Lonely Bride

SARAH’S POV

“Hey,” I said while taking a seat next to him.

“Hi, finally you got free, hmm?” He asked with a small smile.

“Well, I was only free. It’s just that I like to be with girls.” I know he is hinting about girls and how I keep myself busy the whole day behind them. He is not wrong either, honestly. Sometimes I wonder why I never leave Bella at all. I guess I don’t trust anyone when it comes to her, apart from Natalia.

“I know that, but there are so many people around here to take care of them. Why do you exhaust yourself?” He asked while turning toward me.

I took the cup of coffee, which I knew was for me, and took a sip. Closing my eyes, I let the caffeine hit my nerves and calm a little tiredness, if I was feeling any.

“Ivan, she is my daughter, and I want to be around whenever she needs me,” I said, while looking ahead at the dark flower field.

Though he knows already, however, I don’t like to remind anyone or myself, as I don’t have anyone apart from her. And just the thought of being away from her shakes me to the core.

“I know she is OUR daughter.” Ivan presses the word our. And I smile at hearing this. I know he is very protective and a caring father for Bella, but I cannot forget he is a pretending father, not the real one.

“So, how’s your work going on?” I asked, changing the subject.

“Work is good, Rose. A little tiring but good thought.” He said this while closing his eyes.

“Why do you work so hard, Ivan? As far as I know, if you are doing well, then why stress so much?” I asked while getting a little annoyed. I mean, I understand work is important, and so is success, but I know for a fact that success is a hunger you can never satisfy.

“You don’t know Rose. There’s too much competition out there, and you have to do your best if you want to survive.” He said this, taking a sip from his cup.

“Well, I don’t agree, but again, I don’t want to comment as I believe you know better,” I said while keeping my silence for a bit, enjoying my coffee with a pleasant breeze hitting my face, giving me a soothing feeling.

“So, what time are we going to the beach tomorrow?” He asked after a while.

“Are you coming? I thought tomorrow morning you would run back to your work.” I giggle at my words, and he gives me a fake glare.

Showing my hand in the air in surrender and speaking, Ok, fine. Let’s leave by seven in the morning so kids can enjoy themselves before the sun hits their heads.”

He nodded his head, and we finished our coffee and headed to sleep. I look back when I feel a tuck in my wrist and say, “Good night, Rose.” He came close to me and kissed my cheek. I look up into his eyes, and I can see different emotions, but I can’t pin down what they are. One I know of is admiration. I know he likes me, but sadly, I can’t reciprocate. However, I want to, but I just can’t. I cringed at his touch but did not say anything.

After giving him a small smile, I went inside and closed the door behind me.

After giving him a small smile, I went inside and closed the door behind me.

Gosh, I don’t know why, but I don’t like anyone touching me anymore, as if my emotions died the moment I left his place. I don’t know whether I will ever be able to feel the same way with someone in my life as I felt with Sean.

Thinking about him instantly, my eyes got teary, and I padded toward my bed, laid on my back, and looked up at the ceiling.

Sean not only broke my trust, but he has broken me beyond repair. A sob left my mouth unknowingly, and I didn’t know until tears were flowing from my eyes, but finally my eyes got tired and some sleep took over me.

When I next woke up, I checked the time, and it was showing 6. 40 already. I rush towards the washroom to finish my business and get ready, as I am sure we will be late today. After changing, I ran to wake the kids up and stopped my legs when I heard their giggle. I smile as I know how excited they are to go, and I am sure they woke up early in their excitement.

“Morning my Sunshines” I looked at both girls and said

“Morning.” They both replied, and Bella ran towards me, and I picked her up in my arms.

Good morning, my belle.” I kissed his cute little nose, and she giggled when I showered kisses on her face.

“Morning Mommy.” She said this, giving me my morning hug.

Gosh, I felt peace the moment she tightened her hold on me.

“Are you girls ready?” I asked, looking at them.

“Yes, we are now finishing your breakfast as fast as we all are already. Ivan said this while keeping his eyes on the phone.

“Yes- yes.” I stuffed my mouth with the sandwich I saw on the table and signed for them to walk out.

After putting all the used dishes in the dishwasher and the leftovers in the fridge, I ran out and looked at what was sitting in the car. Me, Ivan, and the kids settle into his Range Rover Vogue. And others settle in my Jeep.

“When do you have to go back?” I asked when I noticed both kids were busy in their world.

“I will leave right after I bring you guys back.” He said this while his eyes were on the road.

He was wearing a white sleeveless t-shirt and shorts. Glasses were on his eyes, and he was wearing a Rutgers cap. He is looking smoking hot.

“Girls are going to drool over you today,” I said, smirking.

I know how much he hates it when girls look at him. I guess after his wife, he has started hating all the women in the world apart from me.

“Please take me under your secure wings if such a thing happens.” He said this, shaking his head, and I giggled hearing it from him.

“Don’t worry, Daddy, about my baby. I will be your knight in shining armor.” I said while keeping my chin in the air and giggled, and he chuckled, looking at me while shaking his head.

“You should smile more often, Ivan. I only see you happy when you are with Bella.

” I spoke my heart out. As he always keeps a stoic face all the time. Everyone apart from me and Bella stays away from him.

Not that he has done anything wrong, but somehow his aura is scary to people. However, he has the most charming smile.

“I do smile, Sarah.” He said it, huffing.

This is not the first time I’ve said this to him. I have told him this many times to smile, but he has the same answer as always.

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