Love You Can’t Say

“This is an adult matter, you are still young, just study hard and grow up healthy is enough, Snowy will be sad and you can have your own emotions, you don’t have to live for any of us, okay?”

Relieved to pat Jeffery on the shoulder, although touched, the reasoning is still to call the children understand.

Jeffery closed his lips tightly and did not answer, not sure if he was listening.

It doesn’t matter, there is always time to teach slowly in the future, boys, or wait for Dennis to come back to make the decision, “Anyway, in the future do what you want to do, do not deliberately please others, the most important thing is to be happy, understand?”

“But I want to do this.” Jeffery looked at me stubbornly, “I want to make Snowy happy, don’t I, Mrs. George?”

Faced with such a simple question, I have a kind of groundless shame, perhaps I am really too sensitive, this is a child who knows how to return the favor, really should not use the norms of the adult world, to view his every behavior as the standard.

The world of children is clean, there is no purpose, do not understand what is to please, only know who is good to them, return in the same way.

Jeffery just doesn’t want to upset the girl who, for him, has a family, so what’s wrong with that.

“No.” I smiled and shook my head, put the paper back in my hand and rubbed the top of his furry head, “Keep reading if you want to, but promise your aunt that you will go to sleep right away when you are sleepy and tired, and that you can’t go past 3 a. m., can you do that?”

A rare glimmer of delight passed over Jeffery’s face and he nodded heavily, “Yes.”

When he finished, he sat back and continued flipping through the documents, seriously, like a young adult.

I walked silently to the door, looked back again, and sighed hopelessly.

In the end is a child, the treacherous business, where a few documents can explain clearly, half a little boy, can not recognize all the numbers is the problem, but to study the world of adults, in vain.

I can’t bear to expose his enthusiasm, but I hope I can back off afterwards.

It is too tiring for such a young child to learn those things. Not everyone can be as gifted as Jamie, who learns easily and effortlessly.

…

This night was a rare solid sleep, until 8:30 to get up, hastily made breakfast and rushed to the hospital.

It was ten o’clock in the ward and Leo was so hungry that he saw me and howled, “Wow I can’t, good sister, you actually want to starve your brother to death, don’t you?”

He is also big-hearted, his right hand is like that, but still do not forget to play treasure, but what can be done, the sky is big, the patient is the biggest, I can only kindly coax, “my fault my fault, overslept, hey, your favorite shredded chicken porridge, and crystal shrimp dumplings, horseshoe cake, super glutinous pig’s foot tendons, quickly eat!

Leo narrowed his eyes at the food and swept around, raising one eyebrow to look at me shrewdly, “These, you made with your own hands.”

I bit my lower lip and nodded sheepishly, “Yeah, your mouth is so dense, if you do the same every day, you’ll be on a hunger strike.”

Leo inexplicably laughed out loud, then picked up chopsticks and held a piece of soft and rotten pig’s foot tendon in front of him to carefully survey, “This dish is the most important fire, stewed like this, at least twenty minutes, right?”

I didn’t even think about it and said he was right, “Well, it’s almost half an hour.”

Leo shook his head and put down his chopsticks, laughing strangely and calling out for inexplicable embarrassment.

Half a day before I reacted, usually stewed ribs have to half an hour, the pig’s foot tendons this thing to do up time is certainly only more and less, not to mention my own said up late, do the more simple the better, this dish is obviously not supposed to appear.

I can only give up my breath and give an honest account, “Okay, don’t laugh, I’ll tell the truth, these Cantonese morning tea is Nanny made, only shredded chicken congee is my own hand-made, I’m not too late, but I’m afraid you can’t eat enough, anyway, Nanny is also specially made for you to complement the shape of a sincere, a piece of heart. Whoever does it is the same …”

At the end of the day, I was afraid that Leo would be picky, so I threatened him with my eyes wide open, “Are you not going to eat?”

Leo weakly shrank his neck before picking up his chopsticks again, “I don’t dare, if I don’t finish this, I can still eat your and Nanny’s private cooking in the future, I’m not stupid.”

I was relieved that the patients were not all difficult to serve.

After watching him eat for a while, he remembered that he hadn’t seen Deborah, and while opening the other thermos, he asked, “Where did Deborah go, why isn’t she back yet?”

“Go home.” Leo didn’t even lift his head.

“No, I didn’t see anyone.” I smugly went back to the George Residence.

“I’m talking about my mother’s family.” Leo swallowed the shrimp dumplings in his mouth before explaining again, “The old man’s company has been very busy lately, and she is the only daughter in their family, so it’s not right not to go back and help.”

“So you guys used to go out together before and help out at the office too?” I asked.

“Well.” Speaking of which, Leo’s eyes faded, scooped up a spoonful of porridge suspended in mid-air, said with emotion, “Before in order to find you, the only dependence of the two elderly people abducted abroad, since back, can help, naturally, all to help a hand.”

I don’t know what to say for a while, love and marriage, it’s never just about two people, everything is closely linked.

When I didn’t respond, Leo immediately changed the subject, “Did Dennis kick you out of the office?”

“How do you know.” I subconsciously blurted out, only to realize that it was wrong, and quickly changed my mouth, “Nothing, originally the George Group’s business I also do not intervene, in addition to the two people have different views, bundled together only constant quarrels, it is better to separate, each care of their own.”

“Then why don’t we just divorce and live separately?” Leo suddenly said this without a head.

I don’t know if he really thinks so, or deliberately ridicule me, simply default is the latter, playfully trying to muddle through, “How can this be the same, family and career do not have to be linked together, shine in their respective fields, and then go home to get warm, is not very good, if the lines are the same, then only one person to say a person to listen to, after a long time, inevitably will lose interest in each other, Dennis’s vision has always been longer than mine, this time perhaps …”

“I can’t believe I didn’t know, when did your ability to deceive yourself become so strong.” Leo didn’t give me a chance to finish, those eyes that could easily steal the young girl’s spring heart looked at me in confusion, “You forget what kind of identity Uncle Link is, you think I don’t know about Dennis’ drug dealing if you don’t say anything?”

“What kind of people are in that business, the most vicious, vicious, there is nothing in their eyes but money, once they step in, they can never get out, Hungas attitude towards that thing is not clear to you? No matter how smart Dennis is, there will always be a mistake, at that time you will have to follow him to the end of the world, Clara, don’t be stupid, to such people, put away your expectations.”