His Soul & His Shame

"Come on, get up!" I put the bag on the couch and turned towards Joanna. She has her head still in the television and did not heard me at all making me sigh in annoyance.

"Joanna! I am talking to you!" I gritted out the words. Sometimes she behaves like this and sometimes I wanted to kill her for being a psychopath and ignoring me.

"Don't you think you are rushing!" Came out of her mouth making me roll my eyes. She is such a lazy bum.

"No, if we don't go now then we won't get an appointment for my hair and nails. So move your ass." I turned around to go back to my room and get ready for the salon so I can style my hair and get nails done for the evening. "I'm not talking about salon, Fay! I was talking about you and Ezra and your whole thing of giving him another chance and starting a new chapter." She looked me in the eye with a blank face and waited for my answer which I don't have because I don't know. I just love him so much that I think too much.

"I am not rushing anything with Ezra, Joanna. We talked and we decided to walk through it together." I said, sitting beside her. I know she is worried about both of us.

"Maybe but you guys are bad for each other, Fay! I just don't want any of you to get hurt, especially you." She said with a small smile.

"I know, whatever you are thinking is right but even if Ezra is bad for me, I still want him, Joanna. I just can't imagine my life without him and if he didn't show me he has changed then I will never have given him another chance." She nodded her head in understanding and got up from the couch.

"Are you not getting late, now! Let's go!" I gave her a big grin and went into my room to get changed.

Joanna and I left our apartment and went to the salon which is a fifteen minute drive from our place. I am so excited that I am literally beaming with happiness.

"Stop! You are looking like a creep with that grin which you have been sporting for an hour." Joanna scowled at me but she was hiding her smile behind it.

"Aww! Don't be a party pooper, Joe! I'm just excited for my date with Ezra, The same Ezra I was pinning on for years." I yelled, making other customers in the saloon turn towards us.

" Ugh! I shouldn't have come with you if I knew you were going to embarrass me." I smile at everyone apologetically before turning towards my friend and punching her arm playfully.

"Why don't you let me enjoy this phase, Joanna! You should be happy too, you know, for your best friend finally shifted from single to mingle." I raised my eyebrows playfully teasing her.

"Yeah! I Am happy for you but don't turn into a mushy mushy and eat my head." A hairdresser called my name, cutting our conversation in the middle. I scrunch my nose at Joanna and went towards the station she was waiting for.

The hairdresser gave me a haircut and highlighted some parts of my brown hair into dark golden blonde and for my nails I got them painted in matte black which will match with my dress and stilettos.

It took us two hours to go back to our apartment and I instantly ran to the bathroom to take a shower so I can get started as I have only two hours left for seven o'clock.

Joanna doesn't wear makeup so she doesn't know how to do someone else's too. I did all natural make up and wore the accessories Ezra sent and by 6:50 I am all ready to go.

"Uh-huh! Someone is looking hot!" Joanna's voice came from behind making me do a twirl to show her the dress and all.

"Thanks! I can feel the hotness myself." I winked at her and laughed when she rolled her eyes at me before moving into the living room.

"And! Your Romeo is already waiting for you in the living room." That made the smile wipe off my face. He is already here!

Oh my god! Ezra is here and I can't breathe!

Ugh! I am going to ruin my makeup if I sweat, But I don't know how Ezra will react seeing me in this dress. we are not just friends now! We haven't given any names yet but still it's new for both of us and I don't know how to react. Calming my nerves and taking deep breaths, I checked myself one last time in the mirror and turned around towards the door to go out.

I will just behave normally like I always behaved.

I closed the door behind me but didn't raise my head yet and I can feel the familiar gaze of Ezra trailing along my body making me dizzy with his intense gaze.

If I look up, I will see desire and adoration in his eyes and I'm dying to see those in his dark eyes but I'm still fighting my nerves.

Why am I overthinking everything!

Slowly I raised my head to see Ezra leaning against the kitchen counter casually and his eyes were on me dark and dilated.

He is wearing a button down shirt, his sleeves are folded into half and a black jeans which are fitted so snuggly to his legs that I can see his muscular thighs from here.

"Come here, Baby girl!" I checked my surroundings but Joanna was nowhere around so I took slow steps towards him and with each step the desire, love and longing for Ezra increased ten fold.

I stopped a foot away but Ezra wiped away the distance between us and took me in his arms. I could smell his intoxicating scent and I inhaled greedily. Our foreheads are touching and I'm on the brink of losing my control of not jumping Ezra

and pulling him into the bedroom to have my way with him and the way his erection is poking my stomach I know he is barely controlling himself.

"You are looking so damn beautiful, Baby girl! I promised to wait till our date but I just have to taste your lips." With that he took my lips in a toe curling kiss making me lose my control and will to hold back.

As I always say Ezra is a drug and addiction which will never be cured and I will always happily let him consume me.