I’m Just His Wife

I just folded my arms as I stared at him and leaned on the headboard. Only now did I realize that after seven long years, only now did I see him laughing like he was really very happy. I mean not literally because he laughs when he’s with Ice but, this was the first time that he laughs because of me. Weird.

He leaned on the headboard after he laughed and smiled shaking his head in front of me. I just look seriously at the front and I don’t look at him.

Why did he behave differently when he came to me? He seems to be more concerned with me than before that he doesn’t care if he hurts me.

I”ll admit, I”m disgusted. Because I feel that after he changes his behavior, he will also return to the way he used to be. Hopefully, he wouldn’t have been kind to me if he had been like that again. I don’t want to hope anymore, I’ll be hurt and I’ll just cry again and I’m so tired.

It was as if cold water had been poured on me when I felt his hand on mine. He intertwined our fingers and kissed my hand after.

I was overwhelmed with nervousness but I still didn’t look at him. Why so? Instead of being annoyed with what he did, I still can’t move? My heartbeat pounds faster and I can also feel some butterflies in my stomach.

I close my eyes emphatically. If Ivan continues to be like this, there was a chance that I will give up on him.

My eyes widened spontaneously and I turned to look at him. My own body was betraying me. It’s his damn effect on me.

Her eyes widen as she stares at me and they speak. What the heck, Ivan? were you just tripping on me or you’re sincere with your acts? I can’t understand you!

“Promise me that you won’t ever leave me. I need you, Rigella. Me and our son needs you. I’m sorry for all of the pain you felt because of me. I regret that fucking stupid actions with all my heart . I hope, you will forgive me. I promise you, I will make it up to you … “And I felt his lips brushed in my forehead.

I felt my tears flowed again. Damn, why does he look sincere when he said that? Should I believe him … or not?

‘Don’t do your homework now. We have lots of maids to do that. Get some rest first. ‘

-Ivan

I rested deeply. I saw his note on the bedside table again. Seriously, it’s been two weeks since I started getting sick but he always leaves a note saying that I shouldn’t do housework so that I don’t get tired and get sick. It’s his OA, I just found out.

I combed my hair with my finger and leaned on the headboard of the bed. I feel dizzy again. Will I get sick again? I just cooked breakfast earlier and took Ice to school.

Ivan really should be the one to deliver Ice since he was used to that before going to work. Just in case, he had an important meeting with a foreign investor so he left early earlier. He didn’t even have breakfast anymore e.

I sat down and took my sketch pad and my art materials from the small drawer. I smiled when I saw it again. After three years, I touched it again.

Ivan forbade me to sketch before. He said I was just wasting my time sketching instead of doing housework and taking care of Ice. So according to, I never sketched for three years.

I leaned back on the headboard and opened my sketch pad. My dream wedding gown was on the first page. I smiled bitterly because I didn’t wear this dream gown of mine to my wedding. It was a rush because our parents wanted us to get married quickly so I just chose a wedding gown then.

I caressed it and sighed. There seems to be no hope for me to come true and wear this gown. Unfortunately, tsk.

I even looked at my other sketches and I couldn’t help but be amazed. Am I really the one who did all this? Very simple but beautiful. Because I’m the type of what my mood was, that’s also the mood of my dino-drawing.

I sighed and shaking my hand picked up the pencil and began to sketch. I already have a design that I have in mind ever since and that”s what I want to draw.

I woke up to someone patting my arm. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Ice already dressed as housewife and looking at me seriously.

I rolled my eyes and laid on the bedside table the sketch pad that rested on my stomach. I fell asleep drawing, tsk.

“Oh, son. was it your morning today?” I asked her.

He greeted me and pointed to the wall clock in the room. My eyes widened when I saw it was four o’clock in the afternoon. Sh1t, did I sleep that long? I haven’t even had lunch, tsk.

I was slapped on the forehead. “Uhh, sorry son. Mommy fell asleep so I didn’t pick you up. By the way, who fetched you?” I will ask.

He took a deep breath and sat on the bed. “Dad fetched me when he saw you sleeping here, mom. He said that you were tired that’s why you’re sleeping.” He replied.

My forehead frowned. Tired? E I didn’t do anything before and I just slept.

I was just shaken and mother Ice came out of the room to have a snack in the kitchen. When we got down I stopped when my head ached again. What was this, what was happening to me?

Ice held my arm. “Mom, were you okay?” He asked.

I just tried to smile and nod. We continued walking and when we got to the kitchen I couldn’t believe what I saw …

“Happy birthday, Rigella …” he said with a smile.

Despite being shocked, I smiled at him too. Unexpectedly …

Rigella’s POV

My jaw dropped as Ivan one by one pulled out of our room our suitcases which obviously contained only clothes and our belongings. Seriously, all I know was that we will only be on vacation for three days at their resort in Batangas. But why were we carrying a suitcase?

Yes, you heard it right. We were going on vacation at his family resort in Batangas, which I have never been to before. We were with our son because they have a summer break.

He just teased me and pulled my arm. He sat on the sofa and helped me sit on his lap then he wrapped his arm around my waist and leaned his chin on my shoulder.

I held his arm that was wrapped around me and then smiled at him.

It’s been a week since we got along. After he surprised me, we talked about our things and problems. He also treated me well and became very kind to me. And now, he suddenly took a vacation so that he could take a break from work and so that he could be with Ice and me.

But I’m still waiting for him to do it. To say he loves me and to … divorce Lara.

Yes, we were happy and pretty well. That’s just my problem. I talked to him about my problem but he said I’ll just wait. So here I am, waiting. Worth it because if he does that, right?

“Ivan …” I called to him.

He buried his face between my neck and shoulders. “Hm?”

I took a deep breath. “When …” When will you say that you love me and when will you also divorce Lara?

“When what?” He pulled his face away from me a bit to look at me.

I looked into his bulging eyes. When I say that, it’s as if I’m ruining the moment between the two of us and our vacation.

I tried to smile. “So … When were we leaving?” I will ask.

He smiled and pinched my nose then kissed it. “My husband was excited? Let’s wait for Ice first, because he played with his friend who was just our neighbor.”

I just nodded at him and smiled sparingly. Why do I bother with that right away? The important thing was that we were well and we were happy.