ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy Pov

I was woke by Cross’s voice, it took a while to get up and I went to open the door without thinking, only when I had opened the door did my mind begin to process that I wasn’t supposed to be talking to him, it was too late and I couldn’t just shut the door in his face.

“What do you want?”

I asked eyeing him

“Why didn’t you wake me up when you got back? Didn’t you see my calls?”

“I saw them and choose to ignore and I don’t recur us talking about telling each other where or when we are coming back home,”

I said wanting him gone so that I can go back to sleep.

“Kathy, can you please not do this?”

“Do what? I haven’t done anything here, you are the one that woke me up from sleep, and bet you I am so fucking tired so please,”

“You should have woken me up when you got home, I was worried about you,”

“Are you sure? Or were you worried Ginna spilled your secrets the more because I met her, and I guess she might have told you since you told her we are getting a divorce,”

“Yes, she spoke to me and said you contacted her, but I never told her we were getting a divorce, we are not getting a divorce, I am not going to let that happen,”

“Wait, she said I contacted her? She is a liar then because she was the one that contacted me, not the other way around,”

I said, that woman must have a degree in lying because she was good at it, how could she tell Cross I contacted her when in fact she was the one who called me wanting to meet up so that she can tell me about her and Cross relationship but then all she did was play victim and accusing me of something o didn’t do, I already knew I shouldn’t trust her words but I still wanted to know what she meant by what she had said, that looked like the only genuine thing she had said to me the whole night because she was really saddened by it and that much emotions can’t be faked.

“She told me you did, which was why I tried to stop you from meeting her because I know she was just going to feed you with more lies, lies woven to drive us further apart but you didn’t take my calls,”

“I had to hear what she had to say and if you don’t have anything to hide then you won’t want to stop me from meeting her,”

I replied messing with him.

“I don’t have anything to hide Kathy but it’s Ginna, she might make things up and you will believe her,”

“Why would you think I will believe her if it’s not believable? I am not that gullible Cross, you may think I am stupid but I am not,”

“I don’t think you are stupid Kathy, it’s just that, after those photos of what happened, you might believe everything else she tells you, but I can assure you that they are not true,”

“Let me be the judge of that, okay, can’t you just let me be?”

“I want to but I can’t,”

“Whatever, can you leave now?”

I asked wanting to close my door but he held on.

“Cross!!!”

I shouted getting pissed.

“Have you eaten?”

He suddenly asked, I didn’t remember to eat but he didn’t have to know that.

“That’s none of your business,”

I replied.

“Kathy, as much as I don’t want to say this but can you please think about the well-being of our baby, please?”

“Oh my gosh,”

I said silently feeling horrible for not thinking of our baby, I should have thought of her and eaten something.

“I am still not used to being pregnant, can you get me something to eat?”

I requested, I would have gone to get it myself but I wasn’t feeling like going to the kitchen as the different smell of food there might make me throw up.

“I guess, can you please try to remember?”

“I am sorry,”

I apologized.

“No, don’t be, I should be the one apologizing to you, I am the reason you are going through all these,”

“Good to know you know, can you please get the food, I don’t want to go to the kitchen

“Sure, I will be right back, just don’t shut the door on me please,”

“I won’t, I said to get the food right?”

I said leaving the door open and going back to sit by the window, it was already late and the lights coming from the various houses in the estate was all that I could make out, I checked my phone hoping that Ginna had replied to me but still there wasn’t a response, and I was going to leave for Arizona tomorrow, if she didn’t meet up with me then I am going to have to ask Cross instead, but I will do that when we are in Arizona, I texted her that I will be leaving by eleven am that if she wants to still talk to me it has to be before then.

“I got something for you,”

Cross said as he walked into my room I got out the window and went to sit on the couch and he dropped the tray of food In front of me.

“Thanks,”

I said and ate in silence, the silence was however broken by the sound of an incoming call, I checked and it wasn’t mine, and pointed at him.

“It’s your phone,”

I said, he seemed to be lost in thoughts and had not heard the phone ring, I wanted to ask him what he was thinking about but then I didn’t want to have a conversation with him yet if I do I might forgive him so easily.

“Cross? Your phone is ringing, are you even here?”

I said a little loud which snapped him out of his thoughts, he seemed to have been pretty deep in them As he stared at me in confusion, his eyes had so much sadness in them that for s moment I wanted to tell him that we will be okay, but then he looked away and answered his phone and the moment was gone.

*Mom? Why are you calling so late?”

He asked and placed the phone on the loudspeaker.

