I’m Just His Wife

Then … I consider him a brother. I really thought he was gay, actually. He doesn’t have a girlfriend until now and many women like him but he didn’t pay any attention to them after that …

My cheeks warmed at the thought. Even though I’m married and have a child, I can still be thrilled, right? But nothing has changed, Ivan was still the one I love …

I was about to get out of Seymour’s car when he stopped me. He brought me here to our house after we had eaten quietly earlier. As in silent because not as usual, he does not speak even me. It’s just awkward.

I swallowed and faced him. “Did … Why?” I was nervous to question.

He took a deep breath and my eyes widened as he hugged me. I was so bitten on my lower lip when I felt and heard her heartbeat. Too strong … the guy seems to have his heart coming out of his chest.

“It’s true … What I said before was true. I love you, Rigella. It’s funny to think but since we were kids, I’ve loved you. I don’t know how I loved you, as long as my crazy heart and my heart beat so hard. he says, he loves you. Ever since then, it’s just you. There’s nothing else … “Seymour whispered in my ear and I felt him kiss my hair.

I close my eyes emphatically. Why didn’t I notice that right away? Her sweetness to me, her concern for me, and the things she does for me? Because he loves me he does that. My numbness.

I grabbed his chest and slowly pulled him away from me. I saw his forehead furrow and I sighed. If I had always loved Seymour, would I be happy?

I think yes. Even now, he makes me happy. But no, he’s not the one I love. Ivan was the one I love … the man who did nothing if he didn’t hurt me but I still love him even if he was not deserving.

“Se … Seymour. I’m sorry but, Ivan was the one I love …” I nodded.

I heard her sigh so I looked up at her. She ruffled her hair and smiled at me. But I know his smile was fake. Because his smile was out of sight …

He faked a laugh. “I know that. Hahaha! Why did I admit to you? My t@nga really …” he said and the pain could be seen in his eyes.

Tears welled up in my left eye and he stopped laughing.

“Cupcake …” He said and wiped away my tears. But it kept dripping.

“I’m … I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you. You know, if I could just teach my heart, I would have loved you. You deserve better, Seymour …” I sobbed as he my tears were seriously wiped away.

“Shh … I didn’t admit to you to make you cry, cupcake …” he said softly and quickly kissed me on the forehead.

Why was love so complex? I don’t want Seymour to be like me. But how? I don’t want him to be my martyr. He deserve something better than that.

When I finished crying and sobbing he kissed me on the forehead again but this time, it was a long time.

“I love you but I won’t force you to love me too. Just let me love you, I’m happy there …” he said smiling after he kissed me on the forehead.

I smiled at him too. Seymour was very kind. Lucky the woman he can stay with.

‘thank you, Seymour …” I said and looked at the time on my wrist watch. It’s 9:30 pm, was my child asleep yet? “Uhm, Seymour. I’m going inside …” I said goodbye to him.

He smiled and nodded. “All right, it’s too late.”

I opened the car door and reminded him before he left.

“Be careful driving ah?” High eyebrows I said. It’s a reckless driver, maybe something else will happen to him.

He sneered at me and winked. “Sure, cupcakes! I’ll still love you.” He stretched me.

“It’s really your corn! Oh, go ahead. It’s late, go home.”

“Okay, cupcakes. Just text.” Aniya.

“All right, bye.” I said and closed the car door.

I moved a little away from the car and was shaken when he pulled his car over. Tsk, he still hasn’t changed.

The guard let me in at the gate and I was surprised when I saw another car parked outside the gate. Who could that be?

I entered the house and frowned when I saw the light was still on. I went into the living room and my eyes widened.

Lara who was crying and Ivan who hugged her and made her lie down, they were both sitting on the sofa. Wait … was your car Lara’s outside?

I could hardly breathe because of the weight of my chest. It’s like my heart was being torn apart by the pain. My eyes were watering and I couldn’t leave my position even if I wanted to.

Lara’s eyes widened when she saw me so she immediately pushed Ivan and whispered. Ivan turned to me and looked at me seriously. Anger was visible on his eyes that’s why i had goosebumps.

Lara said goodbye to Ivan and Ivan kissed her on the lips with a smack before he left. Lara looked at me first before I regretted it and she walked away.

I was surprised when Ivan grabbed my arm and he held my arm even tighter than before.

“WHAT DID I HEAR, HA ?! What kind of hurtful words did your friend say to my girlfriend ?!” he shouted so it touched my ear.

Although I was having a hard time, I tried to remove his hand from my arm. Seymour was right, I have to fight. When I succeeded I slapped him hard on the cheek. His expression became even more angry.

“How dare you-!”

I cut off what he was going to say. “How dare you too, Ivan! You don’t respect me anymore! This was my house too! You really brought your woman here huh ?! Your daughter isn’t ashamed of us anymore! I don’t want to! I’m fed up! ! I quit! Too painful! ” I cried while sobbing too much because of crying.

He was stunned and stared at me and spoke with a nod. “You asked for this …” he whispered angrily.

I grinned bitterly. “Yeah! I asked for this! Yes, it’s my fault why we ended up like this! But Ivan, if you can’t respect me as your wife and mother of your child, respect me as a woman! Even if I love you I can leave you whenever I want! ” Chasing breath I said and he was stunned. “And now was the time …”

Rigella’s POV

Roxanne handed me another box of tissue when one box ran out. I took it and immediately wiped away my tears that would not stop dripping.

Here I am now in Roxanne”s condo unit. Even though I was having a hard time before, I left Ivan stunned in the living room and then I went out of the house and waited for a taxi. It’s true that Roxanne was still awake even though it’s a bit late because she’s watching a k-drama.

I heard her sigh and she sat down in front of me.

“Why were you crying? You’ve already decided, haven’t you? You’re leaving her. Don’t drama anymore. She doesn’t deserve your crying. You’re Rigella Andrea Crisostomo, I love your tears.” He said and struggled.

I just sniffed and didn’t answer. Honestly, I didn’t really mean what I said before. I was so hurt that I said that. But that half meant, it’s really too much.

He just shook his head and blinked emphatically. It’s embarrassing for Roxanne, I’m already too busy with her. But I have nowhere to go right now. I can’t go to my parents’ house because they will be surprised at how I look so I went here with Roxanne.