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The good mother
Chapter 90 The good mother
DESIRE’S HOME, LOS ANGELES.
Desire handed Chloe a full glass of smoothie that she had prepared to welcome her. “I am so glad you finally decided to leave the confines of your comfort zone. You look really better now.”
Chloe smiled shyly as she took a sip of her drink. “I didn’t think Leo would act so kind towards me.”
Rolling her eyes in annoyance, Desire flicked her tongue. It’s obvious Leo just wants whatever it takes to get rid of her goddaughter. He definitely would have been glad at the news. “I am sure he is doing all of this to get you off his hands.”
“Come on, godmother. Even if Leo doesn’t really love me, you know he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. I should have just listened to you and not go ahead with the marriage. Those few days that I had to myself gave me the chance to reflect on everything I have been up to with myself. I practically have nothing to be proud of. My design career seem like it would go really well if I can just push myself a little bit. I need to really focus on myself.”
Desire smiled proudly. “Did you have to get pregnant before getting to see better?”
She laughed. “Did you have to be so blunt?”
“I just couldn’t help it. I’m so glad you are getting back your color. You looked so pale, that I was worried you won’t last a day.”
“Thank you for keeping this under the wraps, godmother. It gives me a clear mind to think. Having my mother breath down my neck would have sent me to the edge.”
“What do you plan to do now?”
“What are you talking about?”
“Do you think you want to stay in a home with a man that isn’t your child’s father? I know you really love Leo, my baby but you need to know that you deserve better. Now that you are expecting, you should be more concerned about yourself and unborn child.”
“Are you suggesting I end it with Leo?”
“What else do you intend to do then?”
Chloe adjusted herself on the couch to turn to her godmother. “Do we have to deal with this now? Everything looks just fine at the moment. My mother would have my head if I end this relationship with Leo.”
“Can you stop thinking about Anna for once? That woman is living her best life at your expense. She is my best friend and your mother, but I really can’t have her take charge of your life. You have done your very best to be a good child to your mother, it’s her turn to understand that you deserve to be happy. I never liked the idea of this marriage in the first place.”
“Calm down, godmother. Leo might want to adopt the child.”
Desire put down her glass on the center table and held her hand. “Baby, I admit that Leo is an amazing person. But he won’t love you right, not because he hates you but because his heart isn’t with you. You deserve to be loved, Chloe. You deserve someone who would appreciate your essence and practically think about you all the time. Your success and welfare would be on his mind. That is what love is. I’m sure you are well aware of how supportive my husband is. He has been that way since we got married. You just need to believe in yourself.”
She looked down at her fingers, “I don’t know if I have the courage to stand on my own. I have never had to make decisions for myself in my twenty-three years of living, it’s either my parents are doing that or you are. How do I move from here? I don’t want to end up alone.”
“Baby, you are a beautiful woman. An amazing and loving soul at that. I have never met someone so reliable and dutiful like you are. I’m sorry that you had to be subjected to a life where you keep doubting yourself. You are a wonderful interior designer, everyone wants to know who worked on my store. And I couldn’t be more prouder to let them know it’s all you, my admirable goddaughter. There is a need for you to practice self love and self appreciation, baby. You don’t need validation from anyone to consider yourself as valuable. You would do great things, Chloe. You just need to give yourself a breathing space.”
“How about my parents shares with Robin Motors?”
“Can you quit acting silly? Their shares is well intact and your parents don’t need to worry about their finances if they spend well. Ana is just an awful spender as it is. Whatever, it still doesn’t concern you. That shouldn’t determine your future. I can bet it with you that being good friends with Leo is best. I am sure he would be a great confidant and supporter. You don’t need him to be your husband to have his attention. He would do that in the least. All you need to do is trust yourself.”
Chloe exhaled leaning into the couch. She had tried hard to think of where they would go from here. She didn’t want to be a bother to Leo in the first place, however the fear of what would become of her if she ends things with him bothered her. But her godmother is probably right, it’s best to do the right thing when there is still time now. She envies Darby so much, despite having a child she holds it down brilliantly. She and Leo are obviously not meant to be. The past month has been the most depressive one she has experienced. Keeping up with such inconvenience would only hurt both parties more.
She and Leo deserve better with their partners than having to manage with each other. Chloe had thought it would be easy to make Leo fall in love now that they are married but the pregnancy is probably a sign that they aren’t meant to be at all. And it shouldn’t be forced.
Sighing she shrugged gently, “I don’t know how I will be able to get over this, godmother. But I will really like to try and be a better version of myself. And if I must do this, I need strength and your help. I can’t do this alone.”
Desire grinned from ear to ear. “I swore on the day of your birth that I would stick to your side like glue. I have no plans to quit that promise now. I’m going to stand by you till the very end, honey. Just trust me on this.”
“Thank you so much, godmother. I don’t know what I would have done without you. It’s one thing I am grateful to my mum for, at least she gave me the opportunity to be with you when she couldn’t. I love you so very much.”
“I love you too, baby. And I will always be here with you. Believe me.”
The both of them hugged tightly laughing and crying all together. Desire was the most happiest, she had always wished for the time Chloe would eventually learn to see herself in a different light. The time finally came and she feels grateful to experience it.