I’m Just His Wife

I violently let go of his hand and stared at him. Don’t let him hurt me especially now that I have a baby in my womb.

We stared at each other for a while, me and Lara, Seymour and Ivan. I didn’t expect that this will happen. I just came home here and yet it immediately dawned on me.

For a moment more silence prevailed. I think, this was the perfect timing to end my decision. This was the right thing to do. The three of us will be face to face and good thing Seymour was with me.

I sighed and changed my gaze. “I already filed an annulment. Let’s stop this shit already, I’m tired.” No emotion I say.

Almost at the same time their eyes widened at what I said. What I have said was true, I called one of our lawyers last night to file an annulment for me. I used Ivan”s femininity to keep that going.

I turned my gaze back to Ivan again and I couldn’t read his expression. But I know deeply inside, he was happy because he will be able to get rid of the “lintek” we married.

After seven years of pain, I just now thought of quitting. It’s too painful but this was the right thing to do. I want … our lives to be in order again.

I faced Ivan with a smile plastered on my lips. “You just see me as an option. Maybe, it’s time I see you as a memory …” I said then left them dumbfounded.

Rigella’s POV

‘thank you, Attorney …” I said to Atty. Romualdez when he handed me the annulment papers.

As I expected, the annulment I requested was processed quickly. Why? Because I’m a Crisostomo, we have lots of connections so … this was it. I made it right for Ivan to hurt me emotionally and most of all … physically so this annulment will be processed quickly.

At first, of course, I was a little hesitant about what I was going to do because of course because of my son. But I thought he would be even more hurt when he found out that his daddy and I were together but we didn’t love each other.

And one more thing, this was the right thing to do for our situation. I am also the one who will suffer if I continue to cling to our marriage. Tska, I accept everything, finally. Maybe … Lara was really Ivan’s great love so no matter what I do, he still can’t love me. And it’s funny that I understand him even if it hurts.

I already signed the papers even though my hands were shaking, because of nervousness. I was nervous before because I might not be able to handle it but I thought about the things I realized last night. Maybe … it will be worth my decision in the future. Sana lang.

I felt Seymour hold my hand so I smiled at him. This guy … this guy never left me even though I inflicted pain on him. Hopefully … the time will come when I will be able to reciprocate his love for me because I know it’s worth it when I entrust my heart to him. He was worth it.

We left the law firm and immediately got in his car here in the parking lot. I leaned back in the chair and sighed. I closed my eyes and smiled. Everything happened so fast, I never imagined I would do it. That I can do it. This was an achievement for me. Weird, right?

“Let me do the honor to send him those papers …” Seymour said causing me to wake up and turn to him.

I bit my lower lip and held his hand. “I’m the one who will give these papers to him, Seymour. I want to give him these … personally.” I smiled at him and bowed slightly.

His forehead creased. “But … But why? You want to get separated with him and yet-”

I interrupted what he was going to say and smiled. ‘that’s the point, Seymour. I’m going to separate from her so I’ll give it to her myself so … so that I can get my child. It’s in the contract that if she signs these annulment papers, our marriage will expire and he has full rights to Ice. I don’t want to get involved with him anymore nor see him anymore. ”

That was actually my plan in the first place. I don’t want him to have any more rights to Ice because he doesn’t have a father. He could have just reconciled with me and live with me happily for the sake of Ice … but he didn’t. So, this was what he got.

Seymour sighed and took my hand again. “Do you want to go to your house now? So that you can give me those papers?” He asked.

I puckered my lips. Now right away? “Hmm, okay. So that I can get my son right away and so that he can sign these papers and when they were passed to the court …”

Seymour nodded quietly and tightened his grip on my hand. Until the car functioned he held my hand so I just let him. I just leaned back in the chair and just looked out the window. It’s raining, maybe I should name my baby something connected to the rain? I smiled in that thought.

Then a question suddenly popped in my mind. Should I tell Ivan about my pregnancy? Besides, it’s his child also.

But … he fooled me. So, I’m not going to tell him about our baby. After all, all her rights to my baby were taken away when she didn’t take me to the supermarket and just let us take our son’s life there.

And I think, I know why. He’s with Lara that time. I memorized his schedule and I knew the day he wasn’t busy. And that day, I am more than sure that he was not busy and just … having a “quality time” with his so-called-girlfriend.

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. Shouldn’t I stop thinking about him now? He’s not worth thinking for. He doesn’t matter.

I did not realize that I was stunned and when the car stopped I only woke up in a trance. I looked in Seymour’s direction but he wasn’t the one I saw … if not our house. The house I lived in for seven years.

I was stunned at home. I kept that house for a long time. But … here it was and I will leave suddenly. I smirked bitterly, this was so ironic.

I was stunned when the door opened to my habit. I saw Seymour open it so I smiled at him sparingly. He helped me get out of the car. I adjusted my dress and looked at Seymour who was staring at me seriously.

“You can leave me here …” I said then gave him an assuring smile.

“What? Rigella, it’s dangerous-”

My forehead creased. “Dangerous? Why?”

He sighed and rubbed his palm on her face. He look frustrated. “You’re pregnant, cupcake … Maybe what will happen to you and your baby when I leave you here alone …”

My lips parted but I immediately smiled as well. “You know me, Seymour. I’m strong, okay? I won’t do anything or let anything affect me and my baby. So, please, leave me here. I’ll just call you to fetch me. Please?” I said, pleading.

The truth was, I don’t know what will happen inside the house and I don’t want Seymour to see how vulnerable I am. I mean, I’m not going to be weak in front of Ivan but when I know I’m with someone, I become weak because I know I have a captain. So yes, I don’t want him to go with me anymore.

He sighed then looked at me intently. I promise to you, Seymour. After this, I will let myself learn how to love you. So please, let me do what I want.

“were you sure, cupcake? Because I will really leave you here …”

I bit my lower lip and smiled. He really couldn’t stand me. “One hundred percent sure, Seymour. So, go. I know you’re busy in your office. Don’t worry, I’ll call you right away when something happens to me. ” I laughed so he would let me.

He smiled and messed up my hair. “Just call me when you want to pick me up and when they do something to you. I’ll be right here in five minutes.”

“Okay …” I smiled.

He kissed me on the forehead and said goodbye again before he got in the car. When he got in, he immediately started the car so I pulled over and he pulled his car away.

I was just shaken. The speed would actually make that man’s car run. But when I’m with him, the speed was okay.

I swallowed hard before I decided to enter the gate. I counted to ten before opening the door of the house and blinking emphatically. I also tightened my grip on the envelope. This was it, Ella. It was no longer in arrears.

When I entered, I woke up immediately because I was almost deaf in the silence. I looked around and I was almost stunned because there were cracked vases around. Wait, what happened ?!

I immediately ran up the stairs but I walked carefully up. When I got to the second floor I immediately ran to Ice’s room. I went inside and I was relaxed when I saw him on earphones and playing iPad while lying on the bed.

I sat on her bed. “Ice …”

He turned to me and immediately got up and hugged me. My tears flowed immediately and I hugged him too.

“Mommy, I think Tita Lara and Daddy had an argument. They’re shouting at each other and I was so scared. Let’s leave this place, Mommy please … Please, Mommy …” Ice’s eyes were red and seems to be crying.