Chapter 94
Chapter 94
It terrified me knowing that deep down he felt like he wouldn’t make it .
I saw him fighting .
Even at night , he’d wake up and hold me tight , his heart thundering as the darkness surged .
I felt him weaken as he repeatedly hurt himself to contain the threat he may become .
The emotions in his kiss terrified me .
It told me how much he loved me , how much he wanted to be with me , yet the fear that he’ll lose me ….
” So … tell me , what colour I should wear tomorrow ?
” I asked , looking up into those gorgeous cerulean eyes that I loved as a new song began playing .
” Hmm ….
I actually have something for you .
” He said smiling softly His eyes sparkled as he caressed my cheek before cupping my chin .
” I hope you like it ” ” Ooo an outfit … I do like it ! Even if I haven’t seen it ! ” I said kissing his thumb that was rubbing my bottom lip He smiled in amusement before his gaze fell to my lips as he licked his own lush ones .
I wrapped my mouth around his thumb , taking it fully into my mouth , letting my tongue stroke it as I sucked on i t for a moment , my eyes watching him seductively , my core throbbing with a need only he could satiate .
” Fuck love .
” He growled huskily , pulling me close and kissing me hard .
This was the life .
LIAM It was much later , everyone had eaten and drunk a lot .
I had gone easy on the drinks , having two and that’s it .
With the darkness looking for any chance to seep out , I needed to be in my right fucking mind .
We were seated at a table ; Zack , Taylor , Damon , Raven and I playing spin the bottle .
A game that Taylor insisted we play .
” Ok ok , how old were you Zack when you lost your virginity ? ” Taylor asked , smiling goofily .
The dude sure was drunk .
” Thirteen .
” Zack said , making Taylor pout .
” That’s early ! ” ” You asked , babe .
” Zack replied , kissing him hard .
Taylor pulled him close , although there wasn’t much space left between them .
The rest of us exchanged looks as Raven giggled , watching them .
” How old are you ? ” I asked her , standing u p .
Her reply was only to whistle and giggle again .
Damon chuckled .
” Go home , guys .
” He teased .
The three of us went over to the side .
The party was still going strong , and I knew it would continue for another few hours .
” Aunty seems happier lately .
” Raven said , looking over at Monica , who was now sitting with Mom and Dad as Mom hugged her .
” Yeah , I think having more people around her has really helped . ” Damon said guiltily .
I knew he was probably feeling awful that he had to leave her often .
” You have work , don’t feel bad , no one realised we could have done more … I’m sure we can make sure Aunty always has someone around her .
” I said , frowning thoughtfully .
” She’s aware that Dad isn’t here … But she’s coping .
, ” Damon whispered , his eyes on his mother .
” Yeah , losing a mate isn’t easy .
” Raven said quietly .
All eyes were on Aunty Monica , but I won’t deny that we were all thinking of our own situation … I realised Damon only had his mother … and Raven … she only had us … Her family was gone .
” Ooo they are cutting the cake ! ” I smiled , watching her .
Dad had cut the cake and Mom had fed him a piece a while ago , but it hadn’t been cut up for the rest until now .
Trust Raven to want some , but i n the process , she left me and Damon alone with that mate comment hanging in the air … I decided to ask him the question that was on my mind .
” Why didn’t you tell me you two had rejected each other ? I swear I didn’t know , or I wouldn’t have said- ”
” I know you didn’t .
You’re not a sly ” person , Liam .
You’re straight up .
I knew you didn’t know and Raven confirmed that .
We did what was best , for all of us … ” He said quietly , looking up at the sky , sighing deeply .
It ” It takes a lot .
Thank you .
” I said quietly , looking at him .
” It does , but that’s the difference between us ..
You’re an Alpha and I’m a Beta .
” He smiled despite the pain in his voice , but his words hit home .
” We won’t ever be equal , no matter how much we say it .
” I didn’t say anything , I couldn’t .
I was an Alpha , and it was in my blood to be possessive , but in the process , I had made him feel inferior … That was never the intention .
