Healing The Ruthless Alpha

Healing The 87

Sihana’s POV

Finished.

“I – What do you mean?” I pressed a hand flat against my stomach and his eyes followed the movement so I let my hand drop. “Right about what?” To draw his attention away from my suspicious movement, I continued to question him..

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“When you said “His words dragged. “When you said I would fall first.” It had been a poorly thought out joke that didn’t even evoke a ghost of a smile on his lips so why was he bringing it up now?

“Oh – That. Haha.” My laughter sounded strained in my ears. “That was just – I continued to laugh, trying to brush aside the topic but then realization struck me silent. “Ah I don’t ” I didn’t know what to say. All I could do was murmur some words as my heart pounded harder and swallowing became difficult.

“Are you saying I was right?” I chanced a glance at his face but went back to staring at the spot beside him, unable to look him in the eye.

“It depends,” he said in a soft voice, settling beside me. Suddenly, I became hyperaware of him. I felt his body heat and I shivered when his arm brushed against mine. “Did you fall first?” I stared blankly at the desk in front of me. “Because I may have fallen in love with you.” My gaze whipped to the side.

W–What?” I breathed out in surprise..

I’d had my suspicions but I didn’t expect him to blurt it out like this. Never did I imagine Cahir falling in love and admitting it so easily.

“Is it that hard to believe?” A small smile played on the side of his lips but his eyes held a faint shimmer of sadness and desperation. “We’re mates, after all.”

*B – But you told me not to fall in love with you!” I exclaimed. It wasn’t an ideal response to a love confession but it was all I could think of at that moment because his confession was shocking and out of the blue.

“Did you listen?” His finger trailed along my jaw. “Tell me you didn’t listen,” he whispered, leaning into me. his tone causing goosebumps to explode on my skin. “Say something, belle.”

“I don’t – I’m not sure.” I felt him deflate beside me but there wasn’t much I could say. The lies I’d told this period were too many and I didn’t want to say something I didn’t mean. “Maybe?” I added. Although I didn’t want to profess love as carelessly and casually as he did, I also didn’t want to hurt his feelings.

He made a point of reminding me not to fall in love with him but the only purpose his words served was to remind me of my budding affection. It wasn’t something I could fight neither was it something I wanted to deny but I still wasn’t sure how deeply those affections had progressed.

“You were right then,” he said with a humourless chuckle. “I fell first.”

“Are you upset? Tasked tentatively, my body giving up the fight not to lean against him.

“Can’t say I’m not,” he muttered. “But I hounded you not to fall in love so I’m not surprised.” Then his hand fell to my stomach.

Naturally, I froze up. His hand rubbed my stomach and I hyperventilated. Did he know? Why did he why the sudden need to touch my belly? A coincidence My mind almost exploded from all the

thoughts

in mur hand

B

“Cahir-” I said in a timid voice but he spoke almost at the same time.

“You shouldn’t hide things from me, belle.” My heart fell.

He knows.

The way he spoke – There was no way he hadn’t caught on yet.

Finished

“How – When did you figure it out?” It was only yesterday I found out so how did he figure it out so fast? Had he known all along? So many questions plagued my mind but he took his sweet time answering me,

“Today.” His reply came in a quiet, almost cold tone.

“I – I didn’t mean to hide.” Not only did I not mean to hide the pregnancy, I also didn’t want to do so. It put a lot of stress on me, stress that I could do without. “I’m sorry.” I bowed my head in share. What responsible woman hid her pregnancy from the baby’s father with as many lies as I did?

When he said nothing for a long time. I started to ramble.

“I–I got scared, you know? We only just started getting along and I know you don’t want kids so I didn’t- He cut me off.

“Scared of what?” His tone had a dangerous edge to it that made me freeze. “Of me?” His voice dipped low.

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“Of – What you would say.” I looked down at my hands. “You may have asked to to get rid of it.” I wrapped my hands around my quivering body.

“If I asked you to get rid of it, would you?” Those weren’t words I hadn’t expected but I still could not get over how awful they sounded. I’d anticipated them but I didn’t have the time to harden my heart against

them.

voice

“No,” I answered resolutely. “Don’t talk rubbish,” I spat, a bit of bitterness creeping into my words. “It’s okay if you don’t want this child but you can’t expect me to get rid of them, Cahir,” I said and if my rose a bit at the end, it was because my chest was tightening to the point of making breathing uncomfortable. “How can you even think –“I left the sentence, breathing like someone who just ran a marathon.

“I didn’t think so.” He sighed, pushing his hand into his hair then he stood.

“If it’s too much trouble for you, I’ll leave. You never have to set your eyes on them but don’t you dare- don’t even think for one second I would get rid of my baby!” A certain frenzy took over me.

“ver asked you to do that,” he muttered, looking at me with darkening eyes.

“You better not!” I shouted, jumping to a stand. The world danced around me and I stumbled. His arms wrapped around my waist before I fell.

“Is the pregnancy the reason for this sickness?” He asked, hugging me tightly. I closed my eyes my face into his chest, nodding a bit.

and buried

An onslaught of emotions ran through me and at a point, I couldn’t decide what I felt but then tiredness. set in. It swarmed into me like a tide that would have knocked me over if I wasn’t in my mate’s sturdy embrace.

B

Finished

“I’m pregnant, not dying.” I spat out the words although I felt like I was dying. It would be a difficult pregnancy, that much the high priestess had told me, but I would make it through.

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“I didn’t know you would be so insistent.” His low words washed over pushover that would abort my child to please someone

“Did you expect me to agree to get rid of my child?” I scowled at him.

1. me. Did I seem like such at

“ver asked you to do that.” He unwrapped me from his hug to look at me. “I don’t want kids but I would never ask you to do something like that,” he sounded solemn as he stared me dead in the eyes.

“SoSo what are you asking me?” My heart quivered.

“You want a family. You never told me but if it’s what you want, I plan to do my best to give you whatever you want but I don’t know He trailed off and for the first time since meeting Cahir, he looked a little lost. “You should know that if it comes to it, I would choose you over this child.”

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