Secret Doors

Portia’s P. O. V:

After having fun at the downtown side we arrived at the house at 11 am so I had to quickly prepare something to eat for the both of us. I prepared Venetian Crab Linguine and a tropical season juice for both of us. He came to the kitchen while I was cooking.

“That smells so good.” Levi complimented the dish I’m cooking. He grabs a can of soft drinks from the fridge and goes to my back. He traces small kisses from the back of my ear down to my shoulders. “Hey! Levi that’s ticklish.” I stopped him laughing and face him. I cupped his face kiss the tip of his nose. “Wait for me to finish my cooking okay?” I told him and give him a peck on the lips.

I continued cooking and he stays behind me, watching how I cook. “It looks appetizing. ” He said once I already put it on the plate. “You think? Well, wait until you taste it.” I said in between my small laughter. I just remember how mom always complained about my cooking, and one day we just realized that I already mastered how she cooks.

“It looks fancy. Where did you learn cooking?” He asked me. “Mom made me do it. At first, I hate it because I only want to eat the food she cooks. But she insisted.” I told the back story to him. “E? Then what happened?” He said interested in my story I giggled at his expression he looks cute with his confused look. “She always complains about how bad I am at cooking so she made me try and try until one day we just realized how I fell in love with cooking and I mastered already how she cooks.” I continued and my voice cracked up a little. I’m missing you, mom.

He only looks at me waiting for more as if he knows that I’m holding back a lot of words so I continued. “I don’t cook for people who know mom because they thought it’s mom who cooks. And they will always tell me how I turned so much like her. I only cook for the people who didn’t know mom so they won’t bring her up.” I said and tears fell down I can’t hold back anymore.

“I’m missing her so much that I can’t stand my hometown anymore. Every people and everything about my town is all about her so I run away from them even though they are the only ones to take care of me.” I cried to him and he hugs me. I sobbed on his chest like it was dad who comforts me. He kisses the top of my head. I cried all the heavy feelings I’m holding for how many months now.

“It’s okay. Don’t hold back anymore.” Levi comforts me and gives the most comforting hug I have ever received now. “How I wish I didn’t grow up so I will always have her.” I rant on him and Levi just receives it like a best friend. “It just hurt so much and every day makes it even harder.” I continued. “When she left me I feel so different like the world is so big and I can’t even stand alone. It feels so lonely.” I keep on telling him and he listens to me all ears. “Don’t cry, Portia.” He said stopping me from crying. He calls my name so soothingly. He came to me face to face and remove all the tears flowing to my face.

“You can stand alone. Surely you learned a lot from her and it makes you who you are right now. Brave and ready for each day. Make her proud.” Levi said and kissed my forehead like how dad always does to mom. “Stop now you look like Rudolf the red nose reindeer. Stop crying you look like a drowned swan.” He said and flicked my forehead. “Well, thanks for lifting me up and telling me I’m ugly.” I laughed my tears away and wiped my tears with the end of my sweater sleeves.

“Let’s eat before it gets cold as dead.” I changed the topic and when I was to turn my back on him. He made me stay in my position and hugged me again. “I’m always all ears to listen about your rants lady.” He reminded me and I nodded. “Thank you. It makes me feel lighter than it was before.” I thanked him. He messed with my hair. “Don’t keep it all to yourself,” Levi told me.

I know he feels heavier than what I feel but that’s what makes him stand alone, brave and strong, and I admire him for just the way he is. “You too, Levi, let your guards down with me. You have all of me to support you, listen to you, and take all of you.” I told Levi without any hesitation. He just smiled at me and kiss me. “You are more than enough right now and let’s just savor the moment.” He said and get the food and then go straight to the dining table.

I’m left in the kitchen looking at his back. When will you entrust yourself to me too Levi? Like how I already give up everything that’s left to me on you. I’m certainly unsure about us but I will bet every bit of me to this game we had even if it will surely break me to pieces.

I snapped back at my thoughts when he calls for me. “Hey lady you said let’s eat this before it gets cold but the food is already dead cold now.” He said like he was annoyed or what so I quickly go where he is. “What were you thinking back there?” He asked as soon as I sit. “Nothing. I just cleaned my eyes.” I alibi and he nodded and takes a spoonful of the food.

“It’s lovely. The taste is very good.” He praised me again or more likely the food. “Really? That’s good to know.” I said. “Cooked more for me.” He said munching the food. He looks gorgeous. We eat and we washed the dishes together. The scene we are in right now is surely lovely to the eyes so I decided to film our small-time. I’ll give the copy to him win or lose. I’ll capture every unforgettable moment we share like there will be no tomorrow.

We watched a horror film that scares the hell out of me and it makes him happy to see me jump out of scared so we had a little pillow fight. This moment is so pleasing to my heart that I don’t want to end this anymore. He fell asleep on the couch with me. He snuggles next to me but I can’t sleep so I tried my hardest not to wake him up and get off of him and get my IPad.

I drew him sleeping I didn’t realize how the time flew fast I just stopped when I saw him sit and look at me. Gladly I already finished my art that looks like I photographed him. I can’t believe I finished a realism so fast just by looking at his beautiful face. Then suddenly I felt the cramps on my hand so I whined in pain that quickly makes him worried about me. “What did you do?” He asked me.

“I’m fine this is just an artist’s pain. Don’t worry about me?” I assured him and he gave me a puzzled look. “E?” His eyebrows frowned. I smiled at his reaction. “Let’s have some cookies and tea.” I changed the topic and pulled him with me to the kitchen.