CHAPTER THIRTY TWO
They had ran into a corner to prevent the guards from catching sight of the both of them. However, something was still lingering and she was yet to get a response from him.
Alyssa gulped down hard when she looked at Liam and realized that he wasn’t making any efforts towards answering her.
His eyes still roamed around the garden, to be sure that no guard was around anymore.
“The guard is gone”, Alyssa announced, even if she knew that Liam was aware of that fact.
“Ohh!” Liam mouthed and chuckled to cover up his anxiety.
His heart was beating out of his chest and his head was banging with different thoughts. He wasn’t dreaming, neither was it a hallucination.
Alyssa had told him that she loves him and the feelings keeps growing by the day….
He looked over at her and realized that she was awaiting a response, but he was out of what to say and utter.
“Should he say he feels the same? Or would it be better to keep mute and just observe her?” Liam thought silently while Alyssa stared at him while awaiting a response.
“We were almost caught!” Liam spewed and breath out a considerable sigh of relief.
Alyssa couldn’t believe her ears. She had thought that they were done with the discussion pertaining the guard who nearly caught them. Didn’t he see that she awaited a response in regard to what she uttered?
She was devastated, but only swallowed hard and looked away.
Liam stared at her again and was able to point out the change in her mood. She was hurt and it was clear.
He thought of what to do in the situation. He was truly excited that she came clean to him with details of how she felt. But then, he was aware that he needed to be careful because he wasn’t being truthful to her.
He remembered Nathaniel words and his heart sank. He was right…
Alyssa would never feel the same way for him if she discovers who he truly is.
For some minutes, he remained numb and unable to make a decision regarding giving her a response.
Alyssa’s face remained lowered to the ground. She felt like a fool for spewing out such words to a man who didn’t feel the same way. She had thought he loved her too, but maybe, she was just being desperate…
“I should head back to my room now…”, Alyssa announced and stood to her feet, not sparing Liam another glance.
She was at the verge of crying and she greatly feared that she would give herself away if she spent another minute there with him.
At this, she stepped out of their hiding corner and started walking away. Liam was taken aback for a second. He realized that he had hurt her and this prompted him to pull her back.
“I’m sorry, Alyssa”, he apologized, barely able to peer into her eyes.
“I feel the same way”, he confessed, swallowing hard and hoping that she would believe him.
Alyssa scoffed after which she yanked her hands away from his grip. She was sure that he didn’t mean it, because if he did, he wouldn’t have hesitated to say it.
“Don’t lie to me because you want to make me feel better. And don’t you dare come close to me!” Alyssa screamed angrily, with her eyes red in rage.
Liam was stunned at her outburst. He had no slightest idea that she would react in such manner.
“I’m sorry, I just didn’t know how to react to your statement”, Liam said, trying to take closer steps towards her.
“I don’t believe you! Leave me alone”, Alyssa screamed as the tears finally poured out of her eyes.
Liam was hurt to see Alyssa in tears. He didn’t believe that his reaction would make her cry this much.
“I love you. I really do!” Liam said with every sincerity in his voice.
He was in love with her and it ached his heart to see that she wasn’t anywhere close to believing him.
“If you love me, you won’t shy away. All I wanted was a response from you, but you ignored me”, she complained and turned to head back to her room.
“Wait!” Liam called out and hurried to meet up with her.
“I have something to tell you”, Liam finally said, and abruptly, Alyssa raised her head, with curiosity in her eyes.
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“The truth is that I have a number of things to tell you”, Liam divulged and Alyssa’s eyes sparked with great interest.
“Is that why you kept mute all these while? Is that why you remained silent even after I told you all what I feel about you?” She inquired and Liam nodded in affirmation.
Alyssa scoffed and folded her hands to her chest. Deep down in her heart, she knew that there was no justification for how he made her feel. But then, she didn’t want to be too harsh on him. At this, she nodded her head and gestured for him to move on with his explanation.
“I have this wild feelings for you, and trust me when I say that it’s the truth”, Liam said and gulped down hard.
“I’m only scared that you won’t love me again if you come to know about them”, he laid out his fears while she stared at him intently.
“I won’t hate you for any reason!” Alyssa said defiantly, but Liam shook his head in disapproval.
“It’s a huge one. A large part of my heart is convinced that you would be hurt and maybe, leave me forever”, Liam dropped and for a moment, Alyssa remained stunned and dazed.
She searched through her heart for situations that would cause her to hate Liam up to the point where she would leave him forever.
She wasn’t getting any reason and made her more confused.
Alyssa sighed deeply and fell back to the grass. Everything was moving with speed and it was as though she found it difficult to interpret them as they were coming.
She thought of her own secret information and how he would feel after he knows her own truth…
Deep down, she wondered if he would love her after he finds out who she truly is.
She also wondered if his secret is as bad as her own…
She shook her head silently after making a conclusion that there was no way her secrets was better than his. All she wanted was to be with him and that was going to happen.
“I don’t care about anything, I promise!” Alyssa suddenly said while Liam gazed at her with his jaws dropped in shock.
He had thought that she would even get mad at him for hiding things from her. But instead, she was fine with it…
“Alyssa, are you sure?” Liam asked again, peering piercingly into her eyes that beamed with certainty.
“Let’s put aside all those worries. We should focus on ourselves and how we feel about each other”, Alyssa suggested and Liam nodded in agreement.
He sat down on the grass beside her, feeling so glad that she didn’t take the situation to be so extreme like he had thought it would be.
“I love you, Alyssa!” He whispered in delight.
He was blown away to realize that she was so understanding and this doubled the love he already had for her.
“But then, I need to tell you this”, Liam suddenly said and sat up.
“Don’t tell me anything. Just kiss me”, Alyssa said with a smile.