Pleasure Unbound

Darcy and I returned to our table, and I didn’t miss the looks of concern that passed between Eli and Cain. My guys were instinctual and kind of protective that way. I gave them both a smile and a nod, letting them know that everything was cool-for now.

Through the rest of dinner, we were entertained with some of Darcy’s exaggerated “Eli” stories from when they were roommates, along with some hilarious tales about a cruise they had all gone on together over a year ago. Darcy referred to it as “The 12 Days of Vacay,” and Easton referred to it as ‘yet another one of Darcy’s brilliant ideas gone sour,’ for which I’m pretty sure he received a swift kick to the shin underneath the table.

True to Eli’s prediction, Easton insisted on picking up the tab for everyone’s dinner as his birthday present to me. Darcy slipped me a card, which I was fairly certain contained a generous check.

Once everyone had finished and was preparing to leave, Eli said he’d go outside to have the valet bring our car around. Lindsey was talking to Darcy, and I watched as Trace made his way over to me.

“Can we talk in private for a moment, Paige?” he asked, his eyes giving away nothing.

“Sure,” I replied, quietly, not sure of his intent.

Cain approached, holding my coat open for me. I immediately put my arms through the sleeves, as he lifted my hair out from underneath the collar, brushing it back from my face, his eyes meeting mine.

“Trace needs to speak to me for a minute, Cain. I’ll see you outside?” I posed it as a question.

He nodded, eyeing Trace through shuttered eyes, but it wasn’t extremely obvious-or maybe it was, but my brother seemed unaffected nonetheless.

Once out on the sidewalk, I pulled my collar up a bit to keep the windy chill of the night off of my neck.

“Paige,” Trace started, actually appearing to be unsure of what he wanted to say. “I meant what I said earlier to you. I’m really fucking proud of you and how you’ve really grown over this past year.”

“Okkaay,” I said quirking a brow. “So, why do I think that’s not why we’re out here?”

He ran a hand through his thick, brown hair and looked me dead-ass in the eye. “I had a call from Darin Murphy this evening,” he said. “What the hell are you doing?”

I immediately felt defensive. Fuck Darin Murphy! And the fact that Trace would have even listened to him was kind of pissing me off.

“This is my business, Trace,” I said simply. “It’s not on display, it’s not up for debate, and I don’t have to explain myself to anyone-not to you, not to Mom or Dad. This is my life and, for once, I’m fucking happy.”

“Hey,” he said, his voice softening. “I’m not here to judge you sweetie. Christ, I’m no saint and I’ve got a past. I just want to make sure-I need to know-that this isn’t something you’ve been pressured into, you know?”

“How could you even think that?” I snapped. “What? Paige is so impulsive or Paige is trying to get attention just like she always does so it must be what? Fake? Well, I’m here to tell you, Trace, that this is real. It’s actually the first real relationship that I’ve ever had.”

“No need to get upset, sweetie. I just needed to ask, because well-I love you, sis. I know that it might not seem that way, but I do. I will always be here for you and I just needed to know that you’re okay and I can see that you’re different. Hell, who am I to question your choices? I’ve known Eli for awhile; I don’t know Cain as well, but as long as you’re happy and they’re good to you-that’s all I care about.”

I felt a heavy load lift from my shoulders after he said that. One down -strike that-two down, and a helluva lot more to go, but I knew having Trace in my corner was a big win.

I felt my eyes tear up immediately because I knew that Taz truly loved and cared about me. Yes, I was officially now going to call him Taz because it just seemed so right, and because that’s what everyone else called him. Until now, he had seemed too uptight to be a “Taz.” But now he wasn’t. He was my big brother and I knew that he loved me unconditionally. I stood on my tip-toes, throwing my arms around him for a hug.

“Thank you, Taz,” I whispered against him. “Thank you so much for that.”

“I can’t make promises where Mom and Dad are concerned, Paige. That’s up to you to tell them about…your relationship whenever you choose. They’ll not hear it from me.”

I nodded, sniffling a bit as I wiped an errant tear from my cheek.

“Is everything okay, Paige?” It was Cain and he was now standing next to us, his voice filled with concern, and his dark eyes getting darker as he tried to assess the situation.

