Alpha Of Darkness And The Half-Breed Healer

NIA’S POV

My eyes fluttered as I adjusted it to the early morning light. I glanced around the room, feeling out of place. No matter how much I try to get the thoughts of my present condition out of my mind, it keeps haunting me. On mornings like this, Gael would sleep soundly next to me. Things have changed now, and I wake up in my bed alone.

Every day, I stare at my phone, hoping he would send me a text or put a call through after realizing his mistake. As much as I wished for it, I know it wastes time. He had already made up his mind and wouldn’t attempt to communicate. I have never felt this way towards anyone before. The mere thought of him makes my heart ache. I wondered why we became close in the first place if we would end like this. The humiliation stuck to my body like glue.

I must admit to Perry and Kingston’s kindness. Both of them make me feel like I have nothing to worry about. Kingston, exceptionally, has returned to playing his older brother’s role. I feel ashamed of myself for thinking so low of him. He is nothing like his parents, and I am happy I found a family in him.

Ever since he came by here the first time, he ensured to see me at every one of his breaks to keep me company. I haven’t gotten any jobs yet because of the high demand. That would help take my mind off countless things. I wouldn’t need to spend my entire day wishing and hoping Gael would show up at my doorstep like the romantic books have expressed many times.

Curling up against myself, I blinked rapidly to keep the tears away. I don’t like how vulnerable I become every time to someone who doesn’t care about me. It seems wrong to cry over Gael. I hope he and Gemma live happily. It is probably the goddess’s plan. There is someone out there who is better for me. Or better still, something more fulfilling. I would instead focus on myself to become more confident than lean on someone to be happy.

Huffing, I got up from the bed and headed to the living room. Perry was in the kitchen making coffee. “Good morning,” I mumbled.

“Morning, girl. How was your night?” She asked, looking up at me. “did you even get to sleep at all?”

I sucked my teeth, pulling out a chair to sit. “I wanted to get the sleep so bad. But I couldn’t stop thinking.”

She kept mute and made another cup of coffee, handing it to me. “I know how you must be feeling. It’s difficult to take in a betrayal from the one you trusted with the whole of you.”

The tears almost rushed to my eyes. “Did Gael ever love me? Why couldn’t he give me the benefit of the doubt? He stared at me like I was some trash. I still remember those eyes vividly. Like I fool, I hope every day that he would call me and beg for us to get back together. It’s almost a month now, and still no news from him. I want to forget about him so badly, but I find myself asking Ezra whenever he calls how he is doing. I am so dumb.”

Perry snorted. “Do you feel any better after referring to yourself as dumb? There is no crime in loving someone. Many of them are just assholes that don’t deserve that much affection. However, it would help if you looked on the brighter side. You have a clean conscience. You know for certain that all you did was love him dearly. That shows you are a better person than he would ever be. Gemma didn’t steal anything from you, and she was just a tool to show you the kind of person Gael truly is, no matter how much he tries to fool you.”

“I am not sure about me being a good person. Considering all the bad things that have happened to me, I must have done something horrible in my first life to face all these bad things.”



She chuckled, “Baby, life never promised a smooth ride. Think about it: bad things happen to good people many times. The only way to live and feel fulfilled is to accept one’s situation and make the best of it. I was having a thought about the locket you said Kingston found. If he is willing to help you find your father’s family, why don’t you let him? It is the human world, and since your father was a human, he would have few of his family members alive. Probably, this was why the goddess needed to pull you out of the sunset pack. Seize the opportunity and find them. Do it more to avoid any regrets in the future. Trust me that is the best you can do to honor your father’s memory.”

I stared down at the cup, breathing slowly. “I have temporary amnesia from my childhood with my real parents, Perry. I only remember faint memories of all that happened before my father’s death. It means I have nothing except the locket to prove that I am my father’s daughter. What if they don’t believe me, and I make a fool of myself? I doubt if I would ever recover from that.”

“Do you know the problem you have, Nia? It’s that you overthink. Stop overthinking and analyzing the outcome of what you haven’t started. We are still not certain we will find your paternal family. It is us just trying our luck. So, stop worrying constantly over something you cannot control and let fate take its course. Put a call through to Kingston, and let’s see what happens from there.”

“Are you sure about this?” I asked again, still not confident.

“Do you have anything to lose?” Perry inquired, taking a sip of her coffee. I shook my head in response. “Then do it. Don’t let anything stop you. If, after everything, you don’t find your family. You and I will change our names and become siblings by paper. After that, we would live the rest of our lives together with loads of cats to take care of.” She grinned.

“Ewwww, your lifetime dream is so boring.” I teased.

She looked unfazed, “like you have anything to top that. We would do as I suggested.”

I laughed lightly. “Alright, I will call Kingston. I hope this ends well.”

“Blame me if it doesn’t. Please, let’s be positive.”

I scoffed playfully, heading back to the room to call Kingston. “Alright. Be positive, Nia.” I retorted.