EPISODE THIRTY NINE
THEME: The Silent Alpha
DARK WOOD PACK
FEW MONTHS LATER
Days has gone by into weeks and went on until several months passed with me not having an idea of where I belong. Still no alpha has come to claim me as a native of a particular pack and I have accepted my fate of being a baby mama to an alpha.
If you are expecting things to be sweet between the alpha and I then erase the thought. Alpha Riley is the same cold and dangerous looking werewolf and I remain the woman is meant to bear his pup. The heir that he desires to take over the reign of the pack when he retires.
I wasn’t due until two weeks time. If I have this child, my only chance would be to nurse the pup for a few months and afterwards I would be gone. I would leave my child behind and travel somewhere far around the globe where no one would ever find me. The thought of being away from my unborn pup always brought tears to my eyes but it is the choice I have made.
It is the best I could do to show gratitude to the alpha who had saved me and taken me under his wings. The memories in my head are the ones from this pack and nothing else. I know they would linger on with me even when I am gone till I breathe my last.
I prepared pasta for the alpha when he returned him from a meeting at the pack. And I exited the kitchen after setting the table for him. Every part of my body throbbed and aches so badly as if I just did a very hard labor. I was sweating profusely from exhaustion but I knew it was the tiredness from the weight of the pregnancy on my body.
My belly was so big that one would think I would give birth to a set of twins. But scan results proved that I was going to have just one pup.
Time has gone by too fast as I remembered the day I had collapsed in the bathroom while taking my bathe. And when I woke up, I opened my eyes to see smiles on the alpha and Doctor Jenny faces only for her to break the news that I was pregnant. I was weeks gone but I had no idea that I was pregnant.
And soon, I would have my pup in my arms. A pup I wouldn’t be able to love and cherish for a long time. I would be all alone. I could feel myself falling inside at the thought of it. I wish things were different now.
I wondered if I could really survive leaving my child behind. I have to survive it.. no matter what even if I hope of meeting my pup someday. Throughout the months, I didn’t let myself fall into depression because of my deal with the alpha for the pup’s sake.
I lowered myself onto the couch as I let out a shaky breathe. Some minutes later, I heard the sound of water running in the kitchen. I rubbed my hands unconsciously over my belly as I stared into space.
“Edda.” I jumped in fear when alpha Riley’s hand touched my shoulder blade. “Oh.. my goodness..” my heartbeat fastened at the mild waves of shock that ran through me.
“Are you okay?” Alpha Riley asked.
“Yes.. yes.. I am.. fine.” I nodded my head repeatedly.
“What are you thinking? You zoned out completely.” Alpha Riley said.
“Nothing. I am doing fine too.” I forced a smile on my face.
“You look tired.” Alpha Riley’s eyes studied my face.
I let my head drop down to my fiddling fingers on my laps now. He doesn’t need to know about my thoughts. My head snapped up to meet his gaze when I felt a touch on my belly.
“Perhaps is the baby on its way? I can take you to the infirmary to see-”
I interrupted him. “No.. I am doing okay. And the baby.. I guess.. it is fine too.” I mumbled.
“But.. I don’t feel comfortable with the way you have been acting lately.” Alpha Riley had a concerned look on his face.
His touch was sending a tingling feeling in me that has been there for months now. “Doctor Jenny said.. I should expect to feel tired.. that’s how I am feeling right now.” I admitted.
“Edda, can you stop trying to hide how you feel each time I ask you? It makes me more worried about you and the pup.” Alpha Riley frown deepened.
He did an unexpected move. My breathe caught when his hand began to caress my protruded belly. I couldn’t tell him to stop because I wanted it too, I longed for his touch and he is the father of the pup.
His gaze locked mine for some split second before he withdrew quickly as if my belly burned him. Alpha Riley stood up and walked away into his bedroom. We don’t share the same room and the time we got intimate in the shower was the only time we have ever been together. The alpha kept his distance from me after he left me in the shower. And he avoided me completely the moment he found out that I was pregnant.
I once asked him why he seemed distant but the response I got was that he was trying to be careful so he won’t hurt me or the baby in anyway.
Tears formed in my eyes as I tried to stand up from the couch but could help myself up. I swallowed hard as I pushed myself forward slowly on the couch.
“I am.. fine.. Edda.. we can do this.” I tried to encourage myself. Well that’s what I have been doing for months now to fight depression. I didn’t let the tears drop too, it has been months since I cried.
I placed one hand underneath my belly while my free hand balled into a fist on the couch as I dragged myself up. And all of a sudden goosebumps roughened my skin as I began to feel cold. I should head back to my room and lay still in bed until I fall asleep. I gasped for breathe as I walked to my room.
As I climbed into the bed, my stomach felt tight and heavy as I leaned my head on the bed headboard. I felt a kick in my belly. I reached out to massaged the place as I closed my eyes.
“Oh my dear pup, no matter what happens always remember that I love you.” I mumbled to total silence in the room as I conversed with the kicking foot in my belly.