Chapter 68
“And where do you think you are going too?” asked Keane in an unpleasant tone.
Smiles didn’t bother answering as she pulled her luggage and only stopped a fit away from him. She didn’t bother answering his questions as she spoke out boldly to him
“I wish to terminate the contract” her tiny voice rings. She stood there, staring at the man before her, sitting ever so elegantly on the royal blue sofa.
“I make the decision not you…” his voice was firm and warning. She was daring enough to bring up such a topic.
“I do have a say” She interjected. It was the first time she boldly spoke to him, not caring about the fact that he was her master and she, the slave. Keane’s head snapped to the side, with a raised brow. Amused at her sudden baldness.
“We had a contract signed that said it will only get terminated by you or by me asking your love” she explains.
“I don’t need this anymore, I want to be free Keane, free from you” She calls him by his name for the first time.
“I can’t get stuck in this, the truth is I have fallen for you…deeply and I can’t stand seeing you with her” Tears rolled down her cheeks as she said those words. Keane stood there staring at her in disbelief.
She just couldn’t hide it anymore. Rather than pretending just to be with him, she prefers to tell the truth and get herself out of this bondage, his bondage that she’s been living in.
He wasn’t meant to be hers anyway.
“I want you to love me, Keane…see me the same way you see her and more” She continued. It was the only way she could get herself out of his clutches.
“Funny how I ended up loving you, after so many attempts to resist it” She laughs mockingly at herself. Keane stares at her with no word left. He watches her leave with her luggage. He didn’t stop her, let her go.
Smiles were hurt. The pain she had when Mark cheated on her and got married to Xena was in no way in comparison with what she was feeling. She’s always been telling herself he(Keane) doesn’t mean a thing, that what they got has no hold on her but whenever he is not there, She finds herself crumbling to dust.
She thought she didn’t care that much but always felt like she was dying ’till she felt his touch. That could only be love, only love can hurt her this much.
She said she wouldn’t care if he walked away, but every time he’s there, she’s begging him to stay and when he comes close, she trembles.
Every time he calls on Lisa’s name it’s like a knife cutting right to her soul. Even though she always says giving up is what she will never do, this case was different.
Only he can make her do the things she never did and feel the way she always thought never existed.
And for him, she decides to give up, willingly. Loving him was the best feeling ever yet the most painful.
The question here is if she was given the chance to meet Keane those three consecutive times and he offered her the same deal, would she still accept even after knowing what it would be like in the end?
Yes… of course yes… she will accept a hundred times over.
“But if the sweetest pain is burning hot through my veins, love is torture…makes me more sure” She cries. Only love could hurt her this much, only his love.
She can’t go back to her former home, she’s sure it’s taken.
Moreover, she can be easily traced and that’s the last thing she will want.
Where can she go?
Right now, her head was thick and clouded with pain. Both her past and her love life came hitting hard on her, sending her to the edge of darkness.
Maybe alone time will help her figure out the real her. To rethink over and over again.
Just maybe, she will be able to forgive her dad and accept him ’cause right now, her thoughts are the complete and perfect description of a disaster.
Back in the white mansion, Keane paces back and forth. Feeling uneasy.
It was unlike him to feel this way, angry, frustrated, and unsure.
but what was he unsure of? What’s he angry about? Why was he frustrated?
He’s always known she loved him,, he heard her confess in her sleep and somehow he was happy.
That is unlike him…
“hey!” Lisa said from the door as she walked herself in “What happened?” she asked.
Keane was supposed to pick her up for their date but he never did.
She waited and waited, but he never came. curious to know why, she decided to come check.
Only now Keane realized he’s been so stuck with Smiles that he actually forgot about her.
He takes her in for a hug, letting himself drown in the soft smell of her perfume hoping it calms him down but to his dismay, nothing happens.
Thinking he needs more than hugging her, he kisses her taking Lisa by surprise, sucking her lips demanding more access which she granted.
It was strange as to why he was being all needy now cause she couldn’t remember the last time he made love to her and she always wondered how he kept up with his desires.
She found herself drowning in the pleasure and sweetness of his kiss, wanting more. Only then, he pulls away abruptly, running his hands on his already disheveled hair.
It wasn’t working, he wasn’t getting the satisfaction he needed. She wasn’t enough, she wasn’t what he wanted right now.
He needs more than just a kiss, he needs more than just the scent of her perfume flooding the air.
He needs something more orderly than this. That one thing he’s gotten addicted to, that he’s come to desire almost every second of his life… Smiles… that’s the only thing he wants now.