half of her level. F*ck!” he cursed from the other line.

I even heard him constantly cursing for an unknown reason while I, remained stiffened at my place. Tears are started to build upon my eyelids. Biting my lips to prevent me from bursting into cries.

“You know what, I don’t know what you do to me. Huh… as far as I remember, I am not even noticing you since I first met you at the office. Maybe you seduce me, you used potion so you can get me into your hand–”

“Stop, Sir!” I finally voice out. Tears rolled down from my eyes but I instantly wiped them off. I breathed heavily, trying to calm myself at least but it wasn’t helpful. “If you just call me to insult me, please Sir, spare me. If you want me gone to your company, I will file my resignation letter tomorrow. Good night,” I said, dropping the call later on.

F*ck him! He’s such a jerk for doing his drunk call.

After I pulled myself together again, I decided to go to Aisle’s room to check her. When I saw her peacefully sleeping, I felt relieved yet I can’t still help but to think of her, wanting a father that impossible for me to give on her. Especially in this situation. Her father clearly doesn’t like me…

“Huh, Ynez. She is better than me, huh. So what, I didn’t care, you asshole!”