Scarred Luna

Sabrina’s POV

It wasn’t a prank. Neither was it some kind of teasing. It definitely wasn’t a sick joke, and even if it was, a part of me couldn’t help but feel like it was taking too long for him to come clean. Wasn’t it high time Xander appeared at the door to my room, with a sheepish grin on his face that he was sorry and didn’t mean any of the things he’d said the other day.

I had been expecting the knock that would change everything, but it never came, and it had been three days already. Three fucking days.

Fuck.

A frustrated groan slid past my lips. I was beyond frustrated at this point. In fact, I was this close to running out of my mind. If something wasn’t done soon… no, scratch that. If Xander didn’t act right or try to apologize to me anytime soon, then I had no idea what was going to happen next. Call me crazy or dramatic, whatever you like, but if I spent the next hour without Xander paying me any mind, I just might pass out.

I had spent the nights that followed that unfortunate incident in deep thoughts and with barely any sleep. No matter how hard I tried to shake it off, it just didn’t budge.

In fact, the more I tried to put it out of my mind and pretend it was all a terrible nightmare, the more the weight of Xander’s words pressed against my being.

“She’s my mate, Sabrina.” Xander’s words echoed in my ear. “Kieran is my mate.”

Despite the fact that it had been days since he yelled the words in my face, I still didn’t believe it. I refused to. What the hell did he mean by Kieran was his mate?

The mere thought of her was more than enough to put a frown on my face. That fucking bitch. Rascal! Even in her absence, just look at all the damage she had caused. I could bet my life she had placed some kind of spell on Xander, and that was why he had said what he did the other day. Witch.

There was no way Kieran was Xander’s mate. Of all possible people. Kieran? No. I refused to accept it. He had been searching for his mate since forever, until he gave up, and even though he joked about getting married to me if we had both failed to find our mates, I didn’t take it as a joke. Besides, she just couldn’t be his mate.

I held on to those words, the joke he made about marrying me when we were way younger, with every part of me, and now, a measly Kieran was just about to snatch it away from me. I would be damned if I let that happen.

I still had no idea how it happened, how she could have charmed him right under my nose, and to think I was helping her. I warmed up to her, I literally saved her life and gave her a new one, and this is how she repays me?

Ungrateful little cunt.

Anger simmered underneath my skin. I could feel my entire body beginning to grow hot, but just one thought of Xander was all it took to cool me down. Xander was still mad at me. He was still ignoring me.

I had tried going to his study a few more times after the day he barged in there and slammed the door in my face, but he ignored me of course, every single time. He didn’t even come down for breakfast yesterday and this morning.

If he keeps up with it, I would be out of excuses to give his mother in no time.

I had somehow wormed my way out of her incessant questions at the dining table this morning. There was no way I could tell her that Kieran was Xander’s mate. She hated Kieran, even more than I did, but if she found out that the two were mates, I feared what was going to happen to me.

Deep down, I knew for a fact that she still wanted her dear son to find a mate, and I feared that the moment she caught a whiff of Kieran’s presence and role in his life, every bit of animosity she had for that ingrate would probably fly out the window. And the thought of being cast out for that stupid girl simply pissed me off.

But then even if his mother accepts Kieran, the pack would never allow such a weak Luna.

I sighed as I got off my bed. I had been sitting idly in bed, thoughts of Xander and Kieran clouding my mind. How exactly was I going to get the man to apologize for the silly stunt he pulled, if I was up here in my room? A small thought popped into my head and I frowned.

“What if he doesn’t apologize?” a small voice whispered in my head, and while it annoyed the hell out of me, I couldn’t help but but feel a pang in my chest at the truth that lingered underneath.

“Stop it, Sabrina.” I chided myself immediately. After sucking in mouthfuls of air, I added. “You got this.”

After muttering that phrase a few more times, there was no denying the fact that I felt slightly better. Without wasting any more time, I pushed myself out of my room and made my way towards Xander’s study.

With each step I took towards my destination, I felt my heart beat increasing by the second. Blood rushed to my ears, but I kept on pushing.

Xander’s study didn’t take too much time to reach my eyes. As I drew closer, I got flashbacks of the showdown we had earlier. It was still fresh in my mind, and it still hurt as hell.