“It’s all good, Maddox,” Taz said, releasing me. “Just wishing my sister a happy birthday. And I wanted to give her this.”

Taz reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out an envelope.

“You know I’m not much of a shopper, Paige. But I know how much you’ve learned to enjoy working out, so I got you a membership of your own at Lifetime Fitness. That way you never have to put up with that asshat Murphy showing up during your workouts.”

“Thanks, Taz,” I said with a smile, giving him a kiss on his cheek.

Eli pulled up in his car, honking his horn.

“Take care of her Maddox,” Taz said gruffly, “Or you’ll have me to face.”

Cain remained solemn, but I could see the corners of his mouth twitching, so I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that he totally understood where my big brother was coming from.

“No worries, Taz. We will. Paige is very important to the both of us.”

And with that, Taz was off.

Cain helped me into the car. “You okay, babe?”

“I’m totally fine. But you know what? There was no birthday cake today. No candles for me to blow out with my birthday wish.”

“We can take care of that, right Eli?”

“Consider it done,” Eli said, pulling away from the curb.

~~~

Later that evening, when we were all stretched out on top of our bed, Cain and I shared with Eli the conversation that I’d had with Taz. I then shared the conversation that I’d had with Darcy, which was pretty much a moot point now, since Darin Murphy had seen to it that my brother had been clued in.

“There’s still the matter of your parents,” Eli pointed out. “And I’m sure there will be scores of others that want to put their fucking two cents in.”

“I know,” I replied, not wanting to feel any melancholy at the moment. I just wanted to finish my birthday out with the traditional birthday wish.

Cain had stuck a candle in the fancy cupcake that we’d stopped to buy at a bakery on our way home to represent my official birthday cake.

“I don’t understand, guys,” I said. “Is this something that we’re supposed to be ashamed of? Because, if it is, I have to tell you that I’m not. But, at the same time, I just don’t want the grief that I know I’ll get from my parents. I feel like such a freakin’ hypocrite about it. I guess I’ve grown comfortable in this private little cocoon that we’ve created here for ourselves. I don’t want it spoiled by any ugliness.”

“Hey,” Cain said, turning on his other side to face me. “We’ll figure it out, sweetie. We’ve got plenty of time to figure it all out, okay?”

I nodded, biting my lower lip and wondering about that. Maybe he was right. Maybe it was simply a matter of time before everything came together and people accepted what we were about.

“Because,” Eli piped up, “We are all in this together-for the long haul, right?”

“Right,” Cain and I answered together.

“I feel so lucky,” I sighed, plucking at the comforter. “A year ago, I never would’ve guessed how happy I’d be right now. Right here.”

“Tell us what makes you feel so lucky,” Cain challenged softly, as he flicked a match and lit the candle on the cupcake.

“Well, I have an awesome new career as a forensic technician with the F. B. I,” I started. “And then there are these men you see-two of them that I love so fucking hard. They make me so happy and they love me right back and it’s seriously the best feeling in the world for me. And for now, I have my brother’s approval, which isn’t easily given, mind you-at least to me, and it kind of rocks. My life is damn near perfect I guess.”

“What would make it perfect?” Cain whispered, leaning over me so that his lips grazed my jawline with slow, soft kisses.

“Yes,” Eli chimed in quietly, his fingertips tracing a trail along my cheek, his warm breath caressing my ear as I felt his tongue lightly trace the outer edge.

I shivered with anticipation because I knew that these men were going to make love to me tonight. And it would be slow, and it would be sensual, and it would be so very sweet. And for whatever reason, I knew that it would be different with them tonight. Because more than anything else going on in my life, there was one thing that I was sure of: I had the love of these men, and it was more precious to me than any other gift I had received…ever!

I reflected on how Darcy had looked tonight. She was glowing and happy and I loved when she let everyone feel her tummy when Carson kicked during dinner. I had been totally mesmerized by it.

“A baby,” I finally sighed. “Having our baby would make it perfect. It’s what I want.”

I sat up for a moment and leaned back on my elbows. “So, it’s official -for my next birthday, my wish is to have a baby in my belly.”

I leaned over and blew out the single candle on my cupcake, and as I watched the smoke curl and snake its way up to the ceiling, I smiled.

The End