It's for the best
It looks infected. I look down at my body, checking every inch. Between my legs feels sore and rash like. My wolf whimpers at what "He" did to us. A memory flashes in my mind of That beast grunting on top of me and a disgusting shiver rolls over my body. Tears spring to my eyes. Aunt laila taught me about mating. She also said it should inly hurt for a moment before you feel your souls intertwine. I feel less whole then i did before he did "it".
I thought the Alpha said he wouldnt touch me. Sobs rack my body. What do I do now. I've always wanted to wait for my mate. What if this is all the Goddess had planned for me. If so i don't want it.
I get in the shower and begin to scrub my skin raw. I don't understand why but I feel dirty. So so dirty. Lilly cries with me as our tears mix with the spray of the water. Our mate will never want us now. They will never save us now.
As I step out of the shower and wrap my arms around my shivering body. I stand here frozen. This is my reality now. Mates with a monster. The sound of my bedroom door crashing open and closed. Causes me to jump. Is he back? Maybe he'll just finish me now like the Alpha did mother. I'd rather it be before children.
I scream as the bathrrom door slams open. I look up and tears once again fill my eyes. She doesnt say anything but grabs my towel hanging on the rack and wraps is around me securely. "Why are you standing here. Come on lets get you dressed, your freezing." Ana leads me to my bed and quickly grabs some close. "I'm sorry, I thought you were "him" and i couldn't move.
Ana hands me a sun dress and begins helping me dress. Once I'm covered she sits next to me. "Lex what happened and why did you think i was the Alpha." She has concern in her eyes and I can't help the sob that escapes me. "Not the Alpha, Harris." I try to look at her as the tears blut my vision. "He...he...and my down there...my neck Ana." I son out. Ana turns my head slightly andnher eyes widen. She grabs me and hold me in a tight hug.
"We have to tell someone Lex. Maybe my dad I don't knwo someone. He can't get away with this
It's against our laws!" My best friend is now shake in my arms with rage. "Ana the Alpha gave me to him. I'm to be his chosen mate on my next birthday." Ana gasps. Just then my door flies open revealing a seething Snid.
His eyes are a golden Brown mixed with black. "I'm going to kill them!" His wold growls. Barely in control Sinead paces my room. Ana quickly leaves my side and goes to my brother. She runs her hands up his arms calming him down instantly. "Are you guys?" I ask excited but sad. They both smile ate sadly before nodding. "That's why outside of checking on you after the weird link last night. I wanted to tell you." Ana whispers. I get up and limp to them. I squeeze them both in a tight hug.
"This is awesome you guys." I smile weakly. I am very happy for them but so heart broken for lilly and I. We'll never have this. Ana had her first shift two weeks ago on a birhtday trip to see her grandparents. I think her dad knew she'd find her mate and just wanted one last little girl moment with his baby.
"Seriously Lex, I'll kill them both and anyone who follows those sick bastards." My brother all but growls. I smile because I know he would but he won't have to. "I'm gonna be ok, I promise. I just need time alone." They both nod unsure before they leave my room.
I lay in my bed, unable to sleep until night falls. Then I slip from my bed and pack a bag. I wont risk my brothers, Ana, Ilad or MY mother's pack. I leave the house and run full speed to the borders. Once there I just keep running. Ill go as far as I can until my body gives up. At least they will be safe. I hope.