I was just about to knock on the brown mahogany door when it swung open at the same time, just to reveal Xander. I staggered back, but he made no attempt to catch me. He didn’t even flinch or move.

Time seemed to crawl to a halt as we both stared at each other. I searched his green eyes, for when the tiniest hint that he had forgiven me, or better still, any hint that he was pulling a fast one on me. But the longer I stared, the more I realized it was just wishful thinking.

“Xander I…” the rest of my words lodged at the base of my throat as he sidestepped me immediately, before stepping out of his study. The door seemed to rattle in its hinges as he slammed it shut, and without so much as one look in my direction, he walked off.

“Xander, wait!” I called out, trying to stop him..

But he didn’t stop. Instead, he did the very opposite of what I had asked, his footsteps leading him out of the mansion.

My heart dropped to my stomach immediately and a pang of pain spread through my chest. With each second that passed, I could literally feel my heart breaking into a million and one pieces, each one piercing and spreading pain through my system.

I blinked back tears, as they rushed to the back of my eyes. If I didn’t find a way to get a hold of myself, I was going to start crying.

I turned my gaze in the direction Xander went to and my heart ached.

Maybe if I went after him? Would he give me an audience then? Maybe if I made him see just how sad I was, he would reconsider and start talking to me again. Not only that, maybe he would finally clear the air about this whole Kieran nonsense, because I refused to believe it was actually real. Or maybe I was just in denial.

Only when a couple of minutes had passed did I realize he wasn’t coming back. With a heavy heart, I pulled myself towards the kitchen.

“Stupid Kieran.” I muttered underneath my breath. I clenched my fists by my side, and even as the sharp tip of my nails dug into my skin, I didn’t stop. I imagined curling my hand around Kieran’s neck, and it was surprisingly satisfactory for me. Just to snap that stupid little neck of hers.

My insides burned with an equal amount of rage and sadness. My breath hitched in my throat, and the mere task of breathing felt nothing more than a strenuous task. I wouldn’t even be surprised if I passed out any moment from now.

I started to rant.

“How dare she come in here and ruin everything? Ruin everything I’d worked so hard for this way. How dare she try to steal Xander away from me?! I saved her, brought her here and she had the audacity to do this?! I curse the day I saved her from-”

The rest of my words hung in my throat as I bumped into someone.

“I’m sorry.” Alice’s voice reached my ears, even before I saw her.

“I didn’t mean to bump into you. I didn’t see you there.” she said.

“It’s fine.” It wasn’t fine, but I didn’t have the strength or time to get into an argument with Alice.

Even if I did, the chances of me breaking down mid argument were pretty high.

“It’s fine-” I muttered beneath my breath.

“Are you crying?” Alice asked, and I frowned as I raised my hand to my face and indeed I felt the tears that had rolled down my cheeks. Shit.

“What’s wrong?” she asked and I furiously wiped my tears away.

“I’m not- It’s none of your business” I said as I tried to walk round her, before her next statement stopped me.

“You found out didn’t you?” she asked and call me crazy, but I could swear on my life that I didn’t imagine the smug smile that made its way to Alice’s lips.

“You finally found out.” she said, a knowing look stuck on her face.

“Found out what?” I raised an eyebrow. I was sick of her games but I was curious to see what exactly she thought she knew.

“What are you talking about?” I asked.

“Kieran and Alpha Xander are mates.” She shrugged, like she hadn’t just dropped a bombshell.

“How the hell did you know that?” I barked. Has she been eavesdropping?

“I’ve known for a long while now.” she said and I almost gasped. Alice knew before me? But how? Alice’s smile was unnerving.

“I guess you’re late to the party,” she added.

“That bastard.” I cursed, finally letting some steam out. Anger bubbled in my veins at Alice’s revelation. It was one thing to be kept in the dark, but the fact that I was practically the last to find out about it all just wasn’t acceptable.

“That lowlife! How dare she?!” I almost yelled.

“For what it’s worth, I don’t think it’s normal.” Alice said with a frown on her face.

“What could the Alpha possibly see in her?” she said, confusion on her face.

I stared at Alice, finally seeing her in a new light. I hadn’t always paid much attention to her, but maybe, just maybe it was high time all of that changed.