Chapter 4
Chapter 4
PART 1 Chapter 4
That counts as a reason to hate her,right? I was allowed now to want to run her over,it's not too wrong
now that she's given me a reason.
Mrs. Spencer nodded,"
well,nothing is perfect dear."
But all Jasmine did was shrug as if she was truly doing nothing but giving advice.
My cheeks were flushed with anger when I got back to my seat.
I felt as if I should have snapped something at her but it would have probably been something stupid
and rushed like,’ well,your—your a lousy waitress!"
Romania,sitting in front of me,turned around and smiled,"
I think you did great.
I can't think of any other pair I would have preferred to act out my scene.
Don't let her bring you down,your guys were amazing.
I flashed her a fake smile,"
thanks."
Blades Pov
There was no doubt that I was beyond furious.
My alpha blood boiled with the anger I held for Jared.
I wanted to see him dead,at my knees for the pain he had caused Emerald.
How dare he touch her so intimately? His grasp on her shoulders had been too tight,as if she were still
his.
Her words remained fresh in mind,echoing a thousand times.
‘I hate that I love you, she had said, Does that count?’ She still loved him.
After all he's done,she remains blind to the betrayal and still melts at his feet.
I saw the way she gazed at him,as if wanting— or rather NEEDING to grab his face and plant her lips
upon his.
Just the thought sends an electrifying pain through my chest.
It should be me she'd gaze at like that,expect with no pain.
Just love and desires My clothes were shredded to pieces as I released, letting the animal within take
over my body.
I ran around the forests,trying to lose my thoughts of her but they followed me wherever.
It was like they were hot glued to my used—to—be wellbeing.
What had happened to mighty alpha Blade who let no feelings in? What happened to player Blade who
got every girl he wanted without a problem? And now,there's only one girl who I wanted,and I couldn't
have her.
Not only is she in the enemy pack,but I literally couldn't have her.
I cannot allow myself to open up that easily and allow her in.
I was scarred up emotionally.
I never had the best childhood.
I soon learned that love was pointless at my eighteenth birthday when I was forced to shift alone to my
possible death while emerald was no doubt,making kissy faces with Jared.
She hadn't once even considered the consequences of her actions.
She refused to believe that maybe he wasn't her mate because she was too stubborn and blinded by
her feelings.
She couldn't even consider that somewhere out there was her real mate,risking his life by shifting
without her.
I felt a growl ripple throughout my body.
I should hate her.
I shouldn't feel so protective of her.
But I did.
And my wolf wanted nothing more but to take Emerald into his arms and kiss her.
It surprised me when I noticed I wouldn't even want anything too physical.
I'd wait.
This is stupid,I thought,pulling myself out of my thinking,she's an enemy.
My father taught me too much for me to waste it upon my feelings for some girl.
What feelings? I convinced myself to think,it was merely a little protectiveness from my wolf.
That's all.
I can control him.
I growled again and headed home.
I put on some pants and a t-shirt before taking a seat on my couch.
I thought about when she's eighteen.
It can't be too far from now.
She will find out eventually if she comes too close.
She can't feel the...connection now but she will later on.
What about when she shifts? Will I be there to help her? I should let her do it all on her own,like she did
to me.
But the thought of her being in danger stopped my heart and triggered my anger.
I have to avoid her.
I have to continue on with life like she doesn't exist.
Just as I was doing before.
Hopefully the feelings will go away and she'll find another mate.
That is,if she survives the shift,growled my wolf.
I sigh and pick up the phone,dialing Tracy's cell.
"Hello?"
she answered.
"Hey,are you at school?"
I asked.
“No,we ditched,"“where are you?"
"Can you come to my house?"
I asked, ignoring the distaste of my wolf.
She giggled,causing me to distance my ear from the phone,’ be there in twenty."
I awaited her arrival,entertaining myself with some TV.
When she arrived, couldn't help the distaste that surfaced my body.
Regularly,l would have appreciated the amount of skin showing.
She was wearing a short pink skirt that showed a slight curve of her butt and a crop top.
Her blond hair was hanging loosely at her shoulders carrying no life,reminding me of Emerald's soft
looking brown locks that I so badly wanted to run my fingers through.
Tracy's blue eyes were lit up and excited.
The way Emerald's green eyes should be.
I thought about Jared again and forced my anger down from the surface.
"Hey,"
she smirked,trailing her manicured finger down my chest as an attempt at seduction.
I smiled and forced myself to enjoy it, hey."
I grabbed her arms and set her on my lap,straddling me,kissing her hard on the lips.
It was rough and desperate,nothing more but to prove to myself that I can get over whatever feelings I
had for Emerald.
I've never kissed anyone like that.
It felt as if I was trying too hard to enjoy it,deepening it until she pulled back to breath.
“Wow,"
she laughed,breathless.
I brought my lips to hers again,feeling even more disgusted with myself.
My thoughts were wrapped around Emerald again.
I couldn't seem to get her out of my head.
Her hair,her voice,her eyes and her lips.
It was all too different from any other girl.
I tried to imagine myself kissing her instead but that ruined the whole purpose of this.
I finally pushed Tracy away,developing the sudden urge to shower,’ you need to leave."
"What? Why? We were just getting started, she whined.
"I'm sorry,I forgot that I have to be somewhere,’ I lied, pushing her out the door.
"Can't it wait?"
she asked,as I shoved her out.
“No, it's really Important."
“Jessica said you did the same thing with her on Friday and kicked her out!"
she screamed.
I sighed and closed the door.
"Blade!"
I heard her scream out in frustration.
I watched out the window as she got into her car and drove away.
Well,that was a start to moving on from Emerald.