150. The Plans
Rockford was frustrated. He thought they were happy. He figured that he could handle being in a relationship with the two of the people that he loved. Dee was great, she was doing good things with her time after she stopped dancing at Babes. He had also thought Rocco was doing great.
The man was supposed to go to his parents. Rocco was telling both him and Dee that he was mending the time he lost with his parents. Now, he knew that Rocco had spent those couple of times a week in a motel, alone, trying to fight his depression with his pills.
Fuck!
How did it get to this? Rocco was a sweet, gorgeous man, who they both adored very much. When Becca advised Rockford to put their man on a twenty-four-hour hold at the clinic he instantly told her no. He was going to take care of their man and he was going to take him home and get to the bottom of their issues. The issues that Rockford was not aware they even had.
He agreed to take Rocco to his doctor the next day and was ready to be up all night making sure he took lots of fluids and call Becca should he show signs of bad withdrawal from not taking his pills.
When Rocco curled beside him and lay quiet as a mouse, Rockford let him. He wanted the man to process what was really going on with his body since Becca said that he would become agitated when his mind thought he needed the pills to make him content.
“Morning, baby,” Rockford greeted Dee when she walked into their apartment. She looked exhausted but happy, well… Rockford hoped so.
“Morning, how’s your date night?” Dee winked, teasing, grabbing the fresh cup of coffee that Rockford just made for himself. She added milk and lots of sugar before taking the cup to the sexy curve of her lips. Rockford poured himself another cup and took it black. The man smiled looking at Dee who still couldn’t get used to the way he took his coffee.
“Rocco is still asleep, I want to talk to you about him.”
“Sounds serious. Is everything okay?” The concerned expression on her face was unmistakable, and he took her into his arms and kissed her forehead telling her that he loved her. “You’re scaring me, babe.” She backed away and was ready to check on their man until Rockford shook his head.
“I accidentally caught him with unprescribed pills last night. I took him to the clinic and saw Becca. She got his files. Becca knew what he had taken in the past for his PTSD but… what he had last night was more, too many to take without being prescribed by his doctor.”
“But why?” Dee’s eyes were glassy, her fingers gripped his arms, her nails digging into his skin. Rockford knew that she loved him dearly and it broke his heart that he was the one who made Rocco slip and start taking pills.
“I haven’t asked. I just hugged him all night last night. Dee, will you tell me if you’re not happy with me? With us? Cause I can’t do this to him. I love him too much to watch him like that. His hands were shaking. He looked guilty as I caught him with his stash.”
“He was worried about you. I told him that you’d be okay. But now I know that he wasn’t listening. I thought everything was okay, you know… he had a great time at the Mansion. He was getting along with the wives.” Dee explained while Rockford stood in front of her.
“You know I’d leave everything if it gets him to stop taking pills. This job… it means nothing without both of your support.”
“Rockford, we love you. Finish your coffee, I’m going to take a quick shower in the guest bathroom then join both of you in bed. Make him a cup of hot chocolate milk. Cuddle him for me.” Dee took his jaw and kissed his lips after saying that she loved him.
Fifteen minutes later Rockford was talking softly with Rocco resting on his side, drinking from his cup when Dee entered their bedroom.
“Dee, how’s your night?” Rocco smiled and patted the space beside him. Rockford kissed the top of their boyfriend’s head before taking his empty cup and putting it next to his on his bedside table.
“Full of laughter and glitter. Hence the shower.” Her grin brightened up his face immediately and Rockford was feeling better already. When Rocco woke up, the air around them was tense and he did what Dee told him to do. He gave their man his cup of chocolate milk and cuddled him while whispering that he loved the man and that he wanted him to get better. Rockford didn’t dare ask why, he didn’t want him to get more stressed out. He needed Dee.
“So, Rockford said that your date night was scandalous. Want to tell me about it?” Dee put her hand on his chest on told him that she loved him, that she loved both of them.
“I… it’s stupid. I know you’re safe. I know you’re capable. But I worry. I don’t know how the wives handle their stress but I… maybe I need to go to my parents. Take a breather…”
“Nope. You’re not going anywhere. When we have a problem, we talk. I have known you for years. And I know you like to run away from your problems. But we’re happy. You were happy. So, honestly… Rocco, tell us why?” Dee questioned as her eyes were glued to their man, seeking the truth out of him.
