Remember Self-Control: Bossy Husband Loves Me Deep to Soul

Proofread by He Li

Si Wan feels confused as grandfather Gong looks sullen, and when she sees the serious faces of Yan Xiuya and Gong Yanshen, with growing confusion, she doesn’t know what to do.

“Si Wan, did Gong Siming come back yesterday?”

Helping grandfather climb stairs, Si Wan becomes stunned for a second after being asked and then she smiles, “Grandfather, are you looking for him? He has been very busy recently and returns home very late. I am afraid that he is not available early today.”

Si Wan gets quick-witted. She doesn’t want grandfather Gong to worry about her any more, given that Gong Siming doesn’t belong to her, anyway. Considering this, she feels a little bitter in her heart.

“Busy, how busy? Busy staying out all night?” Grandfather Gong raises his voice, which makes Si Wan a little astonished. Suddenly remembering the gloomy faces of her parents-in-law, Si Wan frowns and guesses that grandfather has already known it. She tries to explain it.

“Don’t defend him, I’ m old but not silly.” Looking at Si Wan, grandfather Gong feels sorry for her, “You little fool, why not tell me all the sufferings you have undergone? If you tell me, I am bound to support you.”

“It’s nothing, can’t be regarded as suffering.” Holding back her tears, Si Wan manages to hide the great bitterness inside her heart.

Looking at Si Wan who keeps silent, grandfather Gong gives a long sigh, “Good girl, you are a good girl. It is the Gong Family that owes you so much. Sorry that we made you aggrieved.”

“Please don’t say in that way, grandfather. Taking this opportunity, I also hope to talk with you.” Holding back the bitterness in her heart, Si Wan forces a smile.

In the study room, the two sit opposite each other. Grandfather Gong allows Si Wan to speak first, after which Si Wan clears her throat and starts to talk without hesitation.

“Grandfather, I can almost guess what you’ll tell me. But I think perhaps Gong Siming doesn’t belong to me at all. It’s time to call an end after such a long time.”

Si Wan sits there with a straight back, if not maintaining the posture, she’s afraid that her tears may drop. “If Feng Ling hadn’t had the accident, he would not have married me so simply. As for Feng Ling, I have been living in guilt since her accident. Perhaps, to Gong Siming and me, a divorce is the best way to gain relief.”

“You want to give up now?” The voice of grandfather Gong sounds full of pity and regret, “Feng Ling’s accident is not your fault, so you don’t have to blame yourself. As for Gong Siming, I can see that actually you two are the best match.”

“Grandfather, please don’t forget that he only loves Feng Ling.” After saying this, Si Wan almost fails to control her tears. The name of Feng Ling has become the invincible barrier between her and Gong Siming, which is always impossible to break, no matter in the past, present or future. Such a relationship between them will only cause destruction to both sides despite her great efforts.

“Feng Ling now only exists in past memory. I won’t believe that after living with you, who are alive, every day, he can still remain untouched.” Grandfather Gong gives a snort, but Si Wan only shakes her head with a bitter smile.

“In his opinion, I am always the murderer who almost killed Feng Ling; do you think that he will fall in love with me?” Si Wan’s voice sounds disappointed, as it is the truth that because of her, Feng Ling becomes a person in coma.

“Because of me, she can only lie on the bed now. What’s more, I have taken her position of the one beside Gong Siming. No matter how to think, I am always the one who deserved no forgiveness. Grandfather, I am tired now.”

With red-rimmed eyes, Si Wan clenches her hands as she has no courage to look at grandfather Gong. She’s afraid to see his disappointed eyes, and she is even more afraid that her determination will be shaken.

“Si Wan, it’s not your fault…”

“Grandfather, the two-year appointment would expire. When the day comes, I will divorce with Gong Siming. I hope that you can understand our decision. And I believe that after knowing this, Gong Siming will also be happy.”

After interrupting grandfather Gong, Si Wan gives a smile, which symbolizes her last dignity, forced by all her remaining strength. She is really tired now as being trampled by her beloved is too bitter. She can’t insist anymore, no matter what others will say about her. Coward? Evasive? Whatever. She just hopes to keep her last dignity and leave with a light heart.

“Have you already made your decision?” The eyes of grandfather Gong are full of pity. He knows clearly the firmness and competence of Si Wan, and believes that she is the person who deserves Gong Siming the most. But his grandson never finds this and even snubs her for many times.

“Yes, grandfather. Please don’t worry. I will manage to play the role of young hostess of the Gong Family during the rest of the two years. When this ends, I will leave.”

Despite the smile on her face, Si Wan feels heartbroken. When the day comes, she can get rid of the pain forever. But why is she still sentimentally attached to Gong Siming, has she not given up yet?

It is really ironic. Mocking her ridiculous feeling, Si Wan has jabbed the fingernails into her palm unconciously, but she feels no pain.

“Well, let it go, but you have to promise me one thing.” Patting on Si Wan’s shoulder, grandfather Gong stands up. As things stand, it’s not suitable for him to say anything right now. Since his grandson has treated Si Wan so badly, it will be like rubbing salt into her wounds if he forces her to stay.

Grandfather Gong gives a long sigh. Walking to the other side of the study room, he takes out a pile of materials from a locked drawer.

“The Gong Family has owed you too much. As compensation, please take this.” Passing the materials to her, grandfather then takes out a pen.

Si Wan feels it a little strange. When checking the materials, she turns more and more astonished, “Grandfather, this…”

“Yes, shares of the Gongshi Group. These are what you deserve.” Grandfather Gong seems quite calm while Si Wan can’t control her slightly trembling hands.

“The Gong Family has owed you too much. These are the compensation for your divorce. It is not a big proportion, but it’s all that I can give you for now.”

Grandfather Gong gives a sigh, “I’ve seen what you have done for the Gong Family. Besides, Gong Siming, the brat treats you so badly. Even though these can’t completely compensate you, it is for you on my behalf, so please take it.”

Eyes widening in shock, Si Wan feels extremely astonished: the shares that grandfather Gong gives her take up nearly half of the whole share of the company. Being given half of the fortunes of the Gong Family, Si Wan certainly won’t accept, so she pushes back the materials determinedly.

“I can’t take it. These shares belong to the Gongshi Group, they are not mine.” Seeing her rejecting the shares firmly, grandfather Gong looks relieved but he insists on that decision.