Find Me Alastar

“Hmm.” She winks deviously as she shovels way too much salad into her mouth.

I chew my food as I watch her. “Alastar came over this morning.”

She frowns. “What?”

I nod. “This morning, when Ness was going to work… she found him asleep sitting next to the door.”

She frowns into her Coke. “Why?”

I shrug. “I think he rang me from there last night and fell asleep.”

She shakes her head in confusion. “Hang on. When did he ring you?”

I widen my eyes. “Oh, I forgot to tell you. He rang me at two in the morning.”

“What did he say?”

I shrug. “Nothing really. He just asked if I was alright and if I needed to go to the hospital.”

“Why in the hell would you need to go to the hospital? I’m fucking confused.”

“Remember I said I was sick so I had to leave last night.” “How does that equate to you needing to go

to the hospital?” She frowns.

“Beats me.”

She shovels her food into her mouth. “What else did he say?”

“Well, when he rang me he was all silent on the phone and I think he was waiting for me to ask him to

come over.”

She shakes her head in disgust. “Fucking booty call. What a twat.”

I nod. “I know.”

“Then what?”

“This morning Ness found him. When I heard his accent, he took off down the stairs as if embarrassed

and I chased him.”

She looks at me deadpan. “Why would you chase him?”

“I don’t know, but I did and then he was all I miss you and we should talk about it and go out for

dinner.”

She rolls her eyes. “Ugh. Fuck, this guy pisses me off.”

I nod and smile broadly.

Her shoulders slump. “You’re going to go aren’t you?”

I shake my head proudly. “Nope.”

Her disbelieving eyes hold mine.

“I told him to fuck off, actually.”

She smirks. “If you told him to fuck off there is no way you would be so frigging happy.”

I smile. “I don’t know. I feel okay. I think I just needed some acknowledgement from him that he

regretted being a dick.”

She shakes her head. “He was more than a dick.”

“I know.” I smile sadly. “I would have loved to go out to dinner with him to hear what he had to say,

though.”

Her eyes hold mine as she thinks.

“But I’m not,” I add.

“Good.” She shovels more food. “Don’t go there. If he breaks you once then that’s his fault. If he

breaks you twice then it’s on you.”

I nod as I think. “I wish things were different I know we could have been really good together.”

“Yeah, well… He’s a fucktard. Stay the hell away from him.”

Two hours later, we are in shopping hell. “So, what is the look you are going for?” I ask Brielle.

“Hmm.” She narrows her eyes in thought. “This woman is not my nanny and is so hot that I need to

have passionate sex with her all night.”

I look at her flatly. “Honestly?”

She shakes her head is disgust. “I should never have watched him do that in his bathroom. I can’t stop

thinking about it. It’s obscene the thoughts I am having around the dinner table when the kids are there.”

“Maybe you should just shag Thomas? It would put a few of your fires out, so to speak?”

“Hmm.”

“Then you could stop imagining being on your knees and giving your boss head under the dinner

table.”

She smiles broadly. “How do you know that’s what I’m thinking?”

I raise my eyebrows, I’ve got her. I know how that dirty mind of hers works.

She shakes her head as she flicks through the racks of clothes. “Who am I kidding, that’s totally what

I’m thinking about,” she sighs.

I stand and look at myself in the bathroom mirror at the club. I have made an extra effort into how I look

tonight, and I feel excited and fresh in my new threads. I am wearing a tight, strapless, magenta dress with

strappy gold heels to compliment the look. I’m going for sexy and, hopefully, fun. I’m feeling more myself

at Club Alto with my two roommates. Brielle curled my hair with hot rollers this afternoon and I have

smoky eyes while my lips are glossed to the maximum. We even went all out and bought new sexy lace

underwear to match our dresses. Brielle ended up buying a strapless black number, and I told her that if

Mr. Masters can resist her in that, he’s definitely batting for the other team.

Me, however… I have a different mission. I’m going to have fun. Alastar has been on my mind but I

am keeping my thoughts as far away from him as possible. He has rung me three times today and, although

I haven’t answered his calls, I have been excited each time to see his name light up my screen.

If only things were different.