Not Just A Luna; I Am Alpha!

Chassy

I hated that I had to deal with these arrogant alphas and betas, and they didn’t know how much I tried to control myself, so I wouldn’t jump at them and give them the punch of their lives. Why on earth did they believe they had the ability to say whatever they pleased to me? Sims and Allie had been mind-linking me to try to stop me because they already knew that I wanted to rip that beta’s head off of his shoulders.

Xander was just watching the whole thing, but I don’t think that he liked what they were saying about me as well. But I didn’t want to acknowledge it, even though my beast, Thea, was so happy about it. ‘Why do you seem so happy with him?’ I asked. The introduction was over, and I was staying in one of the rooms in the packhouse.

‘Because he’s ours.’ She replied,

‘Not anymore; I rejected him already, remember?’ I asked,

‘But he didn’t accept it, so it means he wanted us,’ she replied.

‘I don’t know why you even think about it. For me, he’s past tense!’

‘Don’t say that; we both know that you want him. You can’t lie to me.’ she replied, so I just rolled my eyes at her. Yes, she’s right. But as much as possible, I didn’t want to have anything to do with him.

‘You don’t know what you are saying.’

‘Oh, come on, “C”! I know it; remember, I am you, and you are me.’

‘Yeah, right.’ I just said she would shut up. I didn’t want to think about Xander. I feel like I started to waver, and the last conversation we had outside Dad’s diner brings back memories. I just realized what a moron it was to spend another night with him before departing with his pack. I should just have left without seeing him so I wouldn’t feel embarrassed every time I found him looking at me.

A knock on the door got me out of my trance. I was about to open it, but I smelled him. “I know you’re in there, so open this door.”

‘Open it now..’ Thea said,

‘Shut up,’ I told her.

‘Please, please… pleaseeeee….’ she said repeatedly. So I got up from bed and opened the door for Xander.

“What?” I asked.

“Let’s talk.”

“What are we going to talk about?”

“Us,”

“There’s nothing to talk about, us,” I replied immediately, not giving him a chance to say more, and was about to close the door, but he stopped me.

“Let’s talk, Chas,” he said, and goddess, how can my name sound so good and sexy when he says it?

‘Because he’s ours.’ Thea said,

‘Didn’t I already tell you to shut up?’ I asked her.

“Chas, are you listening?” Xander asked,

“If you want to talk, let’s go to your office,” I replied and was about to get out of my room, but he stopped me again and pulled me back inside.

“I, Alpha Xander Finch of the Red Moon Pack,” he said. Wait, is he going to accept my rejection now? “Reject your rejection, Alpha Chastity of the Silver Moon Pack,” he added, and my eyes widened when I felt something extraordinary. Maybe he felt it too, because he was surprised as well. Then he carried me before he pinned me at the back of the now-closed door and kissed me, and, oh goddess, I felt like I missed him for a thousand years already, so I kissed him back.

After a little while, we stopped. Both panting and catching our breath. He looked at me, and so did I. There was no way that I was going to look away. There’s no reason for me to do that. “I missed you so much, Chas.”

“Don’t say that,” I replied. I didn’t want to hear anything from him that would only cause me to want him so much. It’s enough that Thea wanted him so much. I didn’t want to add to that. Though I already did.

“I can explain to you everything, honey,” he said, and that made me remember our first and last night together. He did call me that way. For a moment, then, I thought that he was going to claim me. But he didn’t, so I should not believe him now.

‘Believe him,’ Thea said. ‘His wolf told me that they miss us.’

‘How the hell did you talk to his wolf?’

‘While you two are busy kissing,’ she replied, and I could feel her happiness. ‘Go and talk to him and clear things up between you two. You both need that.’ She added and retreated to the back of my head.

“Honey,” he got my attention again. “Your wolf talking to you?” he asked, and I nodded. He doesn’t need to know yet that I am a Lycan. “Will you let me?” he asked again. “To explain?”

“I don’t need or want your explanation. For the past two years, I have decided to forget everything, including you. And I never thought that we would see each other again and that we would need to work together for our common enemy.”

“I am going to wait until you change your mind and decide to listen. I am not losing hope that you will one day,” he replied before he kissed me again. Yes, just like Thea had said, I want him. My body aches for him, but that’s all. I didn’t want to get my hopes up only to get neglected again, or worse, rejected. I won’t be able to take it. I didn’t want to get hurt anymore, and I was not going to allow him to be the cause of my pain.

The Silver Moon Pack has made me feel like the most important person, and I like it. No, I love it. I love how the entire pack looked after me and looked up to me. Dad and Daddy Jay wanted me to accept him, but it wasn’t easy. The fear that he will do what he did to me again scares me. I am whole now, and I am not going to allow anyone to break me, even if he is Xander Finch, my mate.

He left my room after we shared another breathtaking kiss. I rested my back on the closed door and closed my eyes as well. I had to be firm about what I wanted. I’m sorry, Thea if I am this stubborn, but I will never allow him to hurt us again. Never again.