Holding on to you

Killian’s P. O. V

F**k!

I can’t even sleep without having the redhead witch next to me! Not sleeping in the room with her was supposed to be a punishment for her, but I’m the one who’s suffering more. Ever since that night two weeks ago, I made it my mission to only be in her bed for sex, there was no cuddling afterwards and no small talk, just sex. I knew my actions towards her might have seemed mean, but every time I close my eyes or look at her I kept seeing that f**ker with his mouth on her body.

The images kept playing over and over in my head and there wasn’t a damn thing I could do about it!

I might have gone a bit overboard that night of the party, looking at the fading bruises and the cuts that were healing, I knew I should have let myself calm down before confronting her. But, I couldn’t help it, I wanted to hurt her so badly, the desire was so strong that I couldn’t control it.

Her cries that night was the only thing that kept me from murdering somebody, and god, how I wanted to kill. I might not be able to find the f**ker, but that didn’t mean that I was giving up, the idiot has to pay for touching what isn’t his.

I turned off the shower and exited the bathroom, I expected to see Lilly still in bed but the room was empty. Her clothes were still on the floor where she left it an hour ago, but the closet door was left ajar, so I knew that she wasn’t walking the house naked.

Smiling at the image, I walked over to the closet to retrieve some clothes, I had somewhere important to be and I was already late as it is. I knew that Mik will have something to say for having to wait two hours for me.

When I finished dressing, I grabbed my phone and keys and was about to leave the room, but stopped when I saw Lilly’s laptop screen. It was opened up to a page displaying vacation beach homes. I knew she said that she wanted to take a gap year before going off to college, but we never discuss where we were going to go.

I cursed when I saw the time and quickly left the room. When I arrived at the garage where my cars are parked, I saw Mik leaning up against my Aston Martin tapping his foot in frustration.

When he saw me, the scrawl that was on his face turned into a smirk.

“F**k bro, you look like shit.”

I wanted to punch him for pointing out the obvious, not only did I looked like shit, but I felt like it as well. The fact that I let Lilly’s action affect me so much, pissed me off. I was starting to get upset with her for causing me to feel more than I wanted to feel for her.

She was getting to me and I didn’t like it, I didn’t like it one bit! I’m starting to realise that the fact that I can’t live without her was turning out to be more of a problem for me.

“Are we going to do this, or are we going to stand around and discuss our feelings like little bitches?”

Mik chuckled and I scrawled at him, I wasn’t in the mood for his sense of humour, I just wanted to get to the club and get Big Joe to sign off on the partnership deal that we were working on.

One of my father’s clients who owned a string of high-end strip clubs has been asking him for a long time to go into business with him. However, now that I’ve almost taken over the business, I’ve decided to take Big Joe up on his offer. He’s just opened a new strip club called Midnight, and he wants me to be in on the deal.

Mik and I were supposed to be meeting him, but after having to deal with my wayward little wife, we were running twenty minutes late. Lilly made is extra difficult for herself, so I had to increase her punishment, sometimes I wonder if she likes being punished.

I don’t know what it is about her that makes me want to hurt her, her tears are such a f**king turn on, and when she cries out for me to stop… f**k, that just sends me over the edge!

I love seeing my mark on her, all of her body is mine and every time I see an unmarked spot, I’m tempted to brand her. God, I love that even when I’m at my most cruel with her, she still looks at me like I’m her world. Yet, after what I saw on the camera the night of the part, I’m finding it very hard to believe her feelings are genuine, and that’s my dilemma.

“I’m not the one who kept you waiting for twenty minutes, while he unsuccessfully tried to get laid. Look, man, I know it’s none of my business, but maybe you should try listening to Lilly, you can’t believe everything you see. Hear her out, man, you just might find out it’s all a big misunderstanding.”

My frown turned into a warning glare, I wanted the idiot to know that he was swimming in dangerous waters, and to turn back while the option is still available.

“You’re right, it is none of your business, so just leave it the f**k alone and let’s get going.”

He shrugged his shoulders and tried to act like it didn’t bother him, but I could see that he was still worried, and I knew that it wasn’t for me. He was worried that I might do something that might seriously hurt Lilly, but what he didn’t know was that I’d rather cut off my own dick than hurt her like that.

“Suit yourself, I’ve called Big Joe and told him that we’d be a couple of hours late, I wasn’t sure how long you were going to spend trying to tame your girl.”

I ignored his stupid statement and nodded my head. I knew that Big Joe wasn’t too keen on lateness, and I didn’t want to start our partnership off on the wrong foot. Another problem that could damage our partnership is Big Joe’s daughter, Addison.

The girl just didn’t know how to take a hint, and to make matters worse, her father was aiming for more than a business relationship between us. When I was a kid and Addison would throw herself at me I’d never say no, she was offering and I just collected.

But as I got older, I realised that she wanted to be more than the girl I f**ked on occasions, so I cut myself off from her. I’m hoping that things have changed and she’s moved on, but just for precaution, I wanted her to know that there was only one girl I was willing to f**k for the rest of my life, and it isn’t her.

“Since we have time to kill, I’m going to tell Lilly to get dress, I want her to come with us.”

