His Soul & His Shame

"Finally I get to have you for myself, girlie!" Joanna said, gulping her coffee. We are in a cafe near her house having breakfast together.

She was already there in my room when I opened my eyes in the morning, waking me up by pulling me out of the bed onto the ground. Izzy was snoring loudly beside me and didn't even stirred with the way I groaned. "Yeah! I am happy too and there were a lot of surprises since I came here and I didn't even get a chance to take a breath properly." I grumbled, taking a huge gulp of coffee and stuffing my mouth with pancakes. "I noticed. So what is the reason for your sulking right now!" It's not a question from her but a statement and I forgot how good she knows me.

"I'm just thinking about Ezra and Izzy." I whispered, I don't know why I am feeling so uneasy when Ezra cleared the doubt from me when he kissed me and claimed me like an alpha male.

"What about them?" Joanna narrowed her eyes at me like I was telling an absurd story which didn't make any sense.

"I don't know, Izzy was talking in her drunken haze last night about why he didn't like her." I tell her feeling guilty like I am doing something wrong with Ezra and I shouldn't be doing anything with him. Ugh! I should be put in a museum for my stupid emotions and feelings.

"Stop your thoughts right there Fay! Izzy is nothing to Ezra and Ezra didn't feel anything about her like he feels about you so don't you dare doubt anything." She gritted out glaring at me like I kicked her puppy and I have never seen her defend Ezra like this which made me gasp in shock and surprise at the way she knows i'm talking about Ezra and the way she is defending him like he is her best friend.

"Am I missing something!" It's my turn to glare at her and narrow my eyes in suspicion.

"Yes, you are missing something, Fay. If you still think about others than you then you are going to miss Ezra again." My mouth opened like a fish out of water gasping for air. I don't know what to answer because she is giving me whiplashes with her behavior.

"When did you guys become best friends?" I asked, still stunned.

"We didn't even become friends but he changed, Fay." She sighed like preparing herself to tell me something I didn't know till now.

"What do you mean changed?" I know what she is talking about but I want to hear from someone else and let my heart and head know that he is really changed and not playing me this time.

"After you left he just changed himself into a new man and stopped hanging out with Mitchell and even helped your parents when they needed and you don't even believe when I say that he pulled me out of a situation." I don't know he did all these things but I never asked my parents and asked them to not mention Ezra in front of me.

"What is the situation you were in?" She rolled her eyes at me like I heard only one thing from her speech.

"I was being harrassed by an asshole and that asshole cornered me one night and tried to force himself on me but Ezra was there and kicked that creep so hard that he ran like a dog." And she didn't even tell me about this. "We were talking at that time, right? Even when that happened?" I asked, glaring at her so icily that she could feel my anger in waves.

"You were not ready to hear about him, Fay! How would I have upsetted you by talking about him when you left the town to avoid him." I know what she is saying is right but still it's hurt to think I was not there for my best friend when she was with me all the time.

"I know Joanna but I need to hear when my friend is in trouble and having a bad time. Please don't do that again." She stood up from her seat and snaked her arms around me in a hug making me sigh in her scent and the way she always made me feel safe and warm.

"I am sorry and I will never hide anything from now, I promise." I hugged her back.

My phone started ringing loudly in the silent cafe making us startle.

"He is not going to leave me alone" I whispered, seeing Ezra's name flashing on my phone's screen.

"I know that very well, Fay. So it's better you answer the call before he comes here." Joanna said, chuckling at my squirming.

"No need to answer the phone Joe, I am already here." I hear a very familiar deep voice which makes my insides turn mushy and my panties soaked sauntering behind me towards our table with an amused smirk seeing at my shocked and unamused expression.

"I am catching up with my bestie, Ezra. Why don't we meet in a few years? Or never!" I am just joking but seeing his heated glare made me shut my mouth and just roll my eyes at him.

"It's never going to happen, baby girl. So better prepare to have me around you all the time." He smirked, taking his seat beside me.

"Whatever, and how do you know I was here?" Maybe he has some magic or something but he knows every single thing I do and the place I go.

"I went to your house and Mrs. Moore told me that you two are here." He sighed like I am getting on his nerves but it's the other way. He is getting on my nerves and at the same time making me crave him so damn much like a hormonal teenager.

"Umm, I need to go to the restroom." I stood up from my seat and practically ran away before I made a fool out of myself.

Ezra's presence is bothering me so much that I need to take a damn breath without him looking at me like he wants to eat me up.

