Healing The Ruthless Alpha

Chapter 29

Cahir and I mated. Joined forever.

My heart stuttered for a brief second before my world turned bleak. I'd made a mistake – a terrible one.

"What is it?" Asena stretched inside me.

"Asena, what have we done?" I asked my wolf.

I looked down at my hands. They quivered as I held them out. They felt too heavy to be held out – my whole body felt too heavy for me. I felt a tightness in my chest and a sinking in my stomach.

"Sia, what is it?" Asena went alert as my mood continued to plummet.

I should have taken better care. I should have known better. Who would make the mistake of mating with someone they were not sure they wanted to be with? Why would I do something as dangerous and risky as tying myself to a man like Cahir for the rest of my life?

"What have I done?" I whispered to myself. Salty liquid entered my mouth as I whispered to myself.

"Sia –"

I burst into tears. My wolf could not calm me. No matter what she said, I could not and would not be placated.

Cahir Armani was a wicked and ruthless man, the kind most mothers prayed their daughters would never encounter. If I had a mother, she would hold me and cry along with me for the misfortune I willingly walked into. How could I let lust rule over me so fast and so hard?

In Silver Moon, I could entertain thoughts of fleeing the pack and going on to live as a solitary wolf living a modest life but now, I could never live that life. I would forever be by Cahir's side. My wolf could die if we were separated for too long. If I left, his wolf could connect to mine and find me in a few seconds.

"Sia, we agreed to give him a chance," Asena reminded me. "The goddess has a reason for pairing us together. Don't you think judging him without knowing him isn't the best idea?" She asked.

I could tell she was upset but chose to placate me. Wolves were built to love their mates. Rejecting Kade did a number on Asena and despite both us of agreeing then that he would never make a good mate for us, the rejection almost crippled her. She was tied to Perseus now and would defend him at every chance but I was the human here. My wolf was the strength but it was my place to make the decisions to ensure we lived a good life.

"Sia, he is our mate. He would never hurt us."

How could Asena forget what this man did to us just days ago? Did he not trade me for a nice deal with Silver Moon? Did he not make me watch as he bargained for my life? I knew that the only reason he mated with me now was to have a healer in his pack, and to use my body as he wished.

I shuddered to think of what would become of me in this pack. How could I survive a man like Cahir? What if he killed me? No, what if he caged me and treated me worse than Silver Moon pack? Then, I would have no escape. In Silver Moon, I had the option of leaving and though it was not much, it gave me a sort of hope – it made me believe I would find light at the end of the dark tunnel which was my stay in that pack.

I had all the time – Kamal and his friends would have let me go, I could have escaped but I allowed myself fall victim to our mate bond. The peace that surrounded me when I stepped into Alpha Blood land lulled my flight senses. I need to –

I heard a knock on the door that made me scramble out of bed. The knock came again and I looked around me, not knowing what to do.

"Why are you acting like a fugitive?" Asena asked when panic choked me. "Tell whoever it is to come in!"

"C – Come in," I said but it did not feel like my place to tell someone to come in or to go out.

"This is our mate's room! We belong here!" Asena growled at me.

A petite girl came into the room with a tray while I held the covers to my chest.

"Good afternoon, Luna." She beamed at me, her smile wide and genuine but freaky. I'd never seen anyone smile with so many teeth before. "I am Maribeth. The Alpha sent me up with your lunch."

"Oh – uh –" I looked around the room. I should say something. I had to say something but I couldn't think of what to say.

After spending my whole life catering to and serving people, I didn't know how to react when the roles were reversed. I walked toward her to take the tray but the sheets around me almost tripped me.

"Careful!" The girl exclaimed. She came into the room and put the tray on a table. "Is there anything you need? I'll be glad to help you if you need anything." Her smile was unnerving.

Why did she smile at me like that? Did she like me? Was she pretending? I became suspicious of her when she continued to smile at me. Why did she keep smiling!?

"Uh, is there –" What did ed? eded a lot of things but when she asked, I forgot about everything. "Is there a way I can get a toothbrush? And some – some clothes." Oh, Sia, who are you to order another person about! "I mean – if it's not too much trouble." The girl continued to smile

at me, nodding this time. "You can forget I asked I mean – I know – I know you are busy and don't have time –" I rambled but her smile started to dim. My mouth snapped shut with my skin reddened.

"I can never be too busy for the Luna." The girl lost her smile, replacing it with a frown. "We will all be happy to serve you in any capacity you need. It would be – It would be the greatest honour to serve you, ma'am." She twiddled her thumbs and I shuffled on my feet.

"Uh – I know you must be busy during this time. This is –" I started to ramble again but Asena cut me short.

"Shut up, you are embarrassing me." I shut up at her stern reprimand. "Ask her to get toothbrushes and clothes from our room and thank her."

"I – Please, I would like a toothbrush and clothes from my room if – if it is not too much hassle. Thank you."

"It's not!" Her smile returned in full force, forcing me to step back. "Is there anything you want in particular? A dress? Shorts and a shirt? I was among the girls that put your things away yesterday so I know my way around." She beamed at me again.

"Just – some underwear and a light dress should do."

"Alright! I will get them!" She rushed out with a skip in her step.

My back hit the bed and I spread out like a starfish. That encounter was scary when it did not have to be.

Is this how I would live from now on?

ver dreamed of anyone serving me. Having someone bring me a meal was nerve-racking and unpleasant. It made me feel like all the other girls I used to serve, girls I hated.

My stomach rumbled but I chose to take a shower first. It was already past one in the afternoon and I was only just waking. I felt I already wasted my day at this point.

I was drying my body when I heard a knock on the door again. I stepped out of the bathroom with the towel wrapped around me as I gave the person knocking permission to enter.

Maribeth brought in a handful of clothes; three dresses and a few undergarments. I picked them up while trying to hide my nervousness from the smiling girl.

"You're really pretty, Luna," the girl said to me as she helped me zip up my dress.

The material was cool and soft on my skin and the dress was quite pretty – a bit shorter than I was used to wearing but not by much.

"Thank you." The urge to duck behind my hair was strong but my hair was in a messy bun atop my head.

"The Alpha is lucky to have a woman as beautiful as you." I had nothing to say to that.

Maribeth hovered around me while I ate. Her presence made me uncomfortable but I couldn't muster the courage to tell her to leave. She helped me brush my hair and style it afterwards and when I was done, she offered to show me around the house.

"Ah – Okay." I was already restless from doing nothing all day so I followed her. Coming down the stairs, the first person I saw- the first person my eyes were drawn to – was my mate. Asena purred at the sight of him.