Mik raised a sceptic brow, “Are you sure it’s a good idea to take your wife to a strip joint where there will be drunk idiots looking to get laid? I mean, we all know how you get when it comes to guys hitting on your girl, I’m not so sure Big Joe would approve of you killing his customers.”

He had a point, but I didn’t want to take the chance of Addison being there and Big Joe trying to push a relationship on me. I’d much rather go in there with Lilly by my side, and kill any arrangements before they even get a chance to properly formulate.

“Look, I’m not dealing with Addy, if I don’t go in there with Lilly, she’ll be all over me, and her dad would start his talk of us becoming something more in the future. I want those papers signed, and with Lilly there, it will be done much faster.”

He knew that I was right, so I left him to go in search of my girl, I found her as she was coming out of the pool. My sister and Jessy were lounging by the pool as well, but my eyes were only for the sinful little vixen. The bikini that she chose to wear left nothing to the imagination.

However, what made it worse was that the water was glistening off of her body, causing the already see-through material to reveal more of my girl than I’d like to be on display.

Kinsley and Jessy say me coming, but Lilly was facing away, so she didn’t know that I was in the pool room until I was standing directly behind her. When my hand stroked her back she gasped, her body going stiff for a second, then she relaxed into my touch. Putting both my hands on her hips, I pulled her until her ass was pressed flat against my crotch.

I kept one hand on her hip and moved the other up her body. Moving her hair to the side, I pressed a kiss lightly on his wet skin which caused her to moan. I love the effect I have on her, whenever my hands touch her body, she can’t control the ways she moulds herself to me. Her every instinct is to please me, if there was one thing I know, it’s that her body will always want me, even if her head and heart doesn’t.

That thought should have made me feel satisfied, but it didn’t, and I was upset with myself for wanting all of her to want me… to love me.

“Killian.” She whispered breathlessly, her head falling back against my chest. Her eyes closed and she sighed contentedly, I couldn’t help the smirk that appeared on my face. My sexy little kitten.

“Baby, as much as I love seeing your body, and as sexy as you look right now, I’d prefer if the view is for my eyes only.”

I nibbled on her ear and she melted against, I had to circle my hand around her waist to keep her from falling. I chuckled, then began to draw little patterns on her flat stomach which caused her breathing to become shallow.

“Okay.”

Her reply was barely above a whisper. I was tempted to throw her over my shoulders and take her straight to bed and never let her out, but then I remembered that I didn’t have a lot of time before I had to be at the club.

I turned her around to face me, her eyes were still closed and her lips were slightly parted. I touched my lips to hers then pulled back slowly, I smiled when she opened up her eyes and I saw that dazed look in them.

“Baby, remember that meeting that I told you I was going to?” She nodded her head, the dazed look slowly leaving her face. “Well, I’ve decided to take you with me, would you like that?”

She looked surprised and I could really blame her for reacting like that. Ever since that night of the party, my behaviour towards her has been anything but welcoming or friendly. I’ve been in a shit mood and it mostly had to do with me, I didn’t understand why what she did was affecting me so much, and because I didn’t understand, I took it out on her.

“Are you… are sure? I mean, of course, I want to go with you, but it’s just that after what happened I didn’t think you’d want to take me out with you again.”

She bit the corner of her lip and looked away, guiltily. I tried not to let the fact that she felt guilty bother me, I didn’t want to analyse what that meant.

“I’m sure, but you need to get dress now, we’ve only got forty-five minutes before we have to be there.”

She smiled a genuine smile, excitement taking over, washing away her guilt. We left the pool room and went up to our room so that she could get dress and I could change out of my wet shirt and jeans.

It took about twenty minutes for her to find something that I approved of, I knew where I was taking her, and having her wear clothes that would expose her to the horny idiots, that was sure to be at the club, was not an option.

She gave me her purse and left to say goodbye to Jessy and Kinsley, I told her not to take long, as we only have twenty-five minutes to be at the club and it would sure take us twenty minutes to drive there.

I started to make my way out to the car when her purse vibrated, I don’t usually check her phone, but I decided to check who it was. I know all of the numbers she has stored on her phone, and I know everyone who she calls and who calls her. She thought that I didn’t know that her brothers call her on occasions, but I didn’t have a problem with her talking to them, so I let her have her secret.

However, the number that showed up on her phone was one that I didn’t recognise. I was curious, so I opened the text and read it, which ended my good mood.

I checked the phone to see if there were any more messages from that number, but there were no more.

With barely contained rage, I took the number down with my phone and replaced hers in her bag. I knew that the text was from that f**ker that touched her, what I wanted to know was how he got her number, and how long has he been in contact with her. But most of all, I wanted to know who gave the idiot the right to call my wife angel!

“Ready?”

She smiled sweetly at me and I took her hand, we walked out to the car with Mik waiting for us in the driver seat. I opened the passenger door for her and helped her in, but as I closed it that text kept replaying in my head.

“I’m the guy for you, Angel, you and I both know that you want something new. I’ll be waiting for you to realise what I already know… you wanna f**k me. See you soon, angel.”