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I relieved my bladder and came out of the stall to wash my hands. I need to get out of the cafe so I can check myself in and not get seduced by the devil. The door to the restroom opened and I heard a click making me snap my neck towards the door to see who locked the door as no one really locks the door of the restroom.

Ezra started stuttering my way like a devil ready to sin. There is a predator gleam in his eyes which made me gulp in fear and excitement.

A shiver ran up my spine seeing him moving towards me like he could smell what I was thinking and how much I'm craving him.

I didn't move from my position waiting for his next move and I'm dying to feel his hands all over my body even if I feel guilty afterwards.

Ezra glued his front to my back making me arch into him and I can feel his excited and hardened member poking me. His hands were beside me on the counter and his hot breath reached my ear.

"I clearly told Izzy before coming here that I never looked at her that way and I want someone else like I want the air to breathe." His words made my breath hitch and my body shudder in pleasure.

Nothing is making sense other than his presence and the need between my legs. He made me like this, and he is going to take care of it.

"If you are not going to use those hands in five seconds then......" he didn't let me finish before his lips took my lips and he was ravaging my mouth like a starved man.

This kiss feels different than others but every kiss with Ezra feels different. He is showing his need and want for me in his kiss, punishing me.

"These hands are for your service, baby girl." One of his hands moved down my stomach and slowly snaked inside my sweatpant and into my panties finding my wet folds and an aching bud waiting to be played with.

He didn't need anymore words as he knew exactly what to do and he started playing with it.

"Yes...oh my god! E.. Ezra....." I can't believe that I am making all sorts of noises and moving my hips according to his fingers moving inside me, I am practically riding his fingers like I am riding his dick.

"I don't think I can wait any longer, baby girl. Please let me in." I don't think I can too. My hands frantically reached his jeans and started tugging his belt and unbuttoned his jeans in a frenzy to feel him inside me.

I don't care about anything right now other than having him and feeling him move inside me.

He hoisted me up by my hips and pulled my sweatpants and panties down and in one go he was inside me stretching me and making me full with his size like his presence.

He swallowed my scream with his mouth and his body stayed rooted not moving an inch giving me time to adjust. its been a long time since he was inside me and the pain is not like the first time but still it stung like a bitch and I need time to adjust.

"I am so sorry baby girl. I just couldn't control myself." Ezra rasped out holding himself back from moving.

"Please start moving, Ezra. I need you." I pressed my heels pulling him in and he started thrusting slowly still holding back but I don't need his slow and steady, I want his fast and rough.

"I want you to let loose Ezra." I took his mouth in a punishing kiss expressing to him what I need and what he needs to do. He increased his pace, thrusting so deep making me clench around him and I can feel the orgasm building inside me. "I.. I am going to...." I can see stars behind my eyes and my walls clenching his velvety dick and my body is shaking with the effects of the pleasure.

"I am not going to last longer, baby girl. You feel so fucking good." Ezra followed me with a grunt and a curse collapsing on me. We are both breathing so hard and still in the blissfully after affects of our orgasams and he is still inside me pulsing and twitching making my p***y walls tingle.

"Fay! Are you in there?" We both jumped apart at Joanna's voice.

Ezra slowly pulled himself out of me and tucked himself in. I jumped down from the counter and adjusted my clothes not meeting his eyes but I could feel his gaze upon me.

"You need to hide Ezra." I started ushering him towards one of the stalls but he didn't budge.

"Why do I need to hide, Fay? Let her know we are together here." Ugh! His stubborn self will never understand anything and I don't have patience to fight with him.

"Fine then!" I stomped towards the door and yanked it open angrily glaring at the handsome devil who was chuckling behind me.

"F.. Fay! E...Ezra!" Izzy's voice reached my ears, making my head whip towards her. I don't know why I feel guilty but the guilt slammed into me like I had snatched someone's boyfriend.

Oh my god! What is wrong with me? Why am I feeling like this and why is she looking at me like I am cheating on with her boyfriend when he clearly told her that he is not interested.

Am I the stupid one or these people? Who always made me feel guilty for feeling something for Ezra! Why do I need to feel like I did something wrong every time I did something with him?

I don't care if she likes him because he is my best friend and I loved him since I knew what love is and I am not going to declare what we did moments ago a mistake nor feel guilty about anything. "Fancy seeing you here, Izzy!" I Am being a bitch right now but she needs to see what she is doing, directly or indirectly.

Ezra stood beside me like a proud father making me roll my eyes at him, his male ego is shining around me.