Chapter 175: Can You Live With That?
“So, what’s going on between you and my uncle anyway? I want to know exactly what’s been going on these days,” he said, “Don’t you think that the two of you made a major decision way too hastily? What’s wrong with you? You’re parents to a baby boy now! You have to be more responsible, don’t you think?”
Scarlett turned her head towards him and said dryly, “You should talk to your uncle about that. He is the one who asked for a divorce. Why are you coming out here interrogating me? The one you want to be asking all these questions is Francis.”
“Well, I really want to ask him about it. But considering the good relationship I have with you, I wanted to talk to you first. Just tell me, what exactly is going on? My poor young cousin has been crying all these days, don’t you feel sorry for him?” Chuck glanced at her and said unkindly.
Scarlett instantly asked, “Have you seen Carlos?”
“Of course. Otherwise, how was I supposed to have known what has happened between you two? You started being so reckless ever since you got with Francis….”
“What do you mean by that? You don’t know what happened, so you’d better stay out of this and stop accusing me of no reason.”
“Yeah, I really don’t know, but all I know is that my uncle loves you very much,” Chuck said as he gripped the steering wheel; the sound of the horn was deafening to Scarlett.
“We are adults now. I don’t need you to question me like that.” She said angrily.
Chuck snorted, “If not for the sake of our relationship, why do you think I am doing this? I’m not a nosy man. I don’t care about your personal affairs all that much.”
Scarlett said, “Oh? Then why don’t you just be who you are? Please leave us alone. It’s none of your business. Our personal matters have nothing to do with you.”
“Scarlett, I think you are not aware of the seriousness of this problem,” Chuck yelled out angrily.
Scarlett ironed the wrinkles of her trousers by hand and looked down at her lap, “Yeah, it’s pretty serious.”
“You and my uncle obviously don’t get along well from time to time, but marriages require effort. You can’t just run away. Don’t you think it’s hasty for the two of you to file for divorce just because you hit a couple of speed bumps in the road?”
Chuck went on. “Now, you two have deep problems in your relationship, and I don’t want to blame either of you. But have you thought about your son? He’s so young. Whoever my uncle marries, Carlos will call that woman his mother, not you. Can you live with that?”
Scarlett’s fingers trembled slightly, and she closed her lips and said nothing.
“I know you hesitated when you decided to marry my uncle. But I know you well, and you are not the kind of girl who would give everything up just to be with and please a man. But my uncle has done well enough, you’re the one struggling. If you and Francis don’t love each other anymore, I won’t say anything to you. But you gotta ask yourself, are you two really so disgusted with each other that you can’t stand each other anymore? Not even for your son?”
Scarlett was stunned. “Wow, I had no idea you had such a knack for giving speeches.”
“The two of you are out of your minds. I really can’t figure out why you two want a divorce because you clearly still love each other.” Chuck said directly.
“Chuck, he is the one who asked for a divorce. And I did something wrong that made him angry. As the person who was in the wrong, I really have no right to plead for forgiveness… we’re both stubborn people, Chuck. We won’t change who we are for love.” Scarlett said
“If one day…I mean… if… if my love for him wavered a bit….” Scarlett struggled to find the right words for what she was thinking right then, “I just know that I can’t make him happy. If we get back together, he’ll just spend the rest of his life angry with me about one thing or another. I’m just not sure that I want to stay and keep asking him for his forgiveness.”
Tears began streaming from the corners of his eyes. She turned to look at him and forced a smile on her face.
“Besides, I’m also not sure that he will forgive me this time…like he did so many times before.” She added, recognizing the gravity of the situation.
But in truth, Scarlett knew very well that no matter how angry she managed to make Francis, as long as she apologized or admitted her mistakes, he would forgive her.
But she was 23 years old now: an adult. This was definitely not the way adults dealt with problems.
It was like encountering a hedgehog. When you first saw it, you thought it was chubby and cute, so even though its thorns would hurt you sometimes, you would still love it– because your love for it could offset the pain you got from it. But one day, you might think that the immense pain the thorns caused couldn’t redeem its other merits. Would you still think it was cute? Would you want to hold it again? The answer is probably “no.” You would only focus on the pain it gave you, and all you would want is to stay away from it.
It was the same case when it came to Scarlett and Francis’s relationship.
It’s a fallacy to think that love can resolve all contradictions. It’s not wise to give love too much weight because love itself can’t really take that much. Love needs trust, duty, and reliability to thrive.
Chuck was, like other men, immature to the core. He could never understand a woman– let alone a woman like Scarlett, whose psyche had been shaped by straitened circumstances through her childhood and early adulthood. He had no hope of persuading her to change her mind.