Mate by Fate, Bound by Love

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Adrian’s pov

I looked at Lena and I saw that she was with her maids as her maids were styling her up, she was playing with the comb in her hand which I found annoying.

Different thoughts ran through me as I pondered on the rival pack she had come from.

I realized that I had allowed words to get to me but it was already too late, the seed of doubt and hatred for Lena had begun to germinate in my heart.

She came forward to hug me and I was irritated by her touch, I instantly moved back, there was this expression of shock on her face.

“I want to be left alone,” I said coldly.

She got the message as she bowed and left my presence.

I ruffled my hair as I thought about how words could easily get to me. I knew this was my weakness and I have tried my best to overcome this weakness.

I needed to clear my head as I headed towards the training grounds. I took a bow and arrow, focusing on hitting the bullseye.

I lost track of time as all I could see was the bullseye and the arrow. Recalling the earlier incident, I knew I had messed up, I ruffled my hair, as I thought about the earlier attitude that I had displayed to Lena.

She was becoming more free and attached to me and I had to destroy the relationship because of what I had heard.

Her eyes speak volumes, I saw the look of vulnerability, and fear, in her eyes, she looked like one who has many stories to tell but is enclosed in a space – herself.

She could be passed as a keeper of secrets, I had anticipated the day in which she would open up and tell me everything that she had passed through but I made her revert because of my actions.

Blood was dripping from my hand but I did not care if this was the way toward my close one and the one I loved, if a word could change the display of love and affection I had for her.

“Would I betray my pack with a word??” This got me pondering.

In as much as I tried to be rational in the way I was thinking, I knew the disgust and hatred in my eyes whenever I saw Lena would never change. My guard tended to my wounds and the affected areas were bandaged.

I entered the throne room and lazily sat on the throne – many would wish to be in this position not knowing the burden and responsibilities that are attached to the position.

I was getting frustrated as I needed to sign the never-ending documents, by the time I was done with the first pile of the document, it was already dusk.

I went to the chambers with a tired and bored expression on my face, I entered the chambers and realized that it was empty, I was amazed at the current phenomenon.

I looked at the couch and I saw Lena wrapping her hands around her belly as she slept soundly. A wave of anger arose in me as killing intent gushed out of me, I tried to control it in order not to alert the other wolves.

She shivered in her sleep, her face becoming pale every minute. I retracted the intent as I was amazed at my display.

“What’s wrong with me” I pondered.

Tracing back through memory lane, I realized that this was not how it began, I cared for her, cuddled her, and made sure that no harm came her way.

The same Alpha wolf who was protecting her is the same Alpha wolf who wants to destroy her.

FYI – it’s me.

I could not look at her sleeping as her sleeping state could give room to murderous intent running through my mind, I sat down on the bed, brought out a book, and started reading.

I and the moon goddess knew that I was not focusing on what I was reading. I stood up from the bed and looked at her the second time my face scrunched in disgust as I left the chambers.

I knew the war fought between Lena and I was psychological warfare which is detrimental to mental health. I took a stroll around the city as the calmness and serenity made me calm for a moment.

The way I treated Lena made my wolf give me the silent treatment. I thought I was not going to need its help because I had all things figured out, it was in the later stages that I knew how important a wolf is to a person.

I tried all possible means to communicate with my wolf, all to no avail, when the pestering became too much, I realized that I had great strength but I could not communicate with my wolf. This was pure torture on my part.

I began to feel different emotions, I knew it was not mine but Lena’s, this was due to the effectiveness of the mate bond. I needed to sever the mate bond to be free from its shackles, tears began to pour out of my eyes uncontrollably.

I was getting disgusted and irritated at myself, I was allowing the emotions of my enemy to affect me. I knew the process was painful and I did not want to do it yet.

I needed to be fit for the upcoming war, I would think about my decision when I was back from the war.

“Why am I classifying her as my enemy?” I pondered. I noticed that my emotions were changing at a faster pace and I did not like it. I felt that there was a being pouring out malicious content into my heart.

I had a secret chamber that was hidden from Claire and Lena, I dragged my tired self as I struggled with sleep. After a while, I succumbed to sleep.

Today had been a long day