“Shut up, do I need a time to call my son?”

“Ma? It’s late,”

“I know, I just wanted to know if you guys are still coming over tomorrow,”

She said and he turned to look at me as if asking for my answer.

“Son? Are you still there?”

“Yes, mom, the thing is… Mom I…”

“Don’t tell me you have changed your mind, Anna would be disappointed, she has been asking for you none stop and she can’t even use her phone now because the doctor requested for it to be taken away,”

“Mom, I am…”

“Mom, we are still coming, don’t worry,”

I said cutting him off and collecting the phone.

“Oh goodness, I thought you will already be sleeping that’s why I didn’t bother to ask of you, how are you doing my dear?”

“I am fine, mom and we will see each other tomorrow, I have something to tell you,”

I replied, she seemed to be very excited as she let out a whoop whoop, I could hear my father-in-law in the background telling her to keep it down.

“That’s good to know darlings, your husband was stammering and I thought you guys changed your minds and he was trying to come up with an excuse, Anna really wants to see him and she looks like she is going to give birth any moment now,”

“Don’t worry we will be there before that, our flight is eleven am and we already booked it since last week, Cross would be hurt if he miss her giving birth,”

I replied, looking at him, his eyes were on mine too, and he looked like he was going to cry, did he really think I will deprive him of going home? I wasn’t that evil, I mean I am not evil at all, just those sad-looking eyes and I already want to assure him but I need to clear something first.

“Cool, I will let you guys get some sleep and will be expecting you guys tomorrow, thank you baby girl, and have a good rest, I should go tell Anna that you guys are still coming, it will put her mind at rest too.”

“Alright, see you tomorrow,”

“, Okay,”

She said and left the phone without hanging up, after listening to her excitedly tell her husband that we were still coming, I ended the call myself and handed his phone back to him.

“I thought you changed your mind,”

“Why will you think that? We already planned on leaving and my bags are already packed,”

I said pointing at the luggage at the side of my bed, I expected him to be the one to pull out but then I knew how much he wanted to be around for when Anna gives birth which was why I was sure he will still go but as at before I spoke with Ginna I had wanted to go alone but after the talk with Ginna and what she had accidentally spilled I decided that his offense weren’t that huge that I will punish him that much, and I wasn’t going to divorce him, he didn’t cheat on me technically since according to Ginna’s word thoughts of him made it not happen which was a plus for him but he still has to pay for kissing her, the thought of the kiss brought back the image of them kissing, and I shook my head to get the thoughts off.

“Are you okay?”

He asked.

“Yeah, you should leave, I wanna sleep,”

I replied getting off the couch.

“Can I stay here with you? I don’t want to be alone, I can sleep on the couch, I just want to be with you,”

“I don’t want to be in the same space as you Cross, just leave me alone,”

“Kathy, please, can we talk about this, I know I messed up and I admit it but please don’t give up on me, don’t give up on us, I want our family to be together, I don’t want to leave apart from you,”

He pleaded.

“I don’t want to talk about it, you said you will give me time, just let me be okay? I still have a lot to sort out, I still have a lot of questions,”

“You can ask me, I promise I will tell you everything without leaving out any details, just please don’t shut me out,”

“Fine, you can sleep here but not on this bed, and I will ask those questions when I have finished sorting them out, and you already promised to be honest with me, bear in mind that I have had things from Ginna, things I choose not to believe because of her she is, but that doesn’t mean I will believe everything you say without verifying, once beaten twice shy, I can’t let you fool me again,”

I replied, if Ginna doesn’t answer me before morning then there was no need for us to meet again, I will get all the details I wanted from Cross instead.

“Thank you, I will just go get my beddings,”

He said leaving the room in a hurry, and he was back in seconds, I watch him prepare the couch where he was passing the night and wondered if he was going to be comfortable sleeping there, not to be a devil I decided to just let him share a bed with me.

“You can sleep on the bed, I don’t want your mom thinking I am not treating you right when we get home tomorrow but don’t you dare take off your clothes, and don’t you cross the line,”

I said making a barricade with the extra pillow and laying on one side of the bed.

“Thank you, Kathy,”

“Keep your thanks because this doesn’t mean we are cool, I am just looking out for myself here,”

I answered and closed my eyes.

“I love you, Kathy,”

He said, I was slowly getting used to him telling me that, but I didn’t want to let myself believe it as believable as it sounds, he may not have chosen Ginna but that didn’t mean he really loves me, he might just want to make up so much that he chooses to use the words he knew I wanted to hear from him the most…