I’m Just His Wife

It would be wrong if I made this decision wrong but I have to try. The four of them can help my group a lot and he will be a big damage to Dark Alpha.

My forehead furrowed as he grinned. A smile can bring horror to anyone but me. My grip tightened on the gun I was holding.

“I’m not in the mood. I’m sorry.” he laughed demonically and nodded seriously. “You just killed my sister and you expect me to be your vanguard? Really, Ms. Steinfields?” his tone was still cold as ice.

I took a deep breath. What did I kill his brother? I don’t even know his name and the information about him. So how can I kill his brother?

“Stop with that falsehood of yours, four. I didn’t kill your sister. Where do you get those things you’re saying?” I asked with my suffocated yet calm tone.

He laughed heartily. “You didn’t kill her? Really ?! I saw it with my own eyes! You shot her in her neck!” I almost gasped as anger ran all over his face.

My eyes widened slightly because of what he said. Yes, I shot a girl in her neck because she tried to kill me and she’s blocking my way. But … I didn’t know …

I could clearly see the mixture of resentment and anger in the eyes of the four.

I didn’t mean that! I thought she’s just an ordinary subordinate of Dark Alpha. It turned out that he was the brother of four.

“I didn’t mean to kill her …” I almost whispered. It was as if I suddenly felt guilty. Even if I didn’t mean it I do feel guilty.

“You liar! You meant to kill him because you know he’s my brother! was that how you really want to retaliate against Dark Alpha?” he asked angrily and grinned. He laughed and looked at me foolishly. “But anyway, we killed your whole family. So now you’re the one killing, aren’t you? You want to follow us. Ah, wrong, you want to be a lift to us. That’s why you became the leader of the Flaming Cross , was it not?” he stared at me while I was stunned by him. “It’s funny. Because your staff assume you value them. But the truth was you’re just using them to get what you want.”

I blinked and shook one after another. “No! That’s not true! Don’t ever compare me to you!”

He laughed again. “Don’t be like us? Hah! were you kidding, Andrea? You’re not like us because you’re even more of a monster than us. Rina made you a monster. That’s why you’re able to kill an innocent person, isn’t it?”

I was stuck there. I feel like I suddenly weaken at these times.

I will admit, I have killed an innocent person before because of extreme anger. I didn’t mean that. I just got so mad because he didn’t want to talk about Dark Alpha. But the truth was that he was not an accomplice of the group I hate.

I still remember … How many times did he beg me to let him go because he didn’t know anything about what I was asking.

But when I was so angry … I shot him. I killed him …

And it was only after that that I found out that he was innocent.

I felt so shocked and angry with myself then. I send too much into my emotions. I was not careful. I became too selfish.

So at least to help that person’s family, I give them money every month. But I send it everywhere so they don’t know it’s from me.

“Looks like you remember something, Andrea?” smiling question of the four who blinked at me.

“I can’t kill an innocent person, four. I’m not like you …” I promised emphatically.

“Oh, c’mon. Don’t play charades here. Don’t look innocent here because I know the stench you’re hiding …” the four said seriously.

I smiled. “Oh, really? All right, take it one by one. Let’s get the stench out here right now.” I said sarcastically while looking at him intently.

He swallowed and I saw it. I just smiled and watched his reactions. He would know nothing about me because my identity was hidden. I’m really the one he’s going to scare, right?

If he thinks I have heard nothing about him he was mistaken. I don’t even know his name but I know a lot about him.

“What? I’m challenging you, four. You’re going to take out my stench and I’m going to take out yours too. Why does it seem like you’re taking so long to speak?” challenging I say.

His gaze deepened on me again. “Bitch.” I heard him muttered.

I smiled. ‘the courage to say I have a stench but you yourself don’t know them. Tsk, I was wrong to offer you. You’re unnatural.” I shook my promise.

“Shut up!” he pointed his gun at me even more so I was immediately alarmed.

I took a deep breath and prayed fervently in my mind. God forgive me in case I kill four. He’s really getting into my nerves.

I dropped my two guns and dropped them on the cement. I saw the shock of the four in what I did. Watch out, idiotic bastard.

I raised both my hands. “I surrender.” no doubt I promise.

Kwatro’s expression turned soft. He smirked and looked at me intently.

“It’s good that you thought of doing that. You can’t handle a man like me, Ms. Steinfields. You’re just a girl. You’re weak.”

Andrea’s POV

There’s a big difference between the word ‘intentionally’ and ‘unintentionally’. They may have the same root word, their meanings were still differ from each other. The prefix ‘un’ made the word ‘intentionally’ to have its negative meaning.

It just seems like that in real life. Whether the two people were the same in appearance, color, state in life, or whatever they still have differences. Not all people were born with the same temperament. Unless one was pretending to imitate the behavior of another.

Talking about those hypocrite people here. I really don’t understand why it was necessary to pretend to be human. Why someone has to lie. Maybe white lies were still possible but they were still lies. As long as there was lie, untruth, deceit, falsity and whatever other English of lies in the dictionary will that really exist in the world?

Because sometimes lies were annoying. It’s one of the most confusing things in people’s lives. It’s annoying because it’s just one word, six syllables, and seventeen letters that can ruin a person’s life. So that the inventor of that word enjoys killing.

But I also think of white lies. That seems like the right concept of a lie for me. You lie for the good of all and not for greed or any other evil. I would rather have white lies than the evil lies I hear around me.

Sometimes it”s nice to lie, yes. Because if it’s for your own good, you can lie. But when you go too far, no one will believe you. You lied a few times, expecting no one to believe you. Some people say that all excess was bad.

Too much anger was bad. Too much fun was bad. Too much grief was bad. Too much compassion was bad. Excessive vice was bad. Just everything with excess was bad. That’s really the way life was. You should not overdo it or go overboard. It should be just your estimate, just your exact type. Because you were the only one who will get hurt when you overdo it.

I have learned e. I was angry too much, I was hurt too much, I loved too much. You did nothing to make me beautiful. Everything was bad. So I”m avoiding myself at all too much. I don’t want anything bad or bad to happen to me again. I’m tired of that.

However, humans were not perfect. We all have our own flaws and flaws. Even if it was not obvious to others because others think there was a really perfect person you still have your mistakes or inaccuracies. From the moment we were all born we have sinned.

It says in the quote I read in a book, “if you always look for perfection, you will always look unhappy”. So we must convince ourselves that no person, thing, animal or anything was perfect. Maybe in the books already. But hey, they’re just fictional. The only perfect creature that lives here in our hearts was our Lord God. Nothing else.

It”s sad to think that you have to first get hurt, cry and be hurt before you can achieve the perfect timing called for. But nothing’s perfect, as I’ve said. Maybe the appropriate call to that perfect timing was “new beginning”. You will start again and be happy. That”s maybe the right term there.

Tsk. With so much I’ve learned over the years I can’t even count that. The Lord can do very differently. He enlightened me. Yes and I have always believed in him but only now have I felt this way. Your type seems to have called me to things. Your type my dark life had light.

So in God’s will, nothing was impossible. Just believe in him and believe in his ability. Just pray and pray until you realize something that lacks your prospect. You will lose nothing if you believe in God.

I hear news that many were angry with Him. That case was not true because he does not bring anything good to people. In that case, he was not the one who gives life and he was the one who takes it. That was why he does not forgive sins.