I Am The Luna

Did she just tell me to shut up and called me an idiot all in the same sentence?

I'm offended

I turn as the door shuts behind her, and I laugh in disbelief. Really?

I close the door to Mom's room, trying not to fall apart. This was supposed to be a special day, one that promises a future together, but right now it feels like tasting a fleeting dream that they both know will never be

The moment she started coughing up blood, I feel that is when it truly hit me that she's not going to get better. I'm losing her... I'm fucking losing her. She has been there for me from the start, never ever treating me differently from Linette, although we are not blood-related. She is my mother.

She always said she wished to see me settle down, scolding me for taking forever to choose a partner, and saying she wanted to see her grandchildren. I wonder what she thinks of Adriana? What would she have thought? For a fleeting moment, I wish I could introduce her, but what's the point? We aren't together.

1 walk through the halls that now feel extremely big, yet I feel closed in, tugging open a few buttons of my shirt. I feel suffocated

Stepping out into the back garden, I head down the winding path lined with large fountains and rose beds, a garden mom was proud of. I close my eyes, thinking her memories will remain in every part of this place.

I'll have to make sure I step up for Linette. We're all going to feel Mom's absence. Death is inevitable, but when it hits one. of the ones you love, that's when you really feel it. I guess it's all part of this cycle we call life, but it still hurts.

I sit down at the edge of one of the many fountains and look at the grass that sways in the breeze. The world carries on even when someone's in pain, but we don't really care about that unless we're the ones hurting because of it.

Resting my palms on the stone, I sigh, hanging my head back as I stare at the star-filled night sky. That's one of the beauties of having a pack high up in the mountains. The sky is pure....

"Beautiful view."

My heart might have skipped a beat as I recognise the voice and my eyes fall on the woman who had rendered me speechless earlier when she walked in through the door dressed in a sexy figure-hugging dress that accentuated her killer

body.

Once again, my mind seems to go blank as I stare at her. She's not wearing that dress anymore, shame really. I'm flipping ruined. She's an entire vibe and just the sight of her is enough to turn me on.

"Yeah, it is," I say, trying not to check her out as I turn away. Surprisingly she sits down beside me, even though she leaves a considerable gap stretching her long toned legs out in front of her.

We're both silent, neither knowing what to say. "As you said earlier, I too know how it feels when a loved one is sick. How are you holding up?" 

"As good as I can"

"Great" She stands up suddenly and I want to ask her to stay, but what right do I have to ask that of her? She turns away and I almost reach out to her, trying not to look at her ass

"Adriana!"

She turns and I quickly drop my hand.

"I'm not deaf," she points out, making me internally kick myself for shouting

"Yeah... I know. I uh, thanks for checking in. You didn't need to, but you did, so thank you."

"Really, you need to get off your high horse. I'm not doing you any favour. I'd have asked anyone in your position the same," she replies callously before she turns and leaves.

But you still asked, even though I hurt you.

I watch until she disappears from sight and get to my feet. Somehow that short visit gave me a strength I didn't even know

I had left in me

(END OF FLASHBACK)

A knock on the door brings me from my thoughts and I sit up. "Enter."

"Alpha, the car's ready."

"Great, I'll be right there." I stand up as the man leaves and I fix my jacket, closing the button at the front. Time to go to Valerie's pack, something that I look forward to far more than 1 should, and I know exactly why.