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Chapter 100: let's do it

It's so uncomfortable to stay on the bed with Andre' his big thigh is leaning on me so is his heavy arm.

His alcoholic scent reeks to the whole room. I can't really sleep. I tried pushing him away but again and

again his arm chained me. What if I just let him have what he wants will he let me go? It's nothing

important to me right now, I won't be losing anything anymore. Besides I haven't had that for a long

time. i can sleep to any guy sooner or later. It won't matter even though I'm not in love. Now I'm beside

Andre' it made me curious how would it feel to do it with him.

I started by poking his face to wake him up. Now im facing his direction and try to feel his body. He tried

to shove my hand. I disturb him from sleeping.

"What do you want this time?" He sound annoyed already.

"I can't sleep." I have no idea how to start this. I'm so ashamed of my self I'm doing this with this man.

He finally confronted me. "Try closing your eyes and stop moving." He said impatiently.

I don't know how i said my next line but i said it. "Kiss me!" Andre didn't responded right away he is

possibly in disbelief why I said that.

"What did you say?" He asked again.

"I said kiss me until I go to sleep." I tried to feel his face and locate his lips. He found mine first before I

find his. His breath is so warm. He taste like alcohol, I can't see him but I can feel his stares in the dark.

I used my free hand to explore his chest down the lower part of his torso. He is so fit, no wonder a lot of

girls are chasing him. He kissed me passionately and he answered my touched equally. I got up to

remove the upper portion of my pajama so he can freely access it. Then I went next to unbutton his

pants. His hand stop me for the reason I don't know. What is he hiding over there.

"Stop." He ordered me.

"Why? Don't you want it?" I asked confused.

"Of course I do especially with you but not now." He answered.

I feel frustrated with his answer. He tricked me to be with him then he doesn't want to actually do it.

Bullshit, does he really want to wait until mariage to do this with me seriously. I don't even want yo

marry him.

"I'm so confused, from the beginning you were leading me on this moment then you're saying you don't

want it?"

He tried to explain it to me while slowly lead me back to bed to cuddle. "Of course I want to do it with

you, even on day 1 when I just met you but now I'm drunk. I don't know with other guys but I'm don't get

a hard on when I'm drunk. I can't do it right now. I'm sorry!" He apologized be kissing me lightly around

me face. I'm so embarassed of myself. Just when I finally give in to Andre then he can't get a hard on.

This feels like shit. I'm so frustrated kick him hard on his leg.

"Im sorry!" He apologized again.

"Don't even touch me." I left him so get a more comfortable space at the couch.