“I’m lonely. I’m jobless, and I have too much time worrying about you.” Rocco put his hand on Rockford’s cheek and the man kissed his knuckles lovingly.
“You want to go back to bartending at the club?”
“I don’t, maybe, honestly, I wanted to go back to school. As I said… this is stupid. But it feels like if you can go back to your past I should also be able to go back to mine. I don’t know…”
“Rocco, you can go back to college. Finish it, not that you need to work for your degree. But you can if you want to. We will take it one day at a time. What did you study back then?” Rockford asked while Dee waited, not wanting to interrupt the moment.
“I was studying for my Education Degree. But after spending time with the wives and their kids maybe I’ll start easy by enrolling in early childhood education and go from there. I can always change subjects. My parents still have my college education fund. A few weeks ago, Mom asked when she called. Now that she knew that we were moving in together, she thought about me settling down and then told me that it was time for me to try again. So, yeah…”
“You know what I think? I think your mom is the smartest. I think she can sense that you’re ready to control your life. Last night… think of last night as a fluke,” Rockford saw that Rocco was about to interrupt their girlfriend when Dee put a finger on his lips. “You gotta try. If not for us, do it our baby,”
“Our w-what?”
“Our baby,” she grinned so wide that Rockford finally took her in his arms and Rocco joined in on their group hug.
“Our baby.” Rocco nuzzled into the crook of her neck and inhaled her fresh after-shower scent.
“Yep. You’re going to be the best daddy, and you…” She pointed her finger at Rockford’s chest, “You’re going to be the badass dad who will kick ass knowing you will have a baby and is waiting for you at home. No more risking your life. Wear your vest. Watch your back. I don’t like hospitals.” Dee kissed Rocco with so much vigor that Rockford groaned as he waited for his turn.
“How… when?” Rockford asked after Dee gave him the kiss that took his breath away.
“Remember when I had the stomach flu? Well, I stopped taking my pills and we had sex. I totally forgot about it since I was so horny after days without sex.” She batted her eyelashes as she explained, that, made Rockford laugh. “Then, the girls noticed that I was getting thinner and Bree said I looked sleepy, which I was. Lately, I’ve been sleepy. So, yesterday Bree got me to visit her ObGyn. I took a blood test confirming my pregnancy. And… next week is our ultrasound appointment. Last night turned into a celebration for my pregnancy with my girls.”
“Okay, both of you… stay here.” Rockford unlatched himself from his lovers and walked towards their walk-in closet. He went to the safety box where he put his guns and pulled out the small velvet box that he had gotten for them last week. He had been waiting for the right moment to ask them and with Dee’s announcement, it was the best moment he could ever imagine.
He sat on the edge of the bed with Dee and Rocco watching him as the small box was peeking from his hand. “Dee, Rocco, I love you… both of you. I can’t imagine my days without you,” Dee was teary, cursing about pregnancy hormones, but Rocco… the man’s eyes were glassy and emotions were thick surrounding the air around them. Rockford had to clear his throat before he managed to continue. “With our baby, on the way, I know I want to make things official between us. Dee, Rocco will both of you marry me?” He opened the ring box, it had one beautiful diamond ring with two matching platinum rings for him and Rocco.
“Yes!” Dee giggled and let him put the ring on her finger.
“But we can’t all get married legally.” Rocco was the first to burst their little bubble.
“You can marry Dee, legally. But I want us to have the ceremony with our friends. We will invite your parents and our closest friends.”
“Are you sure?” Rocco asked though he still let Rockford put the ring on his finger, then Dee put the last ring on Rockford’s finger. The man clutched his hand so tightly that Rockford knew that he was about to crack.
“I am sure.”
“Or you can marry Rockford?” Dee pipped in and that made both men chuckle.
“No baby, I’ve been thinking about it. It’s best for the baby if you’re married to one of us and it’ll be my pleasure to let Rocco marry you legally. I know that you’re both mine. You can think about it. But as soon as Emelie sees the rings and hears about your pregnancy I’m sure our wedding will follow. That… that is what I’m waiting for. To be united with both of you for the rest of our lives.”
“Ugh… you say the sweetest things.” Dee was once again wiping her tears away and watching with teary eyes as Rocco rubbed his thumb on Rockford’s finger.
“I love you. I love both of you and I will get better. I want to get better. I’ll call Dr. Sheridan and set up an appointment.”
The day couldn’t start more perfectly. They spent the rest of the morning cuddled in their bed talking about their future.