I Swear, Let Me Love You Again

LYDIA’S POV:

It was about three days later and the media had found out so the news was everywhere. Everyone was sending messages and checking up on me, meanwhile at the crack of dawn, I had taken a trip to an Island nearby and booked a small house with three bedrooms for the next three days. I had already hired securities to be by me throughout and my securities from home had also come along with me. It was spontaneous but I just needed a break as I felt extreme anxiety and disappointment. I felt a storm coming. I had only informed Arianna and Lorena about this and the two were baffled but decided to come along as well. I was surprised Ariana made such a decision but she stated that she literally ran away plus she was still staying in her family house so Andrew wasn’t breathing over her neck. I just alighted out of the car and appreciated the driver/security who opened the door for me. The cool, unpolluted air blew, giving me such a relaxing feeling. I took off my dark shades and walked into the resort I had booked. As I stepped into the luxurious resort on the island, I was immediately captivated by the tropical paradise that surrounds me. The interior is a perfect blend of island charm and modern luxury. The walls are adorned with vibrant, hand-painted murals depicting the beauty of the island’s flora and fauna. The furniture is made of rich, natural materials like bamboo and rattan, creating a warm and inviting atmosphere. I was amazed by every single thing. I stepped into the bedrooms that are like peaceful havens, each with its own unique theme inspired by the island’s natural wonders. One room features a canopy bed draped in sheer white curtains, evoking a sense of romance and tranquility. Another room showcases vibrant tropical prints and a hammock, perfect for an afternoon siesta. And the third room boasts a nautical theme, with crisp blue and white accents reminiscent of the nearby ocean. I just know we are all going to have a blast in here! “Where do I drop your bags, Ma’am?” The guard asked and I debated on which of the rooms I wanted, then picked the second one with the King sized bed. “Alright ma’am.” I appreciated it as he dropped my bags and exited out of the room. I shut the door after and I was just happy. I had totally forgotten how happy traveling around and changing environments made me. I stripped out of my clothes and tied a white towel complimentary of the resort and tied it around my chest. The bathrooms were luxurious retreats in their own right. The walls are adorned with mosaic tiles, and the sinks are carved from smooth, natural stone. The shower was so relaxing and I found myself laying on my bed about to sleep right after. The flight was short, just about fifty minutes but I still needed more rest before my girls arrived and we caught up. The sound of my phone ringing on the stand interrupted me trying to sleep so I groaned in frustration. I checked the caller ID and winced realizing it was Nathaniel calling. He had been extra protective and caring since the news of Jenny was broadcasted. That night at Liam’s wedding, instead of ruining the night by providing such the latest update, I just told Rachel not to say a word about what I had told her and I lied to Melissa and Nathaniel that I just feel so tired which I was but it was lie because that wasn’t about to stop me initially plus it was a lie by omit. I just let the phone ring before shooting him a text texting ‘I can’t talk right now.’  Then I placed my phone back on the stand. And fell asleep.

*********** HOURS LATER (NIGHT TIME): The girls had arrived and we were now seated at the restaurant near the beach, eating some delicious seafood and talking amongst each other. I just admired how the two were glowing talking about their partners, I wondered when I would ever have that. Lorena just kept speaking on how different, in a good way, Darren had been since they tied the knot. She also stated that her parents had stopped disturbing her for the wedding at least for now, and she didn’t know if she should be scared or happy. “Andrew spoke so responsibly and you know he showed my father the ring he had purchased weeks before the accident. My heart was heavy because I didn’t think he took me really seriously. Like I knew he loved him but I didn’t think he loved me that much.” Ari spoke and I smiled. “Aww, did you see the ring?” Lorena asked and she shook her head. “Have you seen it, Lydia?” I shook my head as I truly hadn’t seen it nor did he tell me anything. “You know if Andrew isn’t telling Lydia about something then he’s either nervous or feel shy about it.” Lorena pointed out and we chuckled. It was true. “Lydia, how are you and Nathaniel?” Ari wiggled her eyes suggestively and I swallowed my drink looking between her and Lorena as they both smirked waiting for me to speak. “Nothing is going on between us, alright? We are just friends.” They rolled their eyes and Lorena sucked her teeth staring at me with disappointment. “Okay, okay…at his friend’s wedding, the one for three days back. He was just the sweetest and most playful I had ever seen him plus he looked extremely handsome.” I ignored the looks from them and just continued speaking. “But he asked me a question as we danced that had me thinking and I just wanted to talk to you two and arrive at a decision.” I informed them and they gestured for me to continue. “He asked, ‘Do you have feelings for me right now?’ And I wasn’t sure on how I should feel and luckily I was saved by the end of the music. I really don’t know if I have feelings for him.” I told them and Ari exhaled, touching my shoulder. “Lorena, is it just me or was she glowing as she talked about him at least before her face contorted in confusion?” Ari began her analysis and I sat back looking between the two of them. “Yes I saw it. I feel like you do have feelings for me or the feelings have just never died but you’re just scared to admit that.” Lorena pointed out and I gave them a look that said, “Really?”