“
That’s not true Damon , my behaviour does not mean- ‘ ” I love you , Liam , you are my Alpha , but don’t use that line .
We both know we aren’t equal .
” He said quietly , his eyes full of hurt , hurt that he usually masked so well .
” Guys , come here ! ” Raven shouted .
” Come on .
” Damon said , patting my shoulder .
“
Damon .
” He paused , glancing back at me .
” Yeah ? ” ” I may have wanted her all for myself , but never once did I think that I deserved her more than you because my rank was higher than yours .
I’ve always loved her , since I was young , that was all I could think of .
That I loved her first … It was never because I was an Alpha and you weren’t .
” I said quietly .
I needed him to know that .
” Isn’t it the same thing ? ” He asked quietly .
I didn’t reply , unable to .
If anything were to happen to me ….
Maybe they could be together … Maybe that’s why she was given two mates ? I watched him walk off , thinking he’d once said he’d die for me … Didn’t he realise I’d do the same for him too ? ” Liam ? ” Raven said , coming over holding a plate piled high with two , no three , large slices of cake .
” Yes , beautiful .
” I said softly as she caressed my face with her free hand .
” Are you ok ?
” I nodded , ” That’s a lot of cake for one bite – sized she -wolf .
” I teased .
She pouted .
” One was for you .
” She said .
I raised an eyebrow .
” Was it ? Or were you planning on taking y share ? ” I asked .
my s ” Not at all … I mean , you should offer it to me because I need to eat lots to grow … but that wasn’t the plan .
” She said , blinking u p at me .
Oh , it was definitely the plan , when it came to sweet treats , Raven could eat lots .
I chuckled ,
” Depends on what I get in return ? ” 1 asked .
” And now your bartering , shouldn’t mates be willing to give up everything for the other ? ” She complained , sounding cute .
” I still want something in return .
” I wrapped my arm around her as she did her best to keep her plate upright , and it was at that moment that I felt a wave of coldness wash over me .
Something wasn’t right .
I may not have the ability to foresee like Kiara . But I have always been very intuitive .
It was the same when we had pinpointed where the witch Endora was trying to resurrect was buried .
I just … felt i t .
I looked around sharply , the sound of Raven’s voice fading away , my eyes burning a magnetic blue .
I could see the kids playing together … Azura now in Mom’s lap … No , it’s not …
I turned scanning the crowd , watching Damon walk back towards the wall where we had been not long ago … and it was then that I saw it .
The flash of something out there , hiding i n the trees , metres beyond the wall .
My heart thundered in my chest , as I saw the glint of metal , and I realised what it was …
Time seemed to slow down , my heart .
thundering in my ears as my eyes homed i n on the man who was holding one of the deadly assault rifles we had designed only to use on the Wendigos years ago … Weapons that were now meant to be locked away … A weapon that was pointed towards us , with Damon being in its first line of range , eating his cake unsuspecting .
My instincts kicked in and I pushed Raven to the ground .
” GET DOWN ! ” I shouted , as I rushed towards Damon in a flash , spinning him
around , shielding him with my own body a s I heard the shots go off .
Screams erupted in the air , pain ripping through m e , knocking the breath from me .
Pain , suffocating pain ….
My entire back was screaming in burning agony , spreading through my entire body .
I couldn’t breathe , I couldn’t …..
The growls of wolves filled the air as Damon turned , his eyes wide in shock as h e stared at me , catching me before I fell .
I said I’d die for you too … My eyes stung as I realised this was it ….
I never got to say goodbye to her … Her piercing scream of despair ripped through my heart .
I had failed her .
I wanted to see her … One last time to tell her I loved her … but I couldn’t link … I looked up at Damon’s hazy face .
He was saying something , panic and fear in his voice .
I wanted to tell him … to take care of her … I felt my heart palpitate before it seemed t o slow .
The agonising pain was fading … and darkness was surrounding me .
Was this what death felt like ? Was my time truly over ? RAVEN My heart shattered when I felt agony tear through me , as I watched Liam pull Damon away from the wall …
Watching my love take the rain of bullets , the smell of his blood and wolfsbane hung in the air , his pain and sadness washing through the bond .
A scream left my lips as I ran towards him .
All I could think of was the seal on his healing .
Many wolves rushed past , heading to the attacker , but all I could think of was my mate … ” Liam ! ” I cried as Damon placed him on his side .
” Fuck ! ” He whispered , he was shaking I was about to look when he shook his head , placing his hand on my shoulder .
” Don’t look .
” ” Liam baby , ” I whimpered , cupping Liam’s handsome face instead .
His heartbeat was fading , I couldn’t think straight … This can’t be happening ….
He couldn’t heal ! He can’t … “
He can’t heal ! His healing is sealed ! ” I sobbed as if someone could fix this .
” ” What do you mean , Raven ?! ” Damon asked urgently .
” No … No , Liam , wake up ! ” I cried , cradling his head to my chest .
He can’t die , or I don’t want to live anymore .
Goddess , take me instead ! ” Liam ! ” Aunty Red called .
” Raven , what d o you mean he can’t heal ?!
She looked ghostly , tears streaming.down her cheeks .
” He got Delsanra to seal his abilities away so he wouldn’t hurt anyone if he lost control ! ” ” No wonder … I couldn’t sense his Alpha Aura … ” Aunty Red murmured .
” We need something to lift him onto ! To get him to the hospital ! ” I stared down at him ….
This was a nightmare … It’s not real … I couldn’t breathe … I can’t … I don’t want to live without him … I need him ! The pain inside of me was ripping me apart , tearing into me like a thousand beasts ready to kill , each passing moment more painful than the last .
My head was pounding , my heart was squeezing …
I felt someone dragging me away from Liam .
” Let go of me ! ” I struggled , tears blurring my vision .
I need him ! ” He’ll be ok .
” Damon’s soothing voice came , but it was lies ! I could hear it in his voice , the broken tone of defeat .
The two doctors were shaking their heads and pointing at his back .
” ….
can’t move him ….
” ” He’ll die … ” ” It’s too late … ” No.
NO ! It’s not too late ! ” I need him ! Let go of me ! ” I screamed .
I won’t let him go ! I twisted in Damon’s arms , slamming my elbow into his ribs as hard as I could , and broke free , rushing to Liam’s side .
Aunty Red was sitting there frozen , her face ghostly white .
I pushed through , lifting Liam’s head in my hands .
You are my world .
I won’t be able to live if my world is gone .
I looked at his handsome face , tears streaming down my cheeks .
The fight isn’t over until we take our last breath .
I kissed his unmoving lips , and for a moment everything faded away … The soft tingle of a dying bond remained … There’s nothing worth living for if he’s gone .
I looked down at his neck , my heart pounding , my eyes flashing before I bent down , extracting my canines and sinking them into his neck .
Marking Him … I felt the flicker of the spark flare through us as I felt the bond becoming complete .
His heart skipped a beat , picking up for a moment , and my heart leapt with hope .
” Please , blue eyes , look at me .
” I begged .
” We need to get the bullets out .
Just try ! ” Aunty Red was shouting .
” Contact Kiara ! ” D ” Luna , please listen , he … there’s no hope .
” One of the doctors was whispering .
I stared down at him , begging him silently .
Wake up , baby … Please wake up …
His heart thumped , once … twice … and then … It stopped .
I felt something being torn from my chest , agony slicing through me like a million lashes .
” NO ! ” Aunty Red’s scream filled the sky .
I closed my eyes as pain I had never felt before wrapped around me … I couldn’t breathe .
The pain inside of me was crushing me . Goddess … If you are to take him , then you will take me too … I opened my eyes , as tears streamed down
my cheeks , staring down into the face of the man I loved … Reality hit me brutally , wreaking havoc in my life in a way I never thought was possible , completely destroying me .
Only one reality rang clear in that raging storm .
Liam was gone .