FIFTY-FIVE
I’m on my way home from the office. I left early earlier and ignored Lauren. I didn’t even have breakfast and even though she called me I didn’t talk to her. I am not mad at her, but I want to distance myself because that is the right thing. I forgot she has amnesia and can’t remember.
I’m disgusted with myself. All this wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t let her go then. She would not have had an accident and would not have lost her memory. But I’m more annoyed with her hero boyfriend. He shouldn’t be in the scene anymore but now he’s even more interrupted.
He didn’t do anything else but mock and insult me. He’s a man, but if Carmona and I can compare to the past. I was hurt by what Lauren said last night about her and Hendrick. Even though I knew she was right, I still couldn’t help but be affected. I love her and I wanted us to go back to normal.
Even knowing that there is no one to blame but me because of my negligence, I still can’t help it. I want her back. I want her to be my wife, and I miss her every goddamn second. But what can I do? Nothing. All I need to do is to wait.
Wait for her memories to come back to make sure if she really loved me or if what Hendrick said was true that he just used me.
I parked my car and took a deep breath before getting off. As soon as I entered, I was immediately greeted by Lauren. But like this morning, I didn’t pay attention to her either.
“Hubby, I’ve prepared dinner.”
“I’ve eaten,” I said and went directly into the room. I just dressed casually and took the keys to the sports car.
“Are you leaving?”
“Obviously.” But she blocked the door.
“Hubby. Are you mad?” Her eyes are red. There is also a tear on its side. “Sorry about last night.”
“Why, do I have a right to get angry?” I ask. “If you don’t have anything to say, go away, my woman waits for me and maybe she will leave.”
“Woman?”
“Hmph, I am a man and I need to release my lust. And I need someone who can please me.”
“But—-” My cellphone rang and when I looked it was just an alarm. Reminding me about my dentist’s schedule tomorrow.
“Move, my woman is waiting.” Then pretended to answer a call. “Yes, babe, I’m coming. Wait for me and I have a lot ready to release today.”
But Lauren didn’t move. She just stayed at the front door.
“Oh fuck, stop moaning and I might get out. Fine, I’m coming.” And as if I hung up and put the cell phone in my pocket. “Do you need anything else? Maybe you can leave so I can leave too.”
“Hubby.” But Lauren hugged me. Oh fuck, why does she always hug me when I’m upset. “I am sorry about last night. Please don’t leave.”
“Someone is waiting for me.”
“I need you here. I don’t have anyone with me. I’m sorry hubby, I don’t want to be rude last night.”
“Call your boyfriend and go with him.”
“Hubby.”
“You always believe in him totally. Well, who am I to you? I am just a husband on paper. So why would you believe me, right?”
“Hubby, it’s not like that.”
“Stop explaining. Move and I’ll leave and don’t wait for me. I have to go home in the morning. Call your boyfriend and let him pick you up. Stay with him the whole night, no problem.”
“Hubby, I don’t want to, I want you with me. I’m really sorry. I believe that you didn’t do it before and I believe that you can’t hurt. All I’m saying is don’t make Hendrick hot, because he’s not doing anything bad. Sorry, if I said it a little rudely.” She buried her head in my chest.
I smell her hair. Fuck, don’t give up Dwayne Dale and your wife didn’t remember you.
“Hubby, I’m sorry.” I didn’t answer. “Hubby.” I heard her even sobs.
“Fine.” She immediately looked up and smiled. Oh fuck. I really can’t stand her.
“You’re not angry anymore, hubby?”
“Still angry. But I’m not leaving.”#
“Okay.” She said sadly.
“So you have to recover.”
“How?”
“I’m hungry because I haven’t eaten since this morning.”
“What?”
“I said I am hungry because I did not eat since morning.”
“Oh my God!” She slapped her forehead and glared at me. “You starve yourself?” she asked with annoyance.
“Because I had no appetite until I forgot to eat.” But she just rolled her eyes at me. “Oh, now you’re the one who’s mad at me.”
“No, I am not angry. Because I am very angry.”
“Just feed me.”
“Let’s go.” Lauren holds my hands. Before I could answer, she pulled me out of the room. I just followed her while he pulled my hand. I miss this. I am the only one she takes care of and serves. I miss how sweet she is. Oh fuck, why am I still consuming myself with that nonsense? Lauren is here with me and I am freer to do what I want to do with her.
“Sit.” She ordered and then took care of me. “You know hubby, I was very sad when you left earlier and you didn’t pay attention to me or talk to me. This oh eat well.” She put a lot of food in front of me.
“Thanks.”
“Also, hubby, you shouldn’t starve yourself. Even if we are angry and you don’t want to eat the food, you should eat outside. Because you might get sick.”
“Yes.” I started while my husband was facing me. I was laughing so hard because she was watching over me.
“Delicious?”
“Yes, as good as your lips.” I see her face turn red.
“Stop it.”
“Just stating the fact.”
“Hubby.”
“Hmm?”
“Can I ask a favor?” I put down the spoon. Don’t tell me again about——– “Don’t worry it’s not about Hendrick.” It’s good.
I picked up the spoon and ate again.
“Spill it.”
“I would like to visit aunt Laura. Now that aunt Mona is gone, I wanted to know how she is. I called her last night and I think she’s not ok.” I put down the spoon I was holding again. Hearing about Carmona makes me sad. I drank water and leaned back.
“When do you want to go?”
“You, when you’re not busy.”
“Tomorrow. Is it OK?”
“All right.” I gave her a smile. “Hubby are you ok?”
“Yeah. I was just thinking about Carmona. I can’t accept that that happened to her.”
“You think more about her than about yourself. Hubby, you are the suspect, remember?”
“I’m not afraid because I know I’m innocent. Besides, I know Dylan won’t let me down. But I want justice for her. I want to pay whoever made her then. The real criminal.”
“I believe you, hubby.”
“Huh?”
“I believe you are innocent. I feel that. And I hope whoever did that to her then goes to jail for life. She doesn’t feel sorry for Aunt Mona’s situation anymore, and the annoying thing is that he chose to focus on you. I hope he rots in jail.”
“Do you believe that I am innocent?”
“Of course, in the short time I was with you, I knew you were innocent. I feel it hubby.” I smile at her. I don’t need to stress myself. As long as I have it, I will fight the way I know how to win her heart back.