I’m Just His Wife

Here I am in the park, crying again. Again e.

I thought, I’ve released all the resentment I’ve had before. But no, because there was still some left. So here I am now, like a gaga crying.

I’m sitting on the swing, here Ivan and I used to play in this park/playground. I don’t know why my feet brought me here. Maybe it’s because I’m used to crying here and venting all my resentment. It’s private and we’re the owner so I’m the only one.

I rocked myself on the swing and looked at the green grasses I was stepping on. It’s also been a few years since I last went here. Maybe, before the wedding that was my last guest here.

I still remember those times. Here I cried and cried because I was pregnant. I promised my parents that I would finish school and work before I got married but … all those promises were broken because I was pregnant.

But I don’t regret it because … it’s my son and … Ivan was the father. They even planned to abort my baby but they didn’t because I had already told Ivan’s parents about my pregnancy. Ivan married us right away.

Ever since Ivan and I got married, I feel like I don’t know myself anymore. In the past, I still loved myself and I could still do everything I wanted but now, it’s different. My little respect and dignity for myself was diminished because of him.

My deep thoughts were interrupted when the heavy rain fell. The weather seems to sympathize with the killing of my heart. I don’t know but even though I’m soaking wet I can’t leave and take shelter.

After a while I felt like I could no longer read but it was still raining. Hala?

I looked up and my eyes widened at who I saw.

“Seymour …” I called to him in disbelief.

He sat next to me while holding an umbrella. His face was serious just looking ahead.

I hugged myself when I felt cold. Shit, what was I thinking and did I rain? Fortunately, Seymour supported me.

He must have noticed that I was getting cold so he turned to me. I could not read the expression on his face or even in his eyes. It’s refreshing. But, I missed him.

He brought the handle of the umbrella closer to me so I frowned. I saw her grin.

“Hold this.” He said and almost increased the coldness I felt because of the coldness of his voice.

I swallowed and held the umbrella. I was surprised when he removed his coat. He placed it in front of me and it looked like it had become a little blanket. My coldness also decreased. He picked up the umbrella and folded it when the rain stopped.

‘thank you …” I said to her and smiled slightly.

He just nodded at me and looked in front of him again. Surprisingly, he was here but I forgot that he has access to it because the guard already knows him.

“Why were you making it rain?”

I almost fell off the swing when he suddenly spoke. Surprisingly, I thought he would never shut me up again. I am ashamed of him because of what happened when we last met.

“Uhm, what …” I didn’t know what to say to him.

“Next time, don’t let it rain again. You know you can get sick easily …” he said and my lips parted when I heard his concern.

I sneezed and nodded. “No longer…”

He was silent again but this time, he was staring at me and no longer in front of him. I averted my eyes and played with my finger.

“I know what happened to you …” He said so I turned to him.

My mouth was covered so I could not speak. She stared into my eyes and I saw pity, pain and sadness in her eyes.

I was shocked when he wiped my cheek. I realized that I was crying again.

“Even though you chose her more than Roxanne and me, I still can’t help but worry about you so … every time I have free time at work I look at you far away from your house. Lately, I’ve been breathing a sigh of relief. I can already see your smile. But since you left, I’ve seen you cry again so I’m investigating what happened to you and I found out that he cheated on you again … “he wiped my tears again and I asked for a hug.

I cried even harder when he hugged me. My luck was because I have a bestfriend who never left me even though I hurt him. My luck was with Seymour.

I quietly cried as I hugged her. After a while, he let go. Smiling, he wiped away my tears and kissed me on the forehead for a moment.

“Shh … don’t cry anymore. I’m here again. I won’t let this happen to you again, okay? Stay, cupcake …”

I smiled because he called me. My Seymour was really back. I wiped away my tears.

He put his arm around me and I leaned on his shoulder. I was confused when I felt dizzy. Lately my dizziness has become more frequent. I wonder why.

Seymour apparently noticed that I was not feeling well so he went home. I mean, Roxanne and I will stay in the condo unit today. Seymour said he had already talked to Roxanne and she told me what had happened. My best friend forgave me too.

We got up from sitting on the swing. My dizziness intensified so I regained my senses. My vision was also blurring.

“CUPCAKE!”

That’s the last words I heard before everything went black …

***

Rigella’s POV

“Oh, here you go …” Roxanne said and handed me the apple she had just peeled.

I just smiled at him and ate it. I am here in the hospital now and resting. According to Roxanne, I fainted when Seymour and I were in the park and what was even more surprising there, I slept for three days.

Seymour was out earlier and he was talking to the doctor. I was nervous because I might be sick or something without knowing it.

Some time later there was a knock on the door and then entered, Seymour and the doctor. I was swallowed up because I was so nervous. Jusko, I’m not in pain, am I?

I saw Seymour’s serious look and the doctor smiling slightly. Eh? Their weird.

I couldn’t stand it anymore so I asked. “Doc, what’s wrong with me? was it serious? Can I be treated right away? I need surgery?” I asked a series of questions.

The doctor laughed at my behavior. My forehead furrowed. What’s funny about the questions I asked? Shit, this was a serious matter! Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I will die and this doctor was still laughing at me.

I frowned and averted my eyes. Annoying, why does the doctor seem so happy? Nakakaloka ah?

“Pfft … doc, what’s wrong with my friend?” Roxanne stopped laughing so I stared at her. What’s so funny ?!

I sighed and looked back at the doctor who was just smiling.