Claiming her babies

Monica’s POV

“Here is your ice cream honey” Nicholas whispered in my ears as I stood, watching the sea and kids playing. We weren’t done with our honeymoon and have only spent four days here and yet it looks like we haven’t even done anything.

“Thank you,” I said as I collected the ice cream from him, smiling happily. We both held hands as the beach breeze blew past us. “I would want Mason and Macy to come here with us one day”, I said turning again to Nicholas whose gaze was on the sea.

“Yes, this would be a great place for them. They could build sand castles and also try to swim. I thought about it too yesterday” Nicholas responded, his gaze now solely on me.

“maybe when they are about five or six years old,” I said, imagining how the kids would look when they grow much younger.

Nicholas walked behind me as he hugged me from behind “How about we talk less of the kids and talk more of eating some of those sweet cream between your legs” Nicholas whispered in my ears, sending chills down my spine as images of yesterday filled my head.

I struggled out of his hold and turned to look at him, his eyes already saturated with desire “Stop looking at me that way and behave yourself, kids are around”

“How am I looking at you?” He asked, his eyebrows slightly raised.

“Like you want to eat me,” I said.

“You bet I do” he agreed, holding me by the waist again and trying to kiss me but I turned my face away.

“Nicholas we are outside,” I said, conscious of some innocent and curious eyes staring at me and Nicholas.

There were still other parents and couples walking about but no one was kissing and I was too shy to do it, especially in front of kids besides, it isn’t appropriate.

“Then let’s go somewhere else,” Nicholas said, grinning with a hint of mischievous smirk.

“I’ve said this before and I’m going to repeat it, I don’t want any more kids Nicholas. The ones I have tore my vagina and I’m not ready for that kind of experience again. I’m taking a break”

“I’ve heard you, honey. I understand you perfectly” Nicholas said.

“I don’t think you do. You seem very active these days and I’m scared you might get me pregnant if we aren’t careful”

I could see Nicholas frown deeply “Are you scared of getting pregnant or you just don’t want to have a baby with me” I fell speechless as I stared at Nicholas.

“What?” I said, stunned.

“Yes because you’re always talking about not wanting to get pregnant because you aren’t ready to have a child but you seem to forget that Mason and Macy are Ethan’s kids and I don’t have a child of my own,” Nicholas said, his voice sharp

“Nicholas calm down. People are watching. Let’s talk about this in_”

“Why? Why can’t we discuss this here?” Nicholas yelled, drawing the attention of some kids on us as their eyes stared at us, some in fear others in shock.

Feeling embarrassed, hurt, and disappointed, I walked away, leaving Nicholas standing alone. “Honey” he whispered as I walked past him but I didn’t stop but just continued walking towards the hotel, intending to hide myself in the four corners of the room.

Tears gathered in my eyes as I increased my pace. I hate it when someone I love is yelling at me and refusing to hear me out. It was one of the reasons I was always scared of speaking with Ethan. I couldn’t tell him what I wanted or share how I feel with him because of his reaction.

I stormed into the room and just when I was about to lock the door with the key, Nicholas placed his leg between the door and the wall “Please honey let’s talk. I’m sorry I yelled” he uttered but I just didn’t want to look at him.

I turned away, moving from the door as I walked to our bed and crashed on it. “Honey please can we talk” I didn’t respond as I turned my back and faced the wall in front of me, preventing myself from looking at him

“Look I’m sorry about what I said. It’s just sometimes I feel insecure about the kids”, he confessed, his voice low and calm.

“Then why haven’t you said anything all the while? You didn’t say anything to me and you suddenly air out your view in a public place, with adults and kids’ eyes on us” I say, turning to him with tears gathering in my eyes “You didn’t even want to listen to me” I said, finally allowing a tear to crawl down my left cheek

Nicholas’s eyes widened as he stared at me “Hey honey I’m sorry. I was just angry. Please don’t cry” he said, walking towards me and taking my hands in his as he knelt in front of me on the ground.

“I’m sorry about what I said. I’m always just very conscious about the twins. They aren’t mine and if something happens in the future then I might lose them and lose you too” he said, sadness laced in his voice

“There’s nothing to be scared about Nicholas. We’re happy and together. You will not lose me. I’m always talking about not getting pregnant again because I almost lost my life while giving birth to the twins and I don’t want to experience that anytime soon. I just want to enjoy myself with you and be there for the twins. I’m not ready for another kid at least, not for now” I explained, trying to let him know what I think and how I feel.

“I know and I’m sorry. I was just being childish. I just wanted to have a child of my own with you but it doesn’t matter anymore, I’m okay as far as I’m with you” Nicholas said apologetically

“Mason and Macy are your kids, honey. You gave them their names and you’re their father. You were there when they came into this world so don’t ever feel insecure around them. Don’t think of anything that might happen. They are yours and they will bear your last name. I and the kids belong to you and no one else, not even Ethan ” I said, reminding him of his place in my life and that of the kids.

“Okay, Mrs Sterling so how about we go back to the beach and enjoy the view” he said placing small kisses on my neck while I giggled.

“All right,” I said, grinning from